Look what I finally captured!!

How nice!

The weather has been wonderful today. Well it's cloudy and supposed to rain but it hasn't yet.... and it's been nearly 70 degrees! Do you realize what this means? It means my kids who have been cooped up in this house all winter long were FORCED to play outside. I pushed them out the door. No, not really. lol. There was no forcing or pushing.. they gladly flew out the door on their own free will. It's getting them back inside where the forced part comes to play. Well Clarity gladly came in. I guess she was sleepy because she came in, ate a snack, went straight to the couch and crashed out. Ariel is just running in & out as she pleases. I'm actually making more of a dent in the mileage log so that's good news and miss Emmalyn is sleeping in my lap. I watched Emiley today. There was no school today.. AGAIN. I have no idea why but it seems the schools around here have an awful lot of days out. Which will be fine with me when Ariel starts! lol. I think I'm really going to miss that kid when she's gone throughout the day during the week. It will probably be more of an adjustment for me to make than her.

I dont think I have to babysit this weekend which will be great. I have a ton to do. We have to run out to Asheville probably tomorrow to go to David's Bridal & order my shoes for Lori's wedding. I need to find someone to hem the back of my dress. I have to keep chugging away at this hideous mileage log... thank God we wont have to deal with this again. It's been giving me a massive headache everynight I've been working on it. I only have September, October, November and part of December to go. *sigh* Dang IRS and their requirements!

Oh Emmalyn had her first trip out the other night! I finally got brave and let Jesse & the girls come grocery shopping with me late Tuesday night. It went amazingly smooth! Clarity sat in the front of the cart, Ariel walked, and Emmalyn was carried via my winnie the Pooh carrier pouch thing I wear. Clarity hated it! Emmalyn however, is quite content being close to me and being carried around. She snuggled up and stayed asleep the whole time.. and it was a pretty big grocery trip since we let oursleves run out of just about everything because we just couldnt find the energy to get out & get it done! But it wasn't so bad. I told Jesse I was terrified at the thought of having three kids.. I wasnt sure how I was going to do it.. but somehow it just seems natural to us. There really hasn't been much of a transition at all.. it's like we've always had three. weird. Great.. but weird! lol.

Focus on the good!!

Things are a bit stressful right now. The pressure is on to get these taxes done.. I have to do it. So I started doing the mileage book yesterday and was on a roll when I had to stop because the computer started acting up. That was ok.. I needed a break anyways. So the mailman comes & of course Ariel runs out with her bubbly self (she LOVES checking the mail) and brings it in. Something I got shocked the heck out of me as soon as I saw the writing on the envelope. It was psycho connie's (Jesse's psycho ex stepmom.. I call her an ex because in all honesty I consider his dad an ex dad). Anyways it said it was from Stoneage Technologies (the "business" if you can even call it that... Jesse used to be a part of with his ex dad. )Inside was a schedule K-1. A little late, yes?! Aren't all businesses supposed to have tax stuff to their previous employees by Jan 31st? I was furiuous. Not only because it's late but because I dont understand what it's saying. There are numbers like $14,000 & $23,000 on it. They sure as hell better not be saying Jesse made a ton of money. Jesse & I were talking and he's like 'Oh you know they probably screwed with the books and stuff while I was gone. This is their last chance to really get to me. After this we will never see or hear from them again". Which is what we want but we dont want to be screwed in the process. So what I'm going to do is put in all the satellite information (I do taxes myself) and Jesse's w2 from Biltmore and see what we owe or what we are getting back. Then I'll add the k-1.. if it messes up our refund or changes the result to us owing a huge amount to the IRS... we're taking it straight to a tax attorney. For one Jesse was totally out of the business in March and he sure as heck didnt make a huge amount of money during the time he was there. They can look at our bank statements from then and know this.. plus our credit card debt was starting to go up, up, up. We also have the tax stuff from the other places he's worked so that will prove he wasnt with them. Now I dont KNOW that they are trying to be sneaky, weird, or vengeful.. but with our past experiences with these loons.. we're being careful. So now I've really got to move my butt to do these taxes...cause if anything is fishy... those people will burn.. not us and we'll make sure of that.

Now onto the good.. the stuff that makes me happy to type about. Emmalyn is now 5 weeks old today. A day after her one month old mark she started smiling. Not the reflex smile.. I thought it was at first.. but as I kept doing my silly voice at her and laughing and she did a huge, beautiful gummy smile again! Of course I teared up... mostly because of happiness.. there's nothing better than seeing your baby (or any of your children for that matter) smile. But it was also bittersweet...every milestone she hits could possibly be the very last "first" I ever experience with my babies. Jesse & I have discussed another one in the future and we're up in the air about it but we're pretty sure we're done. We say maybe in five years but by then all the girls will be in school and we'll be moving on in life & will more than likely be too busy for another. I guess God & time will tell but for now I'm perfectly happy with my three angels.

What a day

Tired doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling right now. I think I could just crawl into any space and pass out. Emmalyn didn't sleep much last night... she fussed for a while and other times just laid there with her eyes wide open making noises. I think she was bored & didnt understand it was bedtime. lol. I woke up it seemed every hour. At 3.. I just gave up and pretty much got up for the day since the alarm was going to go off at 3:45. I got up and cleaned my kitchen & all the other things I should have done Sunday (Sunday was honestly and truly a day of rest for Jesse, the girls & I as we all lounged around and did pretty much nothing and took naps even though the house was in need of some tidying). We went to Murphy Saturday and the girls were so glad to have seen grandma & pawpaw, grandma & abu, and nanny & grandpa Jerry. Wish we could do it more often. We stopped by Jesse's friend Josh's place since he was on our way home and spent a bit of time with him, his wife Jamie, & their son Rylan. The girls and Rylan had fun playing for a bit and Jamie was glad to have me there... we always have fun telling eachother stories and having real adult interaction since we are both stay at home moms. So that was nice. Jesse called Rylan's name just to say hi to him and the kid looked up and did this little freak out. It was soooo funny. We were all cracking up..Jesse felt bad.. but Rylan didn't really even cry.. just got all startled and was fine after like two seconds. lol. I guess you would have had to have been there to see him to get why it was hysterical!

Anyways Monday morning & I was back at babysitting. Friday Emiley busted glass (not one but TWO of our glasses) in the flowerbed outside. I was livid! She was a total pain in the arse all day that day. Well today was Alley's turn. Long story short... the day is over and I'm so glad Lisa took her kids home!!! I'm going to have to make a list of rules and send them home with Lisa so she can drill them into her kids' heads. They sure as heck dont act like they care what I have to say sometimes. How many times a day do I have to tell them "Dont climb on the furniture.. it's for sitting. It's not a trampoline", "Get off of the counter", "Stay out of the laundry room". etc etc etc. I mean seriously. I know they dont do this at their place because Emiley told me Friday if they did the stuff they do at my house at theirs... Lisa would spank them. So they do it here because they know I wont touch them. UGH!

