How is it possible

That when you are waiting for your little one to get here... the days drag on and time stands still...then when they do arrive... the days just seem to fly by?! Emmalyn is almost five days old already. It doesnt seem possible. Wasn't I just getting ready to have her yesterday?!

She's doing wonderful.. she never cries unless she's hungry or needs a diaper change. She's so laid back and will lay in her swing contently & sleep in her bed. Amazing! I'm finding myself doing exactly what I said I wouldn't... holding her while she's sleeping or letting her lay with me. I can't help it! lol. She's just so tiny (yet growing so fast) and with her being my last.. I just want to cherish every second of her being this tiny little angel. She's starting to stay awake for much longer periods of time and just gaze around at everyone. It cracks Ariel & Clarity up when she's looking at them and sticks out her tongue or makes a face. They love it. I have two amazing helpers... that are always jumping at the chance to get me diapers or wipes or to let me know if she starts to fuss a bit if I'm in another room.

Things have been hectic in this house with all these bugs going around. Jesse's so sick he had to call in to work this morning. I know he was really debating it but he was just so run down and running a fever.. I told him to just do it. That if he didnt rest he'd probably end up missing more than a day and going to the hospital. He hasn't gotten off the couch except to eat a bit of breakfast and other than that he's been asleep. I know it drives him crazy.. he's such a busy person.. so you know when he's like this, he's REALLY sick. I felt horrible last night with a cough & tickle in my throat that kept choking me. On the good side: Ariel & Clarity are doing MUCH better now so it must be a come and go virus. I sure hope so. I get to fight walmart today to do some grocery shopping. It really needs to be done. Jesse & I have put it off as long as we could. I'll leave him & the girls in the truck (I would leave them home but Jesse said he'd rather go that way if Emma starts fussing he can call me and I can go sit in the truck and he'll finish the shopping). So eventually today we'll get around to doing that escapade. Not looking forward to it! We're under a winter storm warning right now.. I guess sometime tonight it's supposed to start snowing and we're going to get between 2-4 inches (supposedly). All winter I've looked foward to snow... now I'm so over it and I actually wouldnt mind not getting anything. I'm ready for warm weather and for everyone to feel better!

Surprise all right.... It's a GIRL!!!!

Emmalyn Reese Moore was born February 21, 2008 at 2:30 p.m. She weighed 6 lbs 11 oz and was 19 inches. We are thrilled with her and love having her here! It's like she's always been a part of the family and we're all totally in love with her! Ariel & Clarity are all the time wanting to help or love up on her. It's so cute!!

We've been going to the doctor or hospital ever since we brought her home. The first time it was for a weight check (she was 6 lbs 5 oz on Saturday) and we were sent to the lab for a bilirubin test since the pediatrician thought she might have jaundice. Her levels were high... 18% so we had to go back Sunday for another test. These were much better.. they were down to 11% so she's good there! We had another weight check this morning and she is 6 lbs 9 oz (they were really impressed she's gained 4 oz back in two days). She's eating well, sleeping well, pooping well, peeing well... all is great... so we dont have to go back until her 1 month check up! yay!

I've been a nervous wreck for the past two days though. It started out with Clarity running a low grade fever. She just had some sort of short lived virus. But the thing that scares me is it only takes a temp of 100.4 for it to be considered a medical emergency in a newborn. Then last night Ariel gets really sick... just laying around, complaining of a headache, then spiking a fever over 102. So between worrying about the older girls and keeping them away Emmalyn as much as possible... and then checking Emma's temp with every diaper change.. just to be sure.. I'm sooo tired! Flu and strep is running wild in this area so Jesse and I dont take the girls out (with the exception of Emmalyn's appointments) and even then, they wait in the truck with Jesse. I'll be so glad when this cold & flu season is over and I can relax about it a bit!

Last post as a mama of two!

Tomorrow is it! Jesse and I go to the hospital at 6:30 am to get this baby out of there. Of course I'm jittery and nervous.. I've never had to be induced before so I'm honestly in the dark about what to expect. I do know it's not going to be pleasant. I guess that's the trade off you have to make to know exactly when you're baby is coming.

I probably won't get an ounce of sleep tonight. Jesse & I are hoping to be leaving the house by like 5:30 or so that way he can get him some breakfast and we can go fill out all the paperwork that's needed at the hospital since I never got around to pre-registering. I'm so worried about the girls... I guess what I'm really worried about is something going wrong and the girls not having a mom. I know.. I shouldnt even let those thoughts enter my mind, but of course they do. I'm sure all will be fine. I've always been a worrier and I find I worry over nothing a lot of the time! Jesse's all the time telling me to relax that stress kills.. lol...he's right and I really should listen!

Well other than that, not much else is going through my mind! I babysat for Alley today & she was good most of the day but towards the end, her & Ariel started fussing at eachother. They were both tired. Emiley had an unusual morning. She came in and laid on the recliner and *gasp* went to sleep! I never get that lucky! lol. I guess it was because I told her as soon as she came in to please try to be quiet and be good because I really didnt feel very good. She listened! I woke her up about ten minutes before the bus came and brushed her hair... and she was in a good mood when she left. Nice!

Alley is going to stay with her dad tomorrow through Sunday and Emiley I guess is staying with him Friday. I forgot exactly what Lisa said was going on... but she made sure she doesnt need me until next Monday which is when I told Gregg I would probably be good to take the girls again.

soooo the next time I post.. I will have 3 little ones and I'll be able to post pics of the newest addition to our family and finally be able to say if it's a boy or girl and what we named them! How exciting! It's been fun... but I'm so done :o) lol

Appointment Today

Well after getting Emiley to school, Jesse and I took off for my appointment which I swore was going to be a decently long one. Nope not really! I was pretty much in & out. Jesse and the girls weren't even done eating breakfast (he took Alley, Ariel & Clarity for some Mcdonalds while they were waiting for me).

The doctor checked me and I'm 3 cm but not much else to say about it. I haven't been having contractions regularly and pretty much this baby is being lazy. lol. So Dr. Potter scheduled an induction for this Thursday at 6:30 am (well 7:00 am but she said I could get there at 6:30 and God knows we will if this baby isn't here by then). I'm actually kind of hoping I make it to the induction just because Jesse would have a four day weekend to be home and spend time with the baby and plus I babysit tomorrow.. lol.

Alley was soooo good today. I was actually surprised at what an easy day I had. Her and Ariel dont bicker constantly like Emiley & Ariel do. That in itself just makes the day go more smoothly. I dont know what I'm going to have to do to get Ariel & Emiley to chill out and just be nice. I dont know why it's so hard for them not to compete and fight! I told Jesse I can't believe how catty they can be towards eachother. Emiley is the same way with Alley. This morning she took her foot and just kicked Alley in the mouth. I told Jesse I felt like I am watching wrestling or something when I have to seperate those two girls. Thank goodness Ariel & Emiley only have verbal wars and not the physical stuff. I'd go insane!

We have names!

Jesse and I have one boy name and one girl name picked... YAY!! The girl name just popped into my head at like 4 am about a week ago. Dont know what made me wake up and think of it.. but once I did.. I just KNEW that was the name I wanted to use if it was a girl. Jesse's being go with the flow this time around. He said I pretty much came up with the girls' names and he loved those so I'm good at it and he let me go with it.

Of course we're being turds and not spilling the names until baby is here! The girls I talk to online are going nuts... I didn't find out the sex.. I wont tell them the names... I'm being bad, bad, bad! hehe.

We'll find out soon enough!