Oh mom I wanted to thank you soooo much for those binkys! Emmalyn has finally started to take them when she's super fussy or when she "thinks" she's hungry and they are a miracle worker! She goes right to sleep! woohoo! I've got some pics of her (and the other girlies of course) to post up on here but the camera is in the truck so that will have to wait until Jesse's home & I have the energy to do it!

one last thought... the other night I woke up wanting to kill Jesse. I mean I hated him at the moment. I had a nightmare that I found out he'd been cheating on me and OMG was I pissed off. lol. It's amazing how feelings from a dream can wander over into reality and stick with you. I got over it fairly quickly but ugh! This is like the third dream I've had like that lately. I think it's because someone I know is going through it. I know he would never... he knows I'd kill him. lol.

Some silly pics

My girls are too much!

Ariel & Clarity are a couple of goofballs! I just got done playing with them and they had me laughing so hard I was in tears. We were jumping on the bed (yeah I know not the best thing to teach them.. but you know what.. it was fun! I've been far too anal with them lately. lol), tickling, chasing eachother, & playing with Clarity's baby. Clarity would squeeze her baby and make it cry then say "uh oh", open her diaper, and go "ewwww poo poo!" and change the baby's diaper. Then she lifted up her shirt to let her baby eat. Jesse & I were rolling! You can tell our kids were raised in a house that hardly uses bottles! But anyways.. it felt good to put off housework & spend time with my two little girls that haven't gotten a ton of my time lately. I have to be sure to do it more often! I have the rest of my life to stay on top of chores... but they're only little once!

Jesse & I both got surprises in the mail today...yay! He now has all the stuff for his art project (which he's in the storage shed working on now) and I got Ariel's box from Kohl's. They had a great clearance going on about a week ago and I got her five pairs of awesome jeans (they're all so pretty and stylin') and a cute Candies top for under $70! I'm trying to get a jump on school shopping. Her jeans are a bit big (I ordered size 6) but I'm hoping she'll grow into them by the time school starts or at least by the time it cools off in the fall. Now I just have to do some shopping for shirts, get her some new shoes, & her school supplies and we'll be ready! I'm starting to get excited because I know she'll have so much fun (at least I'm praying so)!

Emmalyn has been having those crying episodes once to twice a day. I give her gas drops just in case she's in pain.. but I don't necessarily think that's what's going on because I can bounce her a certain way and she'll stop. I think if she was hurting.. it wouldnt be so easy. I just do my best to comfort her and we deal with it. I think I read somewhere that sometimes newborns do these crying fits as a way to release energy since they can't get up or do anything else to burn it off. I think that may be what's going on. It sure is tiring though. I hate hearing her cry non stop for like an hour! Especially when it's bedtime!

Miss Clarity has turned into curious George all of a sudden. The girl is always into EVERYTHING. Ariel just had to throw away an entire roll of aluminum foil because Clarity thought it would be fun to unroll it all over the kitchen. lol. She got into some lotion last night (not my new stuff.. thank goodness) and I just had to get her away from the germ x not two seconds ago. She just wandered out of the office so who knows where she's going to wreck havoc next. lol. She just better be glad she's so darn cute & has those huge puppy brown eyes that gets her off the hook soooo easily with me. Maybe too easily!

Nancy! Thank you sooo much!

The girls absolutely LOVED getting their box of goodies!! I of course loved my lotion (Bath & Body Works rocks) & the outfits for Emmalyn and stuff you sent for the girls was too precious! So thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

As you can tell in the pics below, the peeps were a huge hit.. Clarity couldn't stop (which is why her mouth is bright pink in just about every picture) and they absolutely adore the Easter cups and plates! I have to keep them washed because they have been wanting to use them everytime! What I really thought was too great... the cards from Mikey and McKenzie!! I saw those and wanted to cry.. and Ariel thought that was so sweet!!

Just wanted to let you know... you really made our day!

My Precious Girls

Three weeks old... already!

God who gave time permission to fly by so fast? Emmalyn is three weeks old today.. in one more week.. she'll be a month old! Crazy! Poor little thing has broken out in bad baby acne :o( She's still a pretty little princess even though her face is all red and it looks like it hurts! There's nothing you can do for it.. it just has to go away on its own, which sucks. I have to take the blame though since they say its horomones the baby gets from the mom during pregnancy that causes it.

Little Clarity is down for a nap. We didnt even wake up THAT early this morning. Lisa didn't have to be at work until 9 so I didnt get up until like 8:20 or so. Of course the girls got up with me. I'm so glad I started this babysitting stuff. Even though sometimes it's a huge headache.. in the long run it's a huge help. Ariel is FINALLY getting along with both Alley & Emiley. In fact her and Emiley are good friends now and Ariel always looks forward to seeing her. Ariel has learned to share & that the universe doesn't revolve around her. It's a relief seeing how she is now versus how she was when I first started watching the girls. And another thing that's different: Ariel is looking forward to going to school!! That is a giant weight taken off of my shoulders. She's gaining independance slowly but surely...and she's seeing she doesn't need me as much as she thought she did. Which is a huge milestone & yet it makes me kind of sad! She's growing up and becoming her own little person. I just pray Jesse & I do well in raising her.. teaching her right from wrong..teaching her to be a good, compassionate person.. all that stuff we want her to be. All we can do is do our best and pray for God's help with that.

I went to the Ghost Hunters website today and saw that they are doing a convention in Clearwater, FL in July. Oh how I wish I could go! lol. Unfortunately I can't even get Jesse to sit down & watch the show with me, let alone take me to Florida to meet them! Even if he did agree.. I dont think I could go just for the fact I'd have to leave my little ones behind. I just dont think I could do that! Guess I'll just have to settle for enjoying the show. Not that I ever want to see something for myself.. like a ghost or whatever.. I'll stick to them showing me on tv. I think I would mess myself & run screaming like a banshee if I caught something firsthand.

Well only one more day of watching the girls! I have to get up super early tomorrow and keep Alley until 2:30. Just one more day! I think the dad is taking the girls for the weekend and Lisa made other arrangements for Monday since Mom & Dad are coming up Sunday and staying the night. Ariel's looking forward to that! I've got to get my house in order. Maybe I can get the spare bedroom done Saturday and they can actually have a room to sleep in. lol. We'll see. Lately I'm lucky to get a shower in and brush my teeth everyday!

Hallelujah! Holy sh**! Where's the Tylenol?

That quote from National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation fits exactly how I'm feeling right now. Today didn't start off too bad... Alley & Emiley came in and went to sleep *gasp* and I managed to get all three of mine that way too. So I was able to sleep until quarter till 8... get Emiley on the bus.. then go back to sleep and sleep again until 9! Amazing! God must've known I was going to need it.

Actually it wasn't even that bad until around 1:30 or so.. about an hour before Lisa was coming to get Alley. I hear Alley in the bathroom just cracking up and talking to somebody. I noticed Clarity wasn't around.. so I go in... and there's Alley sitting on the toilet and Clarity with poop smeared on her chest! OMG! I asked Alley what in the heck she was doing and told her I was going to text her mom about what happened. I sent Lisa a text saying that I was leaving the door unlocked and to come on in because I was having to get the girls in the bath since Alley smeared poop all over Clarity. I did that to give Lisa heads up and let her deal with punishment. Well Alley stands up and there is poop all over my toilet, all in her pants, on my floor... GAH! So I had her take off her pants and stand in the tub while I sanitized the toilet and floor. Then I had her run the water and clean herself... then she had to get out and I had to sanitize & clean the bath then get both of the girls in there and wash them. Ariel was fantastic with keeping an eye on Emmalyn while I was dealing with that mess. Would you believe Lisa came in and didnt say one word to Alley about it? No punishment, no getting on to her, nada. If my kid did that at a babysitter's house.. I'd be beyond mortified. I couldnt be mad at the kid if they messed themselves by accident... but to smear it on another person's kid? Um yeah they'd be in some hot water with me. I should sneak an extra charge in there for having to deal with that and clean that up & I seriously might.

Other than that & my house being an absolute disaster because I just can't keep up with everything between my kids, babysitting, and not getting near enough sleep having to wake up at 4 something every morning (oh Lisa gets no days off until Sunday and Alley's lovely dad isn't taking her this week so I get to do this ALLL week. sarcastic YAY). I'm spread so thin lately. Maybe Lisa will call in one day this week. I doubt it but I can hope! But then we need every extra bit of money we can get... so I'm just going to have to suck it up.

Clarity got stung by a yellow jacket yesterday. Not once but twice. She ran out into the fenced area of our yard yesterday because the older girls did, and she had no shoes on. She comes flying back inside screaming. I thought she had stepped on something. She points to her pant leg & I lift it up and a yellow jacket is crawling around. I knock him out and squish him. Then I looked at her foot & saw where he got her. Then she holds her other foot... sting welt there too. Little bastard! One good thing to come out of it... she's not allergic.

Well Jess is about to be home from work so I'm going to have a chance to straighten up a bit and try to get things done. Let's hope lil Emmy stays asleep! You know once I go to start something.. she's going to pop those eyes open & need something. That's how it always works with a newborn! lol.

Attention all idiots!

If you are a complete moron it should be a law that when you are driving.. you have to have a bumper sticker that states that! Let me explain. Today Jesse, the girls, & I went to Asheville. On our way home were cruising along down the interstate. I was eating a gordita from Taco Bell so I wasn't looking up. All of a sudden I felt the truck skidding, heard the tires, and felt our bed fishtail a bit. It all happened so fast but when I looked up we were about to hit the car in front of us. We didn't... THANK GOD... but we did have to come to a dead stop.. on the freaking interstate! I was so afraid we were about to be slammed from behind. All I could do was think of the girls back there. Thank God again.. the people behind us had plenty of time to slow down. So why did this happen you may ask.. because some stupid, stupid person decided to "be nice" I guess and stop in the middle of the interstate to let someone coming off of an exit on. Hello! You don't do that! I don't know what they were thinking. They are sooo lucky they didn't cause a pile up on I-40. I was shaking so hard and the names I was calling that person.. gracious. lol. I told Jesse they are so lucky we didn't hit someone or get hit because I would have jumped out, grabbed something heavy out of the truck, and beat the crap out of them. No lie. You harm my kids because you have no brains.. you're going to get it.

The reason we went to Asheville was to try to return the playpen (the rainforest one) to Target. The girls (I'm sure it was mainly Ariel and Emiley) kept getting in it and it tore. This was a week ago or so. I was so mad. Luckily Jesse found the receipt in his wallet so we took it back and acted like it was like that when we got it. They gave us no problems returning it so we have a new one. So help me if I ever catch one of the bigger girls in it again. I dont think I will. After we told them they tore it up, we havent even had any attempts from them trying to climb in.

We also ran to walmart for grocery shopping. Both the Target & Walmart trips I sat in the car with the girls and let Jesse do the running around. He took Ariel with him into walmart.. I made her keep germ x on her and told her to use it often. Daddy bought Ariel a nice new pair of earrings and she's in love. They are a pair of blue opal studs. Other than that, not much else went on today. Emmy's had two more of those screaming episodes.. so not fun! I dont remember Ariel or Clarity doing this but they probably did.

Well I should get going. I have to clean up before bed because I have to be up at the butt crack of dawn for Lisa's girls. I so dont feel rested enough! lol.

Slept in!

Who ever would have thought I'd consider 7:30 sleeping in?! lol. It felt good not to have to wake up at 4:30! But today isn't a family day like I had been hoping for. At 9 last night Jesse's cell rings. It's Ray from work asking him to come in and work in the office since he couldnt do it. Jesse & I discussed it and decided he should do it. It would be crazy to turn down money at this point. We got his check last week and we barely have enough to cover rent since he took off for Emmalyn's arrival and then ended up getting a flu bug. Part of me wanted to tell him forget it.. stay home.. but I knew I had to be realistic. He's only working 11-5 so that's not too bad. Right now him and the girls ran to McDonalds for some breakfast burritos.

So I guess today will be spent catching up on laundry & other housework. I REALLY need to start on the taxes.. time is slipping away and it has to be done. So maybe I should put that on the top of the priority list. Just the thought of doing those gives me a headache. Too many numbers, papers, and record keeping! Ick!

Emmalyn had some colic or something last night. The poor baby screamed for over an hour.. that cry that no matter what you do.. it doesnt comfort them. I hate that! I gave her some gas drops and just walked around rocking her. Finally at 11:30 she stopped and fell asleep. I hope we dont have to go through that again anytime soon (or at all for that matter). It makes you feel so helpless!

What I've been waiting for!

Lisa just came and got Alley! Hallelujah! I know that sounds horrible mean... but Lord have mercy... it couldn't come soon enough for me today!