When I made my appointment for tomorrow, I completely forgotten I had told Lisa I'd take them in the morning! So.. after talking to her I told her I'd get Emiley to school and just take Alley with us to the appointment. Jesse & the girls always just wait in the truck anyways. Maybe with any luck the drive will put her to sleep. lol. I better get some sleep myself.. It's 10:40 pm and I have to be up by 4:30 am... I always like to get up and have my shower and straighten up the house before they get here.

I'll update about my doctor appointment as soon as I get home :o) Fingers crossed for good news!!

Anytime now would be great!

Today is officially my due date and that baby is just as happy as can be staying where it is, I guess! I was supposed to have an appointment today, but I rescheduled since Jesse would miss a ton of work being it was at 11:15 am. So I go in tomorrow at 8 am. Jesse's a nervous wreck.. lol. He called me this morning to see how I was and to see if I called the doctor and when I told him my appointment was in the morning, he was like "to induce you?". lmao. I think not. We'll see what they say. Maybe something will happen tonight and we wont even make it to the appointment.. but I'm sure not holding my breath!

My internet has been out for several days which is why I haven't posted to update my blog. But it's back again. Yay. I have never in my life had to wait on hold before actually speaking to a person for 40 minutes until today. Wildblue... gotta love their customer service! But at least it's back.. I have to check the bank account and pay some bills and when you do everything by internet and then you dont have it for a while... kind of throws things off! Guess that's what I get for depending on technology.

I watched Emiley Saturday & Sunday. Alley was at her dad's. Things are going well... Emiley is doing better with listening to me. I think the first few times she tested me to see what it was I was going to let her get away with. Which I dont think there's a kid that won't do that. lol. Her & Ariel sure have their moments. One minute they are friends and playing fine and the next they are doing the whole " I'm older than you" "well I'm smarter than you" "well I have more toys than you" "Clarity likes me better" fights! *pulls hair out* The other day I had enough. I raised my voice and told both of them that I was older and smarter and sick of hearing the constant bickering. I told them if they wanted to keep it up, I'd put them both outside and they could argue until the cows came home but it wasn't happening in my house. Emiley pipes up with "But cows dont come home" OMG. lol. I told her the cows would do whatever I wanted. Then I told them that Clarity was younger than both of them and had a better attitude and was acting more mature than them. Then Emiley tells me it's because Clarity can't talk. I told her no it was because Clarity had sense enough to know if she acted up it would make me mad. Finally it sunk in and they both straightened up and were fine the rest of the day. I think Emiley was shocked. Jesse just kind of sat there with a smirk on his face while I had my tirade. lol. He goes, "I love when you do that. It's so funny". I think Jesse and I have figured out why Emiley feels so much competition with Ariel and we're going to do our best to keep it in mind. We're trying to make Ariel realize what's going on too so she doesn't take anything personally. Emiley and Alley are really great kids... and I do think it's good that they're here, even when it's hard. Lord knows my kids need the interaction with others. Especially Ariel... I dont want her thinking she's the center of the universe when she starts school this fall.

Well I'm off to clean the house. Not much to do.. just laundry and get something out for dinner. I still havent gotten around to this office or the spare room. Maybe I'll get started on that. who knows.. I keep telling myself I'll get it done, just having a hard time with the making it happen part!

Oh yeah!

I meant to mention that Ariel actually wants a brother now! She made me buy the baby this outfit the other night with dinosaurs on the onesie and then a pair of matching pants with a little tricerotops on it. I kept that tags on just in case we are having a girl... even if it is one, I'll probably keep them and let the baby wear it. It is the first gift from his or her biggest sister and Ariel's a girl and into dinosaurs, so I can't be sexist against that one! lol.

8 days left... wow

We ran out last night and did some baby shopping! We got our monitors, a sleep positioner (I am bound to get this baby to sleep in its own bed), a snuzzler for the carseat, a pump, a mirror for the truck & baby wipes (mom is bringing the diapers)... so I think we're pretty much ready! We didnt get our baby name book but I'm hoping mom can find one and bring it over when they come to visit today. Then we'll be doing all right! Jesse's going to install the carseat in the truck today so we wont have to worry about that. I'm hoping mom managed to get the baby swing from Linda but if not, we'll be okay. It wont be the end of the world. Now I just need to pack the hospital bag.. I'll probably start on that today. I will not be packing last minute like we did with Ariel. I ended up forgetting to bring Jesse clothes! lol. At least we wont be far from the hospital here, so even if I miss something... he can run out and grab it! We've got the diaper bag packed. Now we just play the waiting game (can I mention how much this drives me insane?). I told Jesse if the baby hasn't come by next Friday, I'm asking to be induced that way it can come on a weekend and he wont have to miss work!

The girls are excited. Ariel really is. I think now that we're getting things together and ready, she realizes this will be happening soon. It seems so surreal. Part of me feels like this pregnancy has drug on and on (mainly since I hit 30 weeks) but another part of me can't believe we are in the last days of it! I'm so excited. I can't wait!

She's fine!

My little girl is okay! I had an appointment at the same time as hers so I wasn't with her but Jesse said the doctor was so nice and thorough and he really liked her. If he liked her, she must've been good, he's so picky about the doctors that deal with the girls! When I came out of my appointment (which ran over beause they did a non stress test) and saw they weren't out... I about freaked. I was sure they were doing all kinds of tests or the fact that it taking so long was bad news. I felt so sick waiting! After about a half hour they come out and she's all smiles. Jesse told me it was just lymph nodes from her being sick and I wanted to just cry! We're going to schedule her for a five year check up soon (and Clarity needs to get in for her two year). The doctor said she'll probably refer us to a dermatologist to get her "watch" (birthmark) removed at that appointment. Ariel's kind of afraid of that already, but we'll see what they say about it when we have to cross that bridge. Oh and she got weighed... she weighs 39 1/2 lbs. We got her new carseat in the nick of time!

My doctor's appointment went fine. I think I've capped off at 130 lbs. Hopefully I wont have trouble losing the weight after this baby comes. I told Jesse I'll have to bust out the ab lounge to get ready for Lori's wedding. lol. The midwife told me that the baby turned and isn't posterior anymore which is good news. Amazing how she could do that just by feeling my stomach. She was telling me she could feel features on its face. crazy! Clarity was an absolute angel during my appointment. She just sat in the chair all quiet and held her baby panda snugglekins we got her for Christmas. The nurses and midwife were so surprised at how good she was... and how serious! lol. She is so shy around people and keeps such a serious face. Ariel was a little social butterfly smiling and talking to everyone. It's amazing how alike they are and yet how different!

Well I dont have Alley and Emiley this weekend as planned. Lisa called me last night and they ended up going to their dad's. Lisa sounded horrible sick so that's probably a good thing. She could hardly talk. Plus I didn't get any sleep last night and I just feel worn out this weekend... so being able to rest is always nice! I was looking forward to it, but there will be other times, times when I'm feeling more up to it.

Jesse's at work for a bit today. The granite place is entering some home shows and they asked Jesse what he would put in one. He told them a granite sink would be a good show piece and they asked him if he would come in and start working on it. So that makes up for him missing out on work yesterday. I told Jesse they must really value his opinion on things because they are always going to him for ideas and now he's the only one that templates and they've given him the job of collecting checks...which puts a lot of trust in him, especially after what just happened with the former manager there (long story but lots and lots of embezzlement).

Well I need to get going and start cleaning and get the girls some lunch. I think we're going to the grocery store this afternoon and to pick up some last minute baby items... baby name book for sure! hehe. My main point of jumping on here today was to Thank God for my healthy little girl :o)

Off to the doctor!