Let me count the ways that child rode my nerves today.
1. She came in and woke everyone in the house up
2. She ate my fudge rounds! I dont mind her getting snacks but holy cow she eats everything! She will tear into my little debbies, yogurts, puddings, whatever. I honestly need to raise my price just to feed the kid. lol.
3. She got our change bowl down (it's filled with change.. I mean lots) and she threw it all over the playroom. I had her clean it up and not two mins. later she did it again. *allow me to rip my hair out*
4. She goes to the "bathroom". A few minutes later she comes out with my brand new lipstick in hand.. it's demolished. I had it up in the cabinet.. snooper!
5. She slapped Ariel in the face twice because Ariel wouldnt play with her. Ariel was good.. just quietly came and told me. Because I didnt see it, I didn't yell at her but I did tell her to be nice and if someone isn't in the mood to play, just give them time.

So you can see why I'm sooooo glad my weekend has begun. Now if I can just get my two "angels" (trust me they havent been the best today either) to lay down and take a nap... I'll be in Heaven! Update: As I was typing this I noticed Clarity was wayyy too quiet..so I jumped up to check on her and she is sound asleep on the couch holding her little bowl of cereal (no milk). Ugh why is my digital in the truck?! Anyways.. one down.. one to go!

I'm so tired!

Forgot!!

I completely forgot to mention the temper tantrum of the century we had go on in this house yesterday! I must make note of it in my blog because it was a first. Who did this? Could it have been my fiery Ariel? Actually.. nah! Even she never threw one this bad. It was my precious, innocent Clarity! Yes, Claire Bear! It all started right after her bath. I ran out to check the mail real quick (Jesse's expecting some things for his project) and she follows me outside butt naked. So I ask her to come back inside with me and hurry up and she starts having this mini meltdown. She throws herself on the sidewalk in front of the front door. So I'm having to drag her up by her arm and kind of fling her inside.. lol.. what a sight..me with this naked kid flailing and screaming in one hand and mail in the other. Once inside all heck broke loose. She was throwing herself all over the floor.. fists banging.. feet kicking. I was in hysterics and wished I had the camera batteries charged up! I had never seen such a fit in my life. I would walk out of the room and she would stand up, follow me and then throw herself down in the room I was in and start up again. It was funny for five mins. after 10-15 I was getting annoyed. Ariel couldnt stop laughing... so Ariel & I were kind of mean and decided to mock her. We were both throwing ourselves down and doing the same thing and then laughing about it. Clarity even joined in on the giggles until we stopped.. then the wailing started again. Jesse soon came home from work and couldnt believe it when I told him about the episode. His little angel.. it couldnt be. *giggle* All we could say was "Just think.. the three's are worse!" oy!

One of those days!

Hmm can we say unhappy?! Gah.. Alley & Emiley arrived here at 5:15 this morning. Of course Alley just had to be completely obnoxious and Emiley wasn't tired either. So before long I had all five kids awake... four running around & screaming. I'm sure Jesse loved having the last hour of sleep he could get totally shot. I went to wake him up at 6 and he was just laying there with his eyes wide open. He didn't really complain though since I had been the one up since 4:30 and I barely get any sleep tending to Emmalyn as it is. Not that she's not a great baby or great sleeper.. she really is.. but it's a mama thing I guess. Even when she's soundly sleeping, I automatically wake up just to check on her. Clarity and Emmy went back to sleep this morning but no one else did. My house = ABSOLUTE CHAOS! It was so clean this morning and now.. I had to escape to my computer to avoid laying into some kids. lol. The put water in the baby bath in the living room which is all over the floor, my kitchen table is covered in markers, play dough, papers, food, etc. Everything is just everywhere! I told them before I came in here that they needed to clean up and Alley says "I wont. I'm going to be leaving soon". I told her please.. she was leaving at 2:30 this afternoon and she had plenty of time to clean. I asked her if she made messes like this at her house and she goes, "no". So I told her to not to do it in mine... I mean the messes I dont mind as long as they help clean it up. But I am not getting paid enough to babysit AND be her maid. I just have to keep reminding myself just a few more hours and then the rest of today and the weekend is MINE! woohoo! I probably should get back out there.. I hear my vaccum cleaner going. Knowing alley she has the hose up to her head and is sucking up her hair. She does that everyday for some reason. lmao.

One More Day

Well technically 1 1/2 or something like that. Point is.. weekend is almost here! YES! I'm sooo looking forward to having Jesse home. I miss him during the week. Lisa and the girls are heading off for the weekend to visit some of her family so it will be a family weekend for us. Woot! I dont mind watching her girls but I'm glad I'll be getting a break and I know the girls are dying to have Jesse all to themselves.


Jesse has a project he'll start working on in a couple of days. He's had the idea in his head for months now and he finally was able to order the stuff he needs to do it. So that stuff should be coming soon and he'll be able to work on it on his off time. I've decided to be completely supportive... I've been known to not be & I'm ashamed of that. He has so many ideas and he's so artistic & creative... that's just him and I decided I should let him tap into that and go with it. Who knows.. it could mean something awesome for us in the future! I'm excited for him & I can't wait until he's finished to see what these talks we've had over the past few months materialize into.


The girls are doing great. Emmalyn is turning into such a chunky monkey! She's two weeks old today and seems she has grown so much already! She's got the chubbiest cheeks, an adorable double chin, and sumo body. lol. It's too cute! Clarity is cracking me up with her vocabulary (as small as it is). Right now she's slapping my leg asking for "jew" aka juice in her whiney voice going "maaaa jew! jew! maaaaa". It's hilarious. If I dont hurry up.. I'll hear her trademark "butt" remark. Silly girl! Ariel's actually looking forward to school. Her & Emiley have put aside all of their differences and are now good friends. How this came about.. I have no idea but I'm so glad it happened. They play together so well now. Ariel has really needed this outside interaction with other kids to learn how to deal when things dont go her way. I think it will help her come time for kindergarten. I can't believe that day is sneaking up on me. In five months or so my baby will be going to school. wow.

My New Love!

Okay this is really rediculous but I have a tv show I just can't miss. I've always liked it but just recently I've really, really gotten into it. It's my favorite! Of course Jesse's not a fan *boo on him* so I have to record it & watch it when he's not around.

I dont know what it is about it but I'm very intrigued. I get so excited everytime they capture something that can't be explained. It used to scare me but now... it's like even though it makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck at times... I find it very fascinating. They had a marathon of it yesterday and I recorded every episode. So yay!

I'll have to get the pics up

On the spur of the moment, Jesse & I decided to drive the girls out to Murphy yesterday so Grandma & PawPaw (my grandparents) as well as Nanny (Jesse's mom) could see the girls and meet Emmalyn. I wished we had gotten an earlier start so we could have spent more time out there.. but hopefully everyone is happy we came even if it couldnt be for very long. We plan on going back I think Easter so that will be good.

We drove around a lot of yesterday stopping at hair places to see if someone could fix miss Ariel's hair (she decided to give herself a haircut on one side... Gah!) Finally someone could squeeze her in at around 3:30. So now she has a short little hairdo but it's totally cute and really suits her personality. She's such a rough & tumble little girl. lol. To think I had her pegged as a prissy princess when she was born. Ha! She showed me. Jesse always jokes that he doesnt need his boy after all since he's got someone to rough up and do all that fun stuff like camping and fishing with. She's even told me she wants to go hunting.. now where she got that I have no idea. Jesse doesnt even hunt! Now miss Clarity is my prissy princess...she will change her clothes a million times a day (if I forget to lock her bedroom with her clothes in it). She loves make up and babies and all that girlie stuff. It will be interesting to see how Emmalyn turns out!

**I started this on Sunday but I'm finishing it today which is Monday**
Well I've had the girls the past two days... today they were here by 5:15 this morning. yikes. Thank God they both laid down on the couch and went to sleep. Hallelujah! I had to wake Emiley a couple of times to get her going to get on the bus. I was so worried she was going to poo around and miss it (seems she was trying her hardest). lol. Alley's been Alley today. Not too bad. I was in the laundry room getting Ariel & Clarity some clothes (I had them take a bath) and came out to find Alley carrying Emmy from her swing to the couch. Eek! I was like "oh my God no! You dont ever, ever pick her up by yourself and without me around". She was like "but the baby was crying and red as a fire". I told her crying wont kill the baby but dropping her will. I think she got the point. I felt like a mama bird ready to kick her butt. lol.

Other than that, all has been okay. It was warm yesterday so the girls spent the latter part of the afternoon outside until Lisa came home. I think I may go see how it is right now....

Oh the heating oil got delivered this morning. $356 on a credit card. wonderful. What really sucks is I asked the guy to measure it before he pumped it. When we moved in we had 115 gallons. Well when he comes back to give me back the credit card and receipt he tells me we should be good for quite a while. We still had 90 gallons left! I swore we were probably almost out! He said 20 gallons or so doesnt count because it wont use that far down to avoid sludge getting in the lines or something but still thats 70 gallons! Lesson learned... we dont use a lot of heating oil. We better be here next year to use every bit of that up. lol. Oh well. At least we know we can stay warm :o)

Here she is (proud big sisters too) !!

Flippin Cold!!

Winter can officially end anytime now. I'm so tired of this freezing then warming up then freezing again stuff! I have a hundred gallons of heating oil being delivered monday. We've managed fine without using it but now that Emmy is here, I'm wanting to make sure this place stays toasty. I have no idea how much we have left in our tank right now and I'm leary of running it since if you run it without much oil...it can cause it to break. So we're hanging in there until Monday. Jesse fixed the fireplace and we've been burning it at night but the wood they have here is so dry it burns up in no time. Oh well. We're still using our electric heaters too. Hopefully we wont have to burn much of the oil and we'll have it for next winter. You would think all of this cold mess would end soon.. it is nearly March after all! Dang I just realized March is tomorrow... closer than I thought!

They cancelled school here Wednesday and Thursday (nothing was even on the ground.. it had all melted but I guess some part of the county got walloped so they closed all the schools). So I had Emiley two full days in a row. It wasn't too bad... we managed to get through it. lol. But today I didnt have either of them since alley was at her dad's... and it's been nice & quiet. The girls and I have lounged on the couch and taken naps (ariel & Clarity are still sleeping and I think Emmalyn is going back to sleep since she's been changed and eaten). I really should be doing our taxes or getting this place organized but when it's this cold & cloudy outside.. it's hard to get motivated to do anything!

I guess I should get some pics of little miss emmalyn (little blondie as Jesse calls her since what little hair she has, her eyebrows and eyelashes are all this white blonde color) up on this blog. I tried to the other day but it wasn't cooperating. She's such a cute little thing! I'm not bias or anything like that ;o)

How is it possible

That when you are waiting for your little one to get here... the days drag on and time stands still...then when they do arrive... the days just seem to fly by?! Emmalyn is almost five days old already. It doesnt seem possible. Wasn't I just getting ready to have her yesterday?!

She's doing wonderful.. she never cries unless she's hungry or needs a diaper change. She's so laid back and will lay in her swing contently & sleep in her bed. Amazing! I'm finding myself doing exactly what I said I wouldn't... holding her while she's sleeping or letting her lay with me. I can't help it! lol. She's just so tiny (yet growing so fast) and with her being my last.. I just want to cherish every second of her being this tiny little angel. She's starting to stay awake for much longer periods of time and just gaze around at everyone. It cracks Ariel & Clarity up when she's looking at them and sticks out her tongue or makes a face. They love it. I have two amazing helpers... that are always jumping at the chance to get me diapers or wipes or to let me know if she starts to fuss a bit if I'm in another room.

Things have been hectic in this house with all these bugs going around. Jesse's so sick he had to call in to work this morning. I know he was really debating it but he was just so run down and running a fever.. I told him to just do it. That if he didnt rest he'd probably end up missing more than a day and going to the hospital. He hasn't gotten off the couch except to eat a bit of breakfast and other than that he's been asleep. I know it drives him crazy.. he's such a busy person.. so you know when he's like this, he's REALLY sick. I felt horrible last night with a cough & tickle in my throat that kept choking me. On the good side: Ariel & Clarity are doing MUCH better now so it must be a come and go virus. I sure hope so. I get to fight walmart today to do some grocery shopping. It really needs to be done. Jesse & I have put it off as long as we could. I'll leave him & the girls in the truck (I would leave them home but Jesse said he'd rather go that way if Emma starts fussing he can call me and I can go sit in the truck and he'll finish the shopping). So eventually today we'll get around to doing that escapade. Not looking forward to it! We're under a winter storm warning right now.. I guess sometime tonight it's supposed to start snowing and we're going to get between 2-4 inches (supposedly). All winter I've looked foward to snow... now I'm so over it and I actually wouldnt mind not getting anything. I'm ready for warm weather and for everyone to feel better!

Surprise all right.... It's a GIRL!!!!

Emmalyn Reese Moore was born February 21, 2008 at 2:30 p.m. She weighed 6 lbs 11 oz and was 19 inches. We are thrilled with her and love having her here! It's like she's always been a part of the family and we're all totally in love with her! Ariel & Clarity are all the time wanting to help or love up on her. It's so cute!!