Not for me though. I had to call and schedule Ariel an appointment for the pediatrician because last night at walmart I put my hand around her neck to lead her away from the toys, and I felt a lump. Of course my heart is racing with all the bad thoughts that can overcome your mind with something like that. I had Jesse feel it and we decided to get it checked out. It's probably just a swollen lymph node from her being sick this past week... but I'm not taking any chances. I sent her inside the grocery store with him last night after we left walmart and I had a good cry. I knew I couldnt do it in front of her or let her see me worried & scared. It felt good to get that out. So at 3:15 pm today we'll be at sylva Pediatrics hopefully being told that's she's fine and feeling relieved.

I got a call from Lisa this morning and I watch Alley & Emiley this weekend from 6 am- 2 pm both days. So that will help with Jesse having to take off of work early. I really dont want him having to take off some Monday for my appointment.. I may just cancel. lol. okay scratch that. I just called and I have an appointment at the same time as Ariel today. Luckily they're in the same area next to the hospital so I'm going to get to Ariel's early, fill out all of her paperwork and Jesse is going to stay with her while I run over to my doctor (with Clarity.. fun fun.. hehe). So we're knocking out all appointments today and Jesse wont have to miss any work Monday. Phew. Busy day. We'll probably get some of our grocery shopping done while we're out there as well.

Busy, busy, busy!!

Nothing More than Rain!

I can't even begin to tell you how relieved I was when out of nowhere the storm system weakened (the weather channel wasn't expecting that one.. must have been all the prayers!) and we didnt get more than rain and wind yesterday. I feel for all of those who weren't so blessed... the last count I saw on CNN this morning was 55 deaths and I dont know the count of actual tornadoes but it did say over a thousand warnings went off! That was crazy scary.

Yesterday I ended up sleeping all day long. God must've known I needed it because Clarity slept with me on the couch and Ariel bless her little heart just quietly entertained herself by watching cartoons, coloring or playing with her dinosaurs. She honestly is such a blessing and such a great little girl. Clarity is too, don't get me wrong, it's just amazing that Ariel let me get all the sleep I needed. She didn't bother me for anything (of course I did get up and feed her lunch and snacks... I didn't just sleep and let the kid go hungry. lol).

Today though, I dont want to be so lazy. I have great ambition to get all of my laundry caught up and put away and clean the office as well as my usual dishes, cleaning the floors, straightening up and cooking dinner. So I'm about to go grab a shower and get started. Hopefully I wont tire before I get done... lol.. I'll do my best! Hope everyone has a happy day!

A Nervous wreck!

The weather is awful. Not here... not yet. Just in the southeast. They are saying it's one of the worst February tornado outbreaks in history. So far the count is 57 tornadoes in three states and 31 deaths (although unfortunately since it happened at night the numbers will more than likely climb as daylight allows damage surveys and rescues). I've been watching a storm move towards murphy all morning... a tornado warning for Chattanooga Tennesse, then Cleveland, now it's Polk County (the next county over from mom and dad). I can't even tell you how sick I am. Between being tired and overly stressed... I feel like throwing up. I'm actually surprised it hasn't happened yet. I didn't want Jesse to go to work but I couldnt ask him to stay home. I'm worried about my parents & family, the girls and myself, Jesse. I hate that we're all apart. I keep praying to God this monster will weaken and we'll all be fine. More than likely, we will, but you know me and my fear of storms and tornadoes. It's my own personal demon. so tons of prayers going out this morning to those who have gone through this and those that have to deal with it later. Prayers that my family will be kept safe and we wont even see any severe weather. I'll be back on later today... hopefully to say that nothing happened and all is fine!

Better Today

Everyone seems to be on the mend... THANK GOD! Ariel said she's feeling pretty good. Her cough and sore throat are gone and she hasn't had to have any Tylenol so that's great. She also slept through the night (as did Clarity). It was so nice having them both asleep before 11... Jesse and I kicked back in the loveseat and enjoyed some Mythbusters before he was out. Then I went and slept on the couch with the girls. We havent slept in our bed in weeks... I just find the couch more comfortable right now and I guess Jesse hates being by himself so he usually sleeps in the living room with us. Clarity also seems to be doing nearly 100% better from yesterday. She's rowdy and hyper and bugging her sister. lol. She ate cereal and spaghetti o's and drank her juice and hasn't cried with a stomach ache or thrown up. I forgot to ask Jesse how he was feeling when he called on his lunch break. I guess he's fine. He was more concerned with how the girls were doing and to make sure I was okay. He was happy to hear all was good.. I think it makes his day easier to know that.

They've put him in charge of templating so he's going out on his own all the time. I bet he loves that. It probably makes the day go by a lot faster. He's never thrilled when he's stuck in the shop, so I'm happy for him.

We just got over our weekend and I'm already counting down this upcoming one. As long as I'm not watching Emiley and Alley we're going to hit asheville again. We still need to pick up a carseat cover and head cushion for the baby. It's still so weird to me that a huge mall, Target, Kohls, Chuck E Cheese, and pretty much anything else I can imagine is just a half hour drive away. I guess that's what happens when you're stuck with being happy with only having a super walmart for so many years! lol.

Update on today!

Thank goodness it went great! Lisa and her girls (alley and emiley) came over and I have to say I liked all three of them. I think they liked us too... all four girls (hers and mine) had a blast running around, squealing and playing with eachother while Lisa and I talked. It thrilled me that they were all getting along! Then Emiley made my day by drawing me a picture. It's nice to know that these girls wont feel terrified and they liked it here. When Lisa was trying to round them up to go they kept saying they didnt want to and Lisa asked them if they would like to come back later and they excitedly replied "yeah!". She said she'll definately need me. She's just starting her job tomorrow but she wont need me for a few days because the girls' dad will have them. So we shall see. Any money coming in is great and honestly I'm looking forward to those girls coming back because they were so blessed cute and mine had so much fun playing with them! Turns out Emiley rides the bus that drives right by our house.. so if Ariel ever rides the bus.. she'll know someone! That's a relief!

Oh and Clarity finally woke up from her hours on end nap when they showed up and she seems to be feeling a bit better. She had energy to play and she's taken a bath and eaten some banana. Hopefully all the puke is over. I pray so! It makes me so sad to see her choke and struggle.. I hate that so badly!

It's raining.. it's pouring

Literally and figuratively speaking! It has been a dreary, cloudy, rainy day all day long. And this morning didn't start off so hot. I almost had the girls ready for my doctor's appointment (Jesse was giving them breakfast) when Clarity came and started acting all sleepy in my lap. Next thing I know the poor baby is throwing up all over the place. So I had to take her and get her in the shower and all cleaned up. So we get on the road and once we're in Sylva we stop at a gas station to get some donuts. Clarity's all wanting some and she seemed fine, so I gave them to her. Jesse parks in the doctor's office and him and the girls wait in the truck (dont want to contaminate the place with germs). As I'm waiting to see the midwife, my phone starts going off. Poor Clarity had thrown up all over Jesse. I ask my nurse if she had any paper towels I could run out to them and she was sooo sweet and helpful and even gave us some clorox disinfectant wipes. lol. So Clarity got stripped down and had Ariel's sweater put on her and Jesse just wore his jacket (he had to take off his shirt) and PJ pants (thank goodness he was dressed in double layers preparing for it to be cold, when it wasn't that bad today). I went back in and finished my appointment... lol...