We've been going to the doctor or hospital ever since we brought her home. The first time it was for a weight check (she was 6 lbs 5 oz on Saturday) and we were sent to the lab for a bilirubin test since the pediatrician thought she might have jaundice. Her levels were high... 18% so we had to go back Sunday for another test. These were much better.. they were down to 11% so she's good there! We had another weight check this morning and she is 6 lbs 9 oz (they were really impressed she's gained 4 oz back in two days). She's eating well, sleeping well, pooping well, peeing well... all is great... so we dont have to go back until her 1 month check up! yay!

I've been a nervous wreck for the past two days though. It started out with Clarity running a low grade fever. She just had some sort of short lived virus. But the thing that scares me is it only takes a temp of 100.4 for it to be considered a medical emergency in a newborn. Then last night Ariel gets really sick... just laying around, complaining of a headache, then spiking a fever over 102. So between worrying about the older girls and keeping them away Emmalyn as much as possible... and then checking Emma's temp with every diaper change.. just to be sure.. I'm sooo tired! Flu and strep is running wild in this area so Jesse and I dont take the girls out (with the exception of Emmalyn's appointments) and even then, they wait in the truck with Jesse. I'll be so glad when this cold & flu season is over and I can relax about it a bit!

Last post as a mama of two!

Tomorrow is it! Jesse and I go to the hospital at 6:30 am to get this baby out of there. Of course I'm jittery and nervous.. I've never had to be induced before so I'm honestly in the dark about what to expect. I do know it's not going to be pleasant. I guess that's the trade off you have to make to know exactly when you're baby is coming.

I probably won't get an ounce of sleep tonight. Jesse & I are hoping to be leaving the house by like 5:30 or so that way he can get him some breakfast and we can go fill out all the paperwork that's needed at the hospital since I never got around to pre-registering. I'm so worried about the girls... I guess what I'm really worried about is something going wrong and the girls not having a mom. I know.. I shouldnt even let those thoughts enter my mind, but of course they do. I'm sure all will be fine. I've always been a worrier and I find I worry over nothing a lot of the time! Jesse's all the time telling me to relax that stress kills.. lol...he's right and I really should listen!

Well other than that, not much else is going through my mind! I babysat for Alley today & she was good most of the day but towards the end, her & Ariel started fussing at eachother. They were both tired. Emiley had an unusual morning. She came in and laid on the recliner and *gasp* went to sleep! I never get that lucky! lol. I guess it was because I told her as soon as she came in to please try to be quiet and be good because I really didnt feel very good. She listened! I woke her up about ten minutes before the bus came and brushed her hair... and she was in a good mood when she left. Nice!

Alley is going to stay with her dad tomorrow through Sunday and Emiley I guess is staying with him Friday. I forgot exactly what Lisa said was going on... but she made sure she doesnt need me until next Monday which is when I told Gregg I would probably be good to take the girls again.

soooo the next time I post.. I will have 3 little ones and I'll be able to post pics of the newest addition to our family and finally be able to say if it's a boy or girl and what we named them! How exciting! It's been fun... but I'm so done :o) lol

Appointment Today

Well after getting Emiley to school, Jesse and I took off for my appointment which I swore was going to be a decently long one. Nope not really! I was pretty much in & out. Jesse and the girls weren't even done eating breakfast (he took Alley, Ariel & Clarity for some Mcdonalds while they were waiting for me).

The doctor checked me and I'm 3 cm but not much else to say about it. I haven't been having contractions regularly and pretty much this baby is being lazy. lol. So Dr. Potter scheduled an induction for this Thursday at 6:30 am (well 7:00 am but she said I could get there at 6:30 and God knows we will if this baby isn't here by then). I'm actually kind of hoping I make it to the induction just because Jesse would have a four day weekend to be home and spend time with the baby and plus I babysit tomorrow.. lol.

Alley was soooo good today. I was actually surprised at what an easy day I had. Her and Ariel dont bicker constantly like Emiley & Ariel do. That in itself just makes the day go more smoothly. I dont know what I'm going to have to do to get Ariel & Emiley to chill out and just be nice. I dont know why it's so hard for them not to compete and fight! I told Jesse I can't believe how catty they can be towards eachother. Emiley is the same way with Alley. This morning she took her foot and just kicked Alley in the mouth. I told Jesse I felt like I am watching wrestling or something when I have to seperate those two girls. Thank goodness Ariel & Emiley only have verbal wars and not the physical stuff. I'd go insane!

We have names!

Jesse and I have one boy name and one girl name picked... YAY!! The girl name just popped into my head at like 4 am about a week ago. Dont know what made me wake up and think of it.. but once I did.. I just KNEW that was the name I wanted to use if it was a girl. Jesse's being go with the flow this time around. He said I pretty much came up with the girls' names and he loved those so I'm good at it and he let me go with it.

Of course we're being turds and not spilling the names until baby is here! The girls I talk to online are going nuts... I didn't find out the sex.. I wont tell them the names... I'm being bad, bad, bad! hehe.

We'll find out soon enough!

When I made my appointment for tomorrow, I completely forgotten I had told Lisa I'd take them in the morning! So.. after talking to her I told her I'd get Emiley to school and just take Alley with us to the appointment. Jesse & the girls always just wait in the truck anyways. Maybe with any luck the drive will put her to sleep. lol. I better get some sleep myself.. It's 10:40 pm and I have to be up by 4:30 am... I always like to get up and have my shower and straighten up the house before they get here.

I'll update about my doctor appointment as soon as I get home :o) Fingers crossed for good news!!

Anytime now would be great!

Today is officially my due date and that baby is just as happy as can be staying where it is, I guess! I was supposed to have an appointment today, but I rescheduled since Jesse would miss a ton of work being it was at 11:15 am. So I go in tomorrow at 8 am. Jesse's a nervous wreck.. lol. He called me this morning to see how I was and to see if I called the doctor and when I told him my appointment was in the morning, he was like "to induce you?". lmao. I think not. We'll see what they say. Maybe something will happen tonight and we wont even make it to the appointment.. but I'm sure not holding my breath!

My internet has been out for several days which is why I haven't posted to update my blog. But it's back again. Yay. I have never in my life had to wait on hold before actually speaking to a person for 40 minutes until today. Wildblue... gotta love their customer service! But at least it's back.. I have to check the bank account and pay some bills and when you do everything by internet and then you dont have it for a while... kind of throws things off! Guess that's what I get for depending on technology.