As far as my appointment goes all is okay, I guess. I had to leave two urine samples. The first one had blood and white blood cells in it. So they wanted another to send to the lab to see if it's a bladder infection or just my body preparing towards the end of this pregnancy. If they call that means infection and I have to start on antibiotics. yay!

Other than that not much to say. Baby did move down some (don't know if it turned around or not, I forgot to ask with all of the Clarity drama). She said I'm measuring smaller but that's probably because baby has dropped some. I did notice it's a bit easier to breathe but I'm still feeling a lot of action in my ribs so it didnt move too much!

So now I'm home with the girls and Jesse's at work. Clarity ate some chicken noodle soup (just a bit) and went to sleep on the couch so far no more throwing up, I pray it stays that way. Ariel is still kind of sick, but nothing meltaways don't help. Hopefully we'll get done passing germs and viruses before the new baby gets here. This is exactly why I dont even want the girls going to the hospital.. all it takes is a minute to get some germ on your clothes and then I have a sick newborn on my hands. Hate, hate, hate cold and flu season! Jesse and I are getting a carseat cover so we can carry it out of the hospital without exposing it to anything (plus it keeps it warm too).

I'm meeting with Lisa and her girls today around 3. So I'll probably be back to update how that goes. I pray these are great little girls and they get along with mine and I pray Lisa likes me and decides to use me to watch her kids. Any extra money is good right now!

wheeee!

You've got to love winter time. The snow, the cool air, the holidays and my favorite the germs! bleh! Last night as we were leaving Wal-mart Ariel complained of a tickle in her throat. An hour or two after we get home she had a cough and and her throat felt worse. She wakes up crying at around 4 am and I get up and get her some tylenol meltaways. Thank God that did the trick and she was sound asleep within a half hour. I however, didn't get so lucky. I tossed and turned and couldnt get comfortable. Then wake up this morning and I felt okay... not great but I assumed it was from lack of sleep. I cleaned out the fridge and did the dishes then ate some breakfast. Here it is nearly noon and wow has it hit. I feel like a semi truck has plowed into my body. The body aches and headache are awful! I took some tylenol (and I hardly ever take anything so you know it's bad) and Jesse gave me some vitamin C. He says he's feeling "run down" too. Hopefully this is very short lived and we'll all feel better tomorrow. Lisa (the girl that wants me to babysit) called yesterday while we were all fine... and I think we're supposed to meet tomorrow and if she works (and likes me), I'll probably be watching her little girl. So this bug better vacate asap. Knock on wood.. there are no fevers.. so that's something to be happy about! Oh and so far Claire Bear is doing okay... I pray God has mercy on her since she had the tummy bug the other day and we didn't... and she doesnt catch this mess!

A bit of a heavy heart

Today I went on the Hannah and Lily blog... I hardly go on there because of the emotions it evokes for me. Hannah is the reason I started blogging myself and her mom is just amazing. A pillar of strength. How she keeps such a positive outlook on things after losing her five year old is beyond me. In her entry she was saying how she thanks God everynight for the time he let her spend with Han. She's sad she's gone but she knows God has a reason and she knows she was blessed to have had her in her life. Wow.

Then tonight I read about a family whose two year old son woke up with a cold, passed out, was taken to the hospital and died. So between Han who was the same age as Ariel and this little boy.. who was probably around Clarity's age.. I'm just sad for these famililes and giving the girls more hugs and kisses than normal. I can't even imagine losing one of my babies and it's selfish but I pray I never have to face that harsh reality. I don't think I'd have a positive outlook, I don't think I could make it.

Right now Jesse took the girls out with him and left me home (a first!). T hey went to pick up Pizza Hut and some milk. I thought I would relish this time of peace but I miss them. This house is way too quiet.

My Poor Pumpkin!

This morning I was supposed to meet with a girl, her fiance, and their four year old about babysitting for them. So I'm cleaning the house and getting ready and Clarity keeps laying in the middle of the floor. I figured she was just having a hard time getting up and moving.. which isn't unusual for her. I did ask her if she was sick and she looked at me and said "uh huh". I still brushed it off... she wasn't running a fever or anything so I kept doing what I was doing. Well I hear Ariel call me, "mama! Clarity is sick! She just threw up!". So I go into their play room (the only room with carpet of course) and see a huge splatter of throw up. Then there's another one in the kitchen. Clarity's not crying (Thank goodness...I was afraid she'd hit freak mode since this is her first time really throwing up) but she's walking in circles spitting and has a horrible face. The first thing I did before cleaning it was I called that girl and left her a message. She's newly pregnant and I didnt want to expose her or her four year old to a stomach virus. Lord knows no one wants to deal with that. I dont know if I'll hear from her again or not but that doesnt matter. It would have been nice to make some money but my priority right now is my sick baby girl. She's been sleeping on the loveseat most of the day but actually woke up to eat lunch so fingers crossed it stays down! I'm also hoping none of the rest of us get it. I guess that would be one way to bring on labor.. but I really dont want to go that route. lol.

Oh I wanted to post pics of some of the stuff we bought for the baby last weekend.

Here's the Rainforest Playpen with bassinet. It plays music, has a nightlight, a mobile and all that stuff. Plus it's cute!

And here is the carseat. We got a graco

snugride in Jungle adventure. It has these cute lions, hippos, giraffes, and alligators on it.

I'm having trouble finding a pic of the diaper bag we got. It's a big brown Classic Pooh one. It has the older version of Pooh and Piglet on it and it's sooo cute but guy enough that Jesse will carry it around. Plus it has tons of room! I'm sure I'll get around to taking real pics of the stuff we bought as soon as it's all ready. We still havent set anything up yet. Not sure why we're wating.

Well my heart is pounding. Clarity just came in crying about her foot. I look at it and it was bright red and looked like she was having a bad reaction of some sort. So immediately I'm grabbing her up and examining her feet wondering if I should make my call to Jesse to come home or 911. She stopped crying and it went away so I'm wondering if she stood in front of one of our heaters and that made it all red. I swear nothing makes you worry like your babies! She's fine now. Her and Ariel are laying in the living room on the blankets Heather made for them (which are soooo cute and soft! I need to get pics of those too) and they are watching the Backyardigans.

Clarity ate two helpings of chicken and dumplings and drank a whole glass of chocolate milk. I wanted her to take it easy and eat a bit and drink water... but nope... not her. She was hungry! lol. So far so good. I'm saying my prayers!

Thought I should add

A complete tragedy. Prayers and thoughts are with his family, friends and loved ones. We'll miss you Heath!!

More on this past weekend...

Since I had my big pregnancy whine party, I'll talk about the girls and what we did this past weekend. We took them to Chuck E Cheese this past Sunday since we got out of David's Bridal and having dinner a bit late. Of course I forgot my darn camera at home and didn't get any pics, so that figures! The place was a madhouse. Linda, Ricky and Brittany stopped in to see the girls for a bit and they loved that! They also loved seeing Lori and David over the weekend. Ariel said she remembered David and we talked about how he was a police.. that's her big thing now.. she wants to be a police. lol. Lori is being so sweet about letting both of the girls be flower girls in the wedding. I can't wait to see it.. I bet it will be so cute. She picked the most adorable dresses for them to wear. They looked like little Cinderellas when we had them try them on! Beautiful! Ariel's excited for the wedding.. she keeps asking me how many tomorrows away it is. Hopefully both of the girls will be happy and cooperative on May 3rd and the wedding will go off perfectly. I'm sure it will be gorgeous. I'm looking forward to it! Since I didnt have a wedding, I'll live vicariously through Lori. lol.

Tired and Done!

Well this pregnancy WAS flying by... now each minute seems to just tick tick tick. 37 weeks and 2 days. It's getting really difficult now. Nausea is back in full force and I never feel like eating. I asked my doctor about it and she said it's completely normal and sometimes it's just easier to throw up. I dont want to! Been there, done that, and dont want to look back! Also found out the baby is posterior. Wonderful! This means it's back is facing my back instead of the other way around like it's supposed to. She said if it doesnt turn, it probably will during labor but this makes labor long, painful, and difficult. It also means bad back labor.. which I pray I dont have to suffer through because I HATE back pain. yay! Should have known I wouldnt have a breezy labor like I did with the girls. The whole pregnancy has been a pain in my butt! lol. I guess we'll see how things go within the next few weeks.



Jesse and I did get our carseat, playpen/bassinet, diaper bag and a few sleepers while we were in Asheville this past weekend. So we're ready enough! lol. For some reason buying this stuff made it hit me that this is really happening. Jesse of course thought I was crazy but I was nearly having a panic attack thinking about it. There is no turning back. I'm going to be a mama to three. Crazy!



We had a fun weekend. It was nice seeing Lori and David. This is the dress I ended up picking out for my bridesmaid dress. It comes with optional spaghetti straps. I guess I'll decide if I'll wear them or not once I get it altered and see how it looks both ways. I love this dress.. at first I wasn't sure about it, but it really is pretty! I'm glad Lori picked a gorgeous color too. I love it!

So ready... so not!

36 weeks and one day... and the countdown is on. I'm almost to the full term mark of 37 weeks but that doesnt mean much to me. lol. Ariel came at 39 weeks and 3 days and Clarity came at 40 weeks and 1 day so I don't consider myself a candidate for going much earlier than that anymore. Jesse told me that was a silly way of thinking... I think he's paranoid. It's sneaking up on him. lol.

We still havent even gotten a carseat or the bassinet yet... so if I were to go early, we'd be in trouble. I think he wants to go back to Target this weekend while we're in Asheville and pick up the stuff we were looking at last weekend. So not only are we not ready for this baby to come in that aspect, I'd like to get the house totally ready and get our taxes done (OMG that is a chore and a half and I HATE it).

My 36 week appointment was yesterday and went okay. As good as could be expected anyways since they had to do the strep B test. I'll find out next Monday if that came out positive or not.. knowing my luck this pregnancy it probably did. lol. I'm still gaining weight (ugh that can stop anytime now, I'm at 130 lbs) and my blood pressure was good. Baby is head down still but high (big surprise.. I could have told her that being I can barely breathe all the time). No dialation yet but she said my cervix is soft. Maybe we'll have some progress soon. Well even that wouldnt mean much... lol.. I was dialated 3 cm for over 3 weeks with Clarity and she still made her appearance a day late! Stinker!

Ariel's birthday was terrible! Clarity decided to be an escape artist and snuck out the door (I always check the latch as soon as I get up, but that morning, I just forgot). Anyways I realize the door was open and go flying outside to see a red car with some lady asking Clarity where her mama was. I scoop up clarity and the lady starts screaming at me what a horrible mother I was, how dare I let my baby run the streets and that was a good way to get her killed. As if I wasn't beating myself up over it already! I felt if she were about to stone me. It was an accident. A stupid one on my part.. but that's what it was. I spent the entire day and most of the night (I think I stopped at midnight) crying and feeling horrible. We were supposed to take Ariel out to Chuck E cheese that night but since I was so depressed we waited until the next day. We did end up having a lot of fun and I took some super cute pics with the digital... but yesterday I realized Ariel had gotten it down to take "her" pictures and deleted them all! I'll have to take them back this Saturday. Jesse, the girls and I are meeting Lori in Asheville to go to Davids Bridal and try and find me a bridesmaids dress and get the girls fitted for their flower girl dresses. I'm looking forward to it.. just hope I can find something that looks decent on me!

Worry and stress

They suck! Badly! I dont know if it's the pregnancy or what but I will wake up in the wee hours of the morning with my mind racing about all the different things in my life I'm worried about. Money...bills.. and lately... Ariel starting kindergarten! I know it's not until August but I'm dreading it. I won't be there for my baby and it kills me that I won't know what's going on with her. If she's being picked on, if she's sad, if she doesn't understand something. She keeps asking me how long until she starts because she's nervous and not ready to go. Her being worried about it makes me worried about it. Will she adjust okay? She's such a mama's girl and even though she's a total tomboy, she's super sensative too. God it just kills me I'm stressing out over all of this already!

She's going to be five tomorrow *cry*. It's just hitting me how fast the past five years have gone by. I look at pictures of her as a newborn.. a toddler.. and now a gorgeous little girl and I just break down. Why do they have to grow so fast? Why can't I just slow it down? Life just seems to breeze by once you have a child. I wanted to just curl up and cry last night realizing every year they get older is a year Jesse and I are getting older. I just pray to God I have a long, long time to spend with these beautiful people God has blessed me with.

Okay *deep breath* I need to dry my tears and get my face cleared up before Ariel realizes I'm upset. Right now she's outside playing in the snow. Yes, snow! We got a couple of inches last night and she's having a blast. I let her play out for a few minutes then bring her in to get her warmed up.. then she's back out again. She's thrilled.

Okay I definately must go now. Clarity just walked in and appearently little miss got into the nesquick powder. Her face and hands look like she's been playing in mud! Time for a bath! Thank God I have these angels to cheer me up when I feel worry and stress getting the best of me.

34 weeks 2 days

and I am so over this pregnancy crap! lol. This time around has been unbelievably difficult compared to Ariel & Clarity. A few weeks ago I woke up with this horrible sharp pain right under my sternum and I could hardly breathe let alone move. That dang pain lasted from 5 am until 3 pm. It stopped right as I was deciding I had suffered enough and was going to the ER. I was worried it was a gallbladder attack. But it hasn't returned... THANK GOD.

I did have to go to the ER the other night. My ankle had been hurting (felt like a sprain even though I hadn't done anything to it) for a few days. Well when the pain started moving up into my calf I started looking it up online and worried myself sick that I had DVT. So we went to the ER.. rather be safe than sorry...and they did an ultrasound to make sure there were no blood clots. All was clear so that was a huge relief. Just another crappy effect this baby is having on my body.

I am a total whiner! I'll be glad to have this baby just so I dont hear myself. I hate whiners. I hate crybabies.. and yet that's all I'm doing lately. Gah! Just a few more weeks!

On a bright note.. my last doctor appointment went well. I'm up to 128 lbs so she was happy about that. Baby's head is down. They are not doing another ultrasound (boo!) because they said my uterus has been measuring right on for being due Feb 18th. They said they'll use caution though and if I go into labor around 37 weeks (please God let it happen.. lol) even though that's full term for the Feb. date they'll have me have the baby in Asheville just in case because they have a neonatal unit. If I go a week past Feb. 18th.. I get induced. So either way it's happening next month. It can't happen soon enough for me!

We shall see!

Winter storm warning! Supposedly we could get between 4-6 inches of snow starting tomorrow. What a way that would be to start the new year! But I'm not so optimistic.. I'm always hoping to see some nice winter weather and then they change it to rain at the last minute or it misses us. But then again.. that was when we lived in Murphy. My hopes might not be so squashed here. lol.