I watched Emiley Saturday & Sunday. Alley was at her dad's. Things are going well... Emiley is doing better with listening to me. I think the first few times she tested me to see what it was I was going to let her get away with. Which I dont think there's a kid that won't do that. lol. Her & Ariel sure have their moments. One minute they are friends and playing fine and the next they are doing the whole " I'm older than you" "well I'm smarter than you" "well I have more toys than you" "Clarity likes me better" fights! *pulls hair out* The other day I had enough. I raised my voice and told both of them that I was older and smarter and sick of hearing the constant bickering. I told them if they wanted to keep it up, I'd put them both outside and they could argue until the cows came home but it wasn't happening in my house. Emiley pipes up with "But cows dont come home" OMG. lol. I told her the cows would do whatever I wanted. Then I told them that Clarity was younger than both of them and had a better attitude and was acting more mature than them. Then Emiley tells me it's because Clarity can't talk. I told her no it was because Clarity had sense enough to know if she acted up it would make me mad. Finally it sunk in and they both straightened up and were fine the rest of the day. I think Emiley was shocked. Jesse just kind of sat there with a smirk on his face while I had my tirade. lol. He goes, "I love when you do that. It's so funny". I think Jesse and I have figured out why Emiley feels so much competition with Ariel and we're going to do our best to keep it in mind. We're trying to make Ariel realize what's going on too so she doesn't take anything personally. Emiley and Alley are really great kids... and I do think it's good that they're here, even when it's hard. Lord knows my kids need the interaction with others. Especially Ariel... I dont want her thinking she's the center of the universe when she starts school this fall.

Well I'm off to clean the house. Not much to do.. just laundry and get something out for dinner. I still havent gotten around to this office or the spare room. Maybe I'll get started on that. who knows.. I keep telling myself I'll get it done, just having a hard time with the making it happen part!

Oh yeah!

I meant to mention that Ariel actually wants a brother now! She made me buy the baby this outfit the other night with dinosaurs on the onesie and then a pair of matching pants with a little tricerotops on it. I kept that tags on just in case we are having a girl... even if it is one, I'll probably keep them and let the baby wear it. It is the first gift from his or her biggest sister and Ariel's a girl and into dinosaurs, so I can't be sexist against that one! lol.

8 days left... wow

We ran out last night and did some baby shopping! We got our monitors, a sleep positioner (I am bound to get this baby to sleep in its own bed), a snuzzler for the carseat, a pump, a mirror for the truck & baby wipes (mom is bringing the diapers)... so I think we're pretty much ready! We didnt get our baby name book but I'm hoping mom can find one and bring it over when they come to visit today. Then we'll be doing all right! Jesse's going to install the carseat in the truck today so we wont have to worry about that. I'm hoping mom managed to get the baby swing from Linda but if not, we'll be okay. It wont be the end of the world. Now I just need to pack the hospital bag.. I'll probably start on that today. I will not be packing last minute like we did with Ariel. I ended up forgetting to bring Jesse clothes! lol. At least we wont be far from the hospital here, so even if I miss something... he can run out and grab it! We've got the diaper bag packed. Now we just play the waiting game (can I mention how much this drives me insane?). I told Jesse if the baby hasn't come by next Friday, I'm asking to be induced that way it can come on a weekend and he wont have to miss work!

The girls are excited. Ariel really is. I think now that we're getting things together and ready, she realizes this will be happening soon. It seems so surreal. Part of me feels like this pregnancy has drug on and on (mainly since I hit 30 weeks) but another part of me can't believe we are in the last days of it! I'm so excited. I can't wait!

She's fine!

My little girl is okay! I had an appointment at the same time as hers so I wasn't with her but Jesse said the doctor was so nice and thorough and he really liked her. If he liked her, she must've been good, he's so picky about the doctors that deal with the girls! When I came out of my appointment (which ran over beause they did a non stress test) and saw they weren't out... I about freaked. I was sure they were doing all kinds of tests or the fact that it taking so long was bad news. I felt so sick waiting! After about a half hour they come out and she's all smiles. Jesse told me it was just lymph nodes from her being sick and I wanted to just cry! We're going to schedule her for a five year check up soon (and Clarity needs to get in for her two year). The doctor said she'll probably refer us to a dermatologist to get her "watch" (birthmark) removed at that appointment. Ariel's kind of afraid of that already, but we'll see what they say about it when we have to cross that bridge. Oh and she got weighed... she weighs 39 1/2 lbs. We got her new carseat in the nick of time!

My doctor's appointment went fine. I think I've capped off at 130 lbs. Hopefully I wont have trouble losing the weight after this baby comes. I told Jesse I'll have to bust out the ab lounge to get ready for Lori's wedding. lol. The midwife told me that the baby turned and isn't posterior anymore which is good news. Amazing how she could do that just by feeling my stomach. She was telling me she could feel features on its face. crazy! Clarity was an absolute angel during my appointment. She just sat in the chair all quiet and held her baby panda snugglekins we got her for Christmas. The nurses and midwife were so surprised at how good she was... and how serious! lol. She is so shy around people and keeps such a serious face. Ariel was a little social butterfly smiling and talking to everyone. It's amazing how alike they are and yet how different!

Well I dont have Alley and Emiley this weekend as planned. Lisa called me last night and they ended up going to their dad's. Lisa sounded horrible sick so that's probably a good thing. She could hardly talk. Plus I didn't get any sleep last night and I just feel worn out this weekend... so being able to rest is always nice! I was looking forward to it, but there will be other times, times when I'm feeling more up to it.

Jesse's at work for a bit today. The granite place is entering some home shows and they asked Jesse what he would put in one. He told them a granite sink would be a good show piece and they asked him if he would come in and start working on it. So that makes up for him missing out on work yesterday. I told Jesse they must really value his opinion on things because they are always going to him for ideas and now he's the only one that templates and they've given him the job of collecting checks...which puts a lot of trust in him, especially after what just happened with the former manager there (long story but lots and lots of embezzlement).

Well I need to get going and start cleaning and get the girls some lunch. I think we're going to the grocery store this afternoon and to pick up some last minute baby items... baby name book for sure! hehe. My main point of jumping on here today was to Thank God for my healthy little girl :o)

Off to the doctor!

Not for me though. I had to call and schedule Ariel an appointment for the pediatrician because last night at walmart I put my hand around her neck to lead her away from the toys, and I felt a lump. Of course my heart is racing with all the bad thoughts that can overcome your mind with something like that. I had Jesse feel it and we decided to get it checked out. It's probably just a swollen lymph node from her being sick this past week... but I'm not taking any chances. I sent her inside the grocery store with him last night after we left walmart and I had a good cry. I knew I couldnt do it in front of her or let her see me worried & scared. It felt good to get that out. So at 3:15 pm today we'll be at sylva Pediatrics hopefully being told that's she's fine and feeling relieved.