My house is nearly completely in order. I can't believe it. All I have left to do is put a bunch of clothes away... mostly compliments of Ariel & Clarity. How do two little girls aquire sooooo much stuff? It's insane! I'm hoping to work on getting that done today and then we have a few random boxes of "junk" I can muddle through and toss stuff or put it away but I'm really impressed at how much has actually gotten accomplished. Our plumbing is really screwy right now and our landlord is supposed to have a plumber come out. One toilet is barely working, the other we're refusing to use, when we run the washer (which I havent done lately because of this) the suds come up in the toilet we're not using. lol. Now for the fun tidbit.. our house smells like shyte. I have no idea what's wrong but it needs to get fixed.. ASAP! That's one reason I'm glad we rent, when something serious happens... it's not us that has to deal with it!

Mom and dad are coming over today. I know the girls are thrilled. I think that's the only thing Ariel misses about Murphy.. being able to see Grandma and Abu all the time. But she really loves it here. Actually we all do. It's a nice change and I'm happy we did it.

I had a panic moment this morning that I havent had the whole time I've been pregnant. That "will I love this baby as much as I do the others" feeling. I had that complete fear when I was pregnant with Claire and of course, it was a complete waste of my time feeling that way because when she came it was like she had been here all along and I love both of my girls the same... with all my heart. I guess I'm really worried about giving equal attention to three. I mean with two.. Jesse can devote to one, me the other and then trade. Three is going to be crazy. But then I think we have two wonderful little girls that are going to help give the third attention. Ariel is actually excited (for now she's over her jealousy thing and is looking forward to her new baby brother or sister) and I know Clarity is going to be thrilled. I just have to trust God that it will all fall into place and that this is what is meant for our family.

2008... Right around the corner

Hard to believe another year has come... and gone. I dont know what it is but the older I get, the faster time goes. My little princess is going to start kindergarten this coming year. I knew it was coming, but wow, it still just shocks me. I actually laid awake for hours the other night thinking about that and worrying. worrying kids would pick on her or that she'll feel left out. Worried she'll miss being home and be sad. I know she'll be fine, but my mind really plays things up sometimes. Still so hard to believe how fast the girls are growing.

Christmas was good. We just stayed home and celebrated with the girls and that was nice. I missed mom, dad & Patrick but I'm sure they'll be coming to visit soon. They got the girls a lot of nice stuff and I made sure to tell Ariel it was from Grandma, Abu, Patrick & of course Santa. I can say one thing about Christmas this year.. it was nice not hearing anyone gripe about anything. lol.

I'm still waiting for my snow! We've only seen flurries but I'm hoping living out here closer to the Smokeys, we'll see more than we did in Murphy. I think we're supposed to see snow showers on new year's but we'll see. So far everytime they've said that, it's just been rain.

Well I better go and help Jess finish unpacking and cleaning. I'm finally seeing light at the end of the tunnel in that department. Slowly but surely!

Christmas Pics

Yay!

Jesse is now working a normal 8-5 job Monday through Friday. He's working at a granite shop in Asheville and making just as much as he did doing satellite work. He's still going to do the satellite thing on Saturdays but at least we'll always have sundays together and evenings. I dont know what we'll do actually being able to spend time together! We're really excited. We'll only have to fill up the gas tank once a week and he'll always be a half hour away. I cant believe it. It's funny because he's the only American guy there. Everyone else is from like Russia, Ukraine, or Turkey. There's only two men that can speak english so theres a bit of a language barrier. That's interesting to say the least but they really seem to like him so that's good!

I can't believe how close Christmas is! OMG. I have so much to do. Last night I had a rough time with contractions and a backache. I nearly made Jesse take me in to be checked but I fell asleep and all seems well today. How can they expect you to take it easy when you have a house to take care of and two other kids? I went in to the doctor the other day and she has to consult with the midwife on my due date. By my period it should be mid February (they say 18th, I say 22nd). Yet during my ultrasound the baby was measuring like it's due March 4th. The doctor I saw the other day said they should use the March date because they generally go by the ultrasound but my uterus was measuring like I'm due around the 18th. So she's going to talk to the midwife and see if they're going to keep the Feb. date, move it to March, or do another ultrasound to double check the baby's size. I'm hoping for the ultrasound. lol. They better not move me to March.. I'm having doubts about making it into February!

Well that's about all that's new for now. I need to go clean my floors. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays (I've totally got my Nsync going and I'm so in the Christmassy mood)!

Moved in.. not exactly settled!

We're in our new house now. I hate moving. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! Did I mention I hate moving? lol. But we're finally here. I still have a lot to do but I need Jesse's help. It seems if I'm standing for too long or I work at something too hard.. I start getting contractions and my tailbone starts throbbing. So I have to take it very easy. I'm only 31 weeks.. much too early to deal with that stuff.

Oh I can't believe I havent had the time to update this blog but I passed the 3 hour glucose test. It was miserable as I expected and Jesse and I swore I wasn't going to keep from throwing up that first hour.. but somehow I trudged through it. My numbers didn't go down like they were supposed to, but I wasn't above the limit so they considered me passing. I was so glad. I go to the doctor in a couple of days so I should be able to find out when I get my second ultrasound.

Well the past few days have been so much fun (insert sarcasm in my voice here). My parents have spent the past two nights which has been great, especially because they were so helpful. But the first night they stayed Ariel complained she had a belly ache. I asked if she felt sick and she said no, it just hurt. I gave her a children's pepto tablet and we went to bed. Not even an hour later I wake up to find her sitting there just throwing up everywhere. Poor Jesse woke up and was in a daze. Its like he didn't grasp what was happening then she let out a huge flow of it and he jumps up "OH GOD". lol. So I got her in the bath while he stripped the bed (thank God we use a waterproof mattress cover). After I got her out, I made her and I a little bed on the floor with blankets because since our mattress cover was dirty, I didnt want to risk her getting sick on the bed. Well it's a good thing.. she threw up every 45 mins to an hour from 11:30 pm until 5:30 am. It was so sad to watch. I didn't even sleep. I wanted to be awake to comfort her everytime it happened. She's so brave.. she never cried. She would start to panic and cry and I'd just rub her back and hold her hair and tell her that she was fine and that I was there and her body was just getting rid of a bad germ. The next day she was okay.. ran a fever all day and slept. Only drank gatorade. Then today she woke up begging for popcorn. Nothing else would do. I finally gave in and gave her some and then she threw up on my couch! I felt bad because I actually got mad. Really mad. Not at her.. I know it wasn't her fault, but at the situation that I had to clean my new couch and pray the puke smell didnt stay. She seems okay now. She's eaten chicken noodle soup, drank gatorade, water & sprite and even ate some cheeseburger and fries from McDonalds (her request). So I pray we're over the worst and that Clarity doesnt get it. So far so good *knock on wood*. I despise stomach viruses!

Let's see.. what else. Oh Jesse's looking for another job. We moved all the way over here because they were always sending him this way and we couldnt afford the gas. Now that we're here, I bet you can't guess where he's been being sent to lately. *rolls eyes* Maybe things will work out. I pray so.

Well Patrick is sick. He's in a mental hospital right now being evaluated. They've given us a diagnosis but he wants it to remain confidential and that's his right. The only reason I know is because it needs to go in the girls medical history. The good news is at least someone has finally taken the time to figure it out. I always thought he was doing things for attention or just because... I had no idea he was sick like he is. Things will be okay now that we know what is going on. Not sure when he'll be released (it wont be long) but right now he's only 10 mins from our new place so that helps that mom and dad can stay here and then go visit him during visitation hours. Mom's dealing with a lot right now and it doesnt help my grandma wants to pry and is dying to find out what's going on with him. She's never cared any other time.. why bother now? And her comments about him being on crack certainly dont help. Mom told her we finally have a diagnosis but she doesnt want it spread all over cherokee county. Grandma got all offended.. "oh so I'm going to spread it around?" um... duh. lol. Of course she'd tell Linda and then Linda would tell Ricky and Ricky would tell who he wanted to. It's a vicious cycle. I like how well Grandma kept my pregnancy quiet so I had time to mail my announcements out (they still sit in a drawer.. why bother now that she told everyone). Sorry for my little tirade. Just frustrated that people dont back off and give my family space when we need it.

If you want to help us.. just pray. That's what we need.

okay not so good news!

That was terrible! The glucose test, I mean. It didnt help that I barely got any sleep the night before because of nausea and heartburn. On the way to the doctor's office I felt like I was about to be sick any second. I decided to distract myself and read my People magazine and whoo did that make things worse. I got such a bad case of carsickness! I never did throw up but I was sure concerned. lol. well we get to the doctor's office and it was time to drink that syrup garbage. I was so not in the mood. She pulls the bottle out of the fridge and I'm thinking, "there is no way I can ever drink all of that". Luckily I only had to drink half. I got the option of fruit punch or orange and decided to try fruit punch. YUCK! It burned my throat going down and with every swallow I felt like I was on an episode of Fear Factor struggling to keep it down. My nurse was such a sweetheart (she always is) and just kept asking me how I was feeling and laughing with me about how God awful it was. So I got it all down (and the good news.. it stayed there amazingly) and Jesse and I waited for our hour to be up. When it was I was surprised to find out they can now poke you in your finger and get the results then and there. Anemia check came back good.. surprise.. I was anemic with the girls. Then she made this face and Jesse and I knew something wasnt good. I failed the glucose test! nooooo! I so wasn't expecting that.. passed with flying colors with both of the girls. I told Jesse this one had better be his boy! So now I get to go back next Wednesday morning and drink a WHOLE bottle (dear Lord is that even possible? I could barely handle the half) of that mess and then get blood drawn every hour for three hours. I pray I pass. If not it means I have gestational diabetes and she said they would transfer me to the hospital for more testing and I guess that puts my pregnancy in the high risk category. Gah!

Other than that the appointment went good. I'm up to 124 lbs which means I've gained about 14 pounds in 2 1/2 months which I guess is okay. Especially considering the morning sickness made me lose like 7 or 8. I did find out they are going to do another ultrasound to get more of an idea when this little one is going to make an appearance. so that made me happy! Ultrasounds are always fun! Jesse said this was our last chance to find out.. and I said no way, we've waited this long, we can finish without knowing! lol.

Mom and dad came over and stayed with the girls yesterday which was a major help since we didn't have to drag them to the doctor appointment and bore them to tears. They made cupcakes together and played playstation, watched shrek 3, and all that so the girls had a great day. Mom helped me clean the top floor and that's done. Now we just have to clean and pack this floor and the basement and we can work on being out of here! Hopefully by the end of next week...

Waynesville here we come!

Finally! We found a house and we'll be moving in the next week or two. I'm sooooo excited and praying this move will be good for us and help us out. It's a brick 3 bedroom/2 bath with a fenced in grass yard (yay for the girls!!) and storage outside (yay for no clutter in the house!!). It's near downtown Waynesville and it's just a cute area. We went driving through downtown and it was just adorable because you have all the shops decorated for Christmas and just tons of people walking up and down the sidewalk. Such a change from Murphy! We're only 30 minutes to Asheville so we have an actual city with a mall and everything just a short drive away but we're living in a smaller community that I've heard is really safe and friendly. We told our property manager for this house we were moving and she's been so sweet about it. She says she understands why we're having to move and she's trying to line up someone to get in here as soon as we move so the owners dont get all bent out of shape for us breaking our lease early. God bless her!

Thanksgiving was nice. It was great getting out and seeing Grandma and paw paw. The girls have missed them. Brandon is really growing.. he's a cutie. I was completely exhausted Thanksgiving night... actually I feel completely exhausted all the time! I never get much sleep at night anymore but it's worth it.

Tomorrow is a doctors appointment.. I get to drink my glucose drink at 8:30 in the morning! eek! That stuff always makes me feel awful so I'm not looking forward to it and I'm praying it doesnt make me throw up with it being so early in the morning. We'll see. Hopefully all will go well! I'll update tomorrow on anything I find out.

I can't believe how fast time is going by! I'm 28 weeks and 2 days (and lazy me still hasnt taken the first picture of my tummy. I REALLY need to do that). Third trimester and I'm really feeling it. Between keeping up with the kids, the baby, and trying to pack and clean I feel myself getting worn out so fast. We're so not ready for this baby yet though! It's a scary thought that in less than 9 weeks I will be considered "full term". I need more time Lord! lol.

I've really got to start doing better!

me posting a new entry once a week or every two weeks is becoming a bad habit. I really need to update the blog at least every other day.

I am so tired right now. I finally got around to cleaning the fish tank. Clarity had dumped nearly an entire thing of fish food (and it was a big container) a couple of weeks ago. Sadly we only had a sole survivor..lol.. and Jesse and I have been too busy to be bothered cleaning that big tank, so the fish has been living the high life (not) in a bucket. Well I did it today. What a mess! There was so much algae, not to mention all the different treasures I found Clarity has tossed in. our fish is so happy now swimming around in his sparkling tank. I'm pretty darn proud of myself too. It took me hours to get it done and my body is so sore from doing it. I can't wait until Jesse comes home and sees it since we've always considered the fish "his" job.

Jesse's still working so I havent heard from him if he's called the woman back about the house. I can't believe how fast rentals go in the areas we're wanting to move to! The paper had just come out on Thursday and by Friday all of the rental homes were taken! Gah! There was one.. a three bedroom in downtown waynesville (exactly where we've been wanting to be). So Jesse was hoping after work today it would still be there and we could go look at it and maybe give the woman a deposit. We're worried it's either 1) going to be taken or 2) be a total dump! lol. I guess we'll find out either way when Jesse's off work and gives her a call. Praying God really pulls something through for us. We've got to get out of here!

Here's a shocker that just hit me today. In two days I will be in my last trimester! Woah. I dont understand how both of the pregnancies with the girls seemed to drag on and this one is flying by. Probably because I'm pretty sure it's my last and want to cherish it and because we're soooooo not ready!

Oh and to update on the sickness... we all ended up getting Ariel's cold and that seemed to linger forever! But I think we're all good now (I still have some congestion) and I finally got the girls in the other day for flu shots! I totally hate cold/flu season!

Poor Bittles!

Poor Ariel is a sick little thing right now. She started having a funny feeling in her throat while we were trick or treating. Then the next day she didnt feel much better. Yesterday she just slept and slept and slept... I dont think she was awake more than 20 minutes the entire day. She's still running a fever and now she's got a horrible cough. Pray for my little girl. If she's not better by the end of this weekend... off to Urgent Care we go. And please God somehow let Clarity escape getting this. Please!

Halloween Pics!

Okay speedy update!

Wow it's been a while since I've been on here. So here's a quick update (you know my quick stuff..it will probably be a novel).

We took the girls to Six Flags on the last day of the season. We all had a blast.. even though I swore by the parking lot it was going to be horribly crowded.. it was fine! The weather couldn't have been more perfect and the girls got to ride a ton! Jesse and I had to buy season passes for next year (boohoo..not) because our print and go tickets somehow had already been used even though we weren't the ones that used them..hmmmm. So since season passes were only $20 more a piece then regular admission, we went that route. I'm sure we'll be taking the girls a ton when they open back up! Already looking forward to it!