I got a call from Lisa this morning and I watch Alley & Emiley this weekend from 6 am- 2 pm both days. So that will help with Jesse having to take off of work early. I really dont want him having to take off some Monday for my appointment.. I may just cancel. lol. okay scratch that. I just called and I have an appointment at the same time as Ariel today. Luckily they're in the same area next to the hospital so I'm going to get to Ariel's early, fill out all of her paperwork and Jesse is going to stay with her while I run over to my doctor (with Clarity.. fun fun.. hehe). So we're knocking out all appointments today and Jesse wont have to miss any work Monday. Phew. Busy day. We'll probably get some of our grocery shopping done while we're out there as well.

Busy, busy, busy!!

Nothing More than Rain!

I can't even begin to tell you how relieved I was when out of nowhere the storm system weakened (the weather channel wasn't expecting that one.. must have been all the prayers!) and we didnt get more than rain and wind yesterday. I feel for all of those who weren't so blessed... the last count I saw on CNN this morning was 55 deaths and I dont know the count of actual tornadoes but it did say over a thousand warnings went off! That was crazy scary.

Yesterday I ended up sleeping all day long. God must've known I needed it because Clarity slept with me on the couch and Ariel bless her little heart just quietly entertained herself by watching cartoons, coloring or playing with her dinosaurs. She honestly is such a blessing and such a great little girl. Clarity is too, don't get me wrong, it's just amazing that Ariel let me get all the sleep I needed. She didn't bother me for anything (of course I did get up and feed her lunch and snacks... I didn't just sleep and let the kid go hungry. lol).

Today though, I dont want to be so lazy. I have great ambition to get all of my laundry caught up and put away and clean the office as well as my usual dishes, cleaning the floors, straightening up and cooking dinner. So I'm about to go grab a shower and get started. Hopefully I wont tire before I get done... lol.. I'll do my best! Hope everyone has a happy day!

A Nervous wreck!

The weather is awful. Not here... not yet. Just in the southeast. They are saying it's one of the worst February tornado outbreaks in history. So far the count is 57 tornadoes in three states and 31 deaths (although unfortunately since it happened at night the numbers will more than likely climb as daylight allows damage surveys and rescues). I've been watching a storm move towards murphy all morning... a tornado warning for Chattanooga Tennesse, then Cleveland, now it's Polk County (the next county over from mom and dad). I can't even tell you how sick I am. Between being tired and overly stressed... I feel like throwing up. I'm actually surprised it hasn't happened yet. I didn't want Jesse to go to work but I couldnt ask him to stay home. I'm worried about my parents & family, the girls and myself, Jesse. I hate that we're all apart. I keep praying to God this monster will weaken and we'll all be fine. More than likely, we will, but you know me and my fear of storms and tornadoes. It's my own personal demon. so tons of prayers going out this morning to those who have gone through this and those that have to deal with it later. Prayers that my family will be kept safe and we wont even see any severe weather. I'll be back on later today... hopefully to say that nothing happened and all is fine!

Better Today

Everyone seems to be on the mend... THANK GOD! Ariel said she's feeling pretty good. Her cough and sore throat are gone and she hasn't had to have any Tylenol so that's great. She also slept through the night (as did Clarity). It was so nice having them both asleep before 11... Jesse and I kicked back in the loveseat and enjoyed some Mythbusters before he was out. Then I went and slept on the couch with the girls. We havent slept in our bed in weeks... I just find the couch more comfortable right now and I guess Jesse hates being by himself so he usually sleeps in the living room with us. Clarity also seems to be doing nearly 100% better from yesterday. She's rowdy and hyper and bugging her sister. lol. She ate cereal and spaghetti o's and drank her juice and hasn't cried with a stomach ache or thrown up. I forgot to ask Jesse how he was feeling when he called on his lunch break. I guess he's fine. He was more concerned with how the girls were doing and to make sure I was okay. He was happy to hear all was good.. I think it makes his day easier to know that.

They've put him in charge of templating so he's going out on his own all the time. I bet he loves that. It probably makes the day go by a lot faster. He's never thrilled when he's stuck in the shop, so I'm happy for him.

We just got over our weekend and I'm already counting down this upcoming one. As long as I'm not watching Emiley and Alley we're going to hit asheville again. We still need to pick up a carseat cover and head cushion for the baby. It's still so weird to me that a huge mall, Target, Kohls, Chuck E Cheese, and pretty much anything else I can imagine is just a half hour drive away. I guess that's what happens when you're stuck with being happy with only having a super walmart for so many years! lol.

Update on today!

Thank goodness it went great! Lisa and her girls (alley and emiley) came over and I have to say I liked all three of them. I think they liked us too... all four girls (hers and mine) had a blast running around, squealing and playing with eachother while Lisa and I talked. It thrilled me that they were all getting along! Then Emiley made my day by drawing me a picture. It's nice to know that these girls wont feel terrified and they liked it here. When Lisa was trying to round them up to go they kept saying they didnt want to and Lisa asked them if they would like to come back later and they excitedly replied "yeah!". She said she'll definately need me. She's just starting her job tomorrow but she wont need me for a few days because the girls' dad will have them. So we shall see. Any money coming in is great and honestly I'm looking forward to those girls coming back because they were so blessed cute and mine had so much fun playing with them! Turns out Emiley rides the bus that drives right by our house.. so if Ariel ever rides the bus.. she'll know someone! That's a relief!

Oh and Clarity finally woke up from her hours on end nap when they showed up and she seems to be feeling a bit better. She had energy to play and she's taken a bath and eaten some banana. Hopefully all the puke is over. I pray so! It makes me so sad to see her choke and struggle.. I hate that so badly!

It's raining.. it's pouring

Literally and figuratively speaking! It has been a dreary, cloudy, rainy day all day long. And this morning didn't start off so hot. I almost had the girls ready for my doctor's appointment (Jesse was giving them breakfast) when Clarity came and started acting all sleepy in my lap. Next thing I know the poor baby is throwing up all over the place. So I had to take her and get her in the shower and all cleaned up. So we get on the road and once we're in Sylva we stop at a gas station to get some donuts. Clarity's all wanting some and she seemed fine, so I gave them to her. Jesse parks in the doctor's office and him and the girls wait in the truck (dont want to contaminate the place with germs). As I'm waiting to see the midwife, my phone starts going off. Poor Clarity had thrown up all over Jesse. I ask my nurse if she had any paper towels I could run out to them and she was sooo sweet and helpful and even gave us some clorox disinfectant wipes. lol. So Clarity got stripped down and had Ariel's sweater put on her and Jesse just wore his jacket (he had to take off his shirt) and PJ pants (thank goodness he was dressed in double layers preparing for it to be cold, when it wasn't that bad today). I went back in and finished my appointment... lol...

As far as my appointment goes all is okay, I guess. I had to leave two urine samples. The first one had blood and white blood cells in it. So they wanted another to send to the lab to see if it's a bladder