Halloween was good. We took the girls to a thing called "Alien Invasion Area 51" held at a school on the 30th. For the Learning Center to hav done it, it was awesome. They had games, a bouncy land, dj with dancing, an area 51 walk through (which Ariel and Jesse did together. Clarity slept the whole time so mom, dad and I just chilled in chairs with her). Then on Halloween mom and dad came with us and we took the girls Trick or Treating. Jesse adn I bought the girls a gingerbread haunted house to decorate on Halloween but we were so wiped out... we did it on November 1st. So they had a 3 day Halloween extravaganza. lol. Jesse is now 26!

I've been feeling good. Baby is moving quite a lot now and likes to hang out and kick under the ribcage. lol. I'm getting so anxious to meet this little one and I've still got a few months to go yet!

Jesse's been working but has had a bad couple of weeks. Hopefully he's out of the slump and things will look up. We're still looking for a place to move to. I put an ad up on Craigslist and the Iwanna so hopefully we'll find the "right place" soon.

On a good note we got our furniture (well the living room set.. dining room set wont be ready for another month). So we're thrilled. It's so comfy and nice! Loving it!

The silence is broken

word is finally out! My parents now know their third grandchild is on its way. I was so glad they came over today. The stress of money and probably just the changes this pregnancy makes my body feel, were overwhelming today. I was on the verge of a major panic attack when I handed Ariel the phone and asked her to call Grandma and see if she had the day off. Thank God.. they were already on their way over and were here in a matter of minutes! I really need my mommy and daddy today.

As I was sweeping the floor, I ran and handed Clarity a pregnancy announcement that we had made and told her to go give it to Grandma. She happily did so. I think mom just thought it was some cute little card I had made. Then she read it. lol. Her reaction was priceless, I wish I had the video camera going. She said "Holy Sh**" I think five times and stood up. I told her I wasn't sure if that was a good reaction or not. lol. She said it was. Then she showed my dad the announcement and he seemed genuinely happy too. They said it was about time they've gotten some good news. So that was a relief. I think they were really suprised at how far along I am. I told them at least they dont have that long of a wait now!

Well Jesse finally gets tomorrow off. Thank God.. there's so much we need to get done. I probably should go to the dmv and get me a new license since I have no idea where mine is. We have to do our grocery shopping, blah blah blah. A day of errands. Poor Jesse.. I wish there was just one day where he had to do nothing on his day off. Being he has to go just about two weeks to get one it seems! Maybe I'll do the grocery shopping early in the morning with the girls while he's in bed or something. We'll see.

Jim our neighbor just came over and told me our other neighbors have a leak and all the water will be shut off for 24 hours starting in the morning. Peachy! Better catch up on all baths and wash tonight. Gah. I should be busting my butt on this house anyways, it's a total mess.

well it's a.....

Surprise! Still! phew.. we made it through the ultrasound without finding out. I can't even explain how tempting it was when the tech asked if we wanted to know because she had a good shot. But I did it.. I said no we want to keep this one a surprise! Jesse did ask if she could take a pic so he could "guess" but when she went to get the gender shot.. guess what... baby closed the legs tightly together so daddy couldn't even try to find out! I thought that was great!

Everything looks wonderful. Sooo cute. I'll have to see if I can scan the pics I got and post them up here. The doctor changed my due date from Feb. 22nd to Feb. 18th but I'll keep the 22nd in my head since that's what I've thought all along. We'll see who's right. lol.

My appointment went well. I saw a new doctor and I loved her. She didn't harp on me about my weight gain (or lack thereof). I have gained two pounds so far but I'm still under my prepregnancy weight. She said as long as I'm eating when I'm hungry and stopping when I'm full.. the baby is getting all it needs and it's growing perfectly. That was like a weight lifted off of me. With both of the girls I was starving all the time and gained weight weekly so just now starting to put on weight at 20 weeks was kind of scaring me!

Ariel now knows for sure there is a baby. She says she wants another sister.. lol. Clarity just loves babies period. Thank goodness. I was afraid she'd feel out of place but I think she'll be just fine. She'll be just like Ariel... a mini mommy. I'll ask Clarity "who wants a baby?" and her reply is, "me me me me!"

Jesse's been busy working, working, working. As usual. I guess better too much than not enough so I should just count my blessings! But he really could use a day off. He hasn't had a real day off in over two weeks. He was supposed to have the day of the ultrasound off, but they called him to work right after. We had to go with him. Thank goodness for the tv/dvd player in the truck!

We're in the process of looking for another house to live in. We have to move closer to his job. Right now we're paying around $300 a more a week in gas and that's killing us. So hopefully we'll find something closer soon!

Congrats to Misty on finding out she's having a lil boy!! You take care of yourself and that adorable guy you have in there!!

I hope everyone finds themselves happy and blessed.

eeeek!

Excitement, excitement, excitement! I'm soooo looking forward to so much this month it's crazy. I have my ultrasound next Wednesday. Then I went ahead and bought us some Six Flags tickets (yeah I know we just went, but I wanted to go back for Fright Fest so I purchased tickets without telling Jesse.. so he couldnt say no.. and when I did tell him, I said it was for his birthday which is Halloween). Thankfully he wasn't upset at all. Normally I dont sneak about things like that but this time I just couldn't help myself! We're all excited to go back. I'm guessing we'll go around the 20th. Then we have Halloween. I got the girls costumes in the mail... cute, cute, cute! Ariel was bound and determined to be a dinosaur and I found this really cool looking pterodactyl costume. She's thrilled with it and chases Miss Clarity everywhere. So it's going to be a year round play costume, I can tell. Good! It was more than I ever thought I'd pay for a costume. Clarity is going to be this adorable little pink poodle. I tried it on her and I melted, especially when she walked around doing her "woof woof!"

I love October! Happy Fall everybody!

Half Time

20 weeks today! I can't believe how fast things have started to go now that I've gotten past (for the most part) all the sick junk. It's halfway over.. and part of me is so sad. I don't know for sure if we're done. A part of me says we are, three is plenty and then there's that teeny bit of doubt that makes me want to avoid doing anything permanent (but it's a very teeny doubt..lol). It just makes every milestone more bittersweet that this more than likely, is the last time, I will ever experience it.

I have been thinking about names lately. Well only boy names really and I just can't get past wanting to name him (if it is a him) Ryan. I love, love, love that name. Jesse of course has his heels dug in that he's against it (because of my love for Ryan Reynolds). But honestly even if there weren't a Ryan Reynolds, it will still be my absolute favorite boy name. What's funny is if you ask Ariel if she ever has a baby brother what she would want his name to be... she always says Ryan (well her first choice is triceratops but that is a no go.. so she says Ryan next). And I PROMISE I didnt give her any ideas whatsoever. Maybe she is just meant to have a brother named Ryan! I have no feelings either way about what this baby is going to be. I've been wrong both other times. I just knew Clarity was a boy because deep down I really wanted another daughter. So I just chalked it up that I was dreaming and to get used to the idea that she was a boy. WRONG! I got my two little girls. So I don't have the gift of just knowing what the baby is inside of me. I don't care either way this time around which I guess is why I don't mind keeping it a surprise the whole time! I am so anxious for delivery day though... it will be like the biggest surprise ever!

A big Congrats to Sarah (the girl who is making my pregnancy announcements) as she gave birth to a healthy baby boy in the early AM. Welcome to the world Brennan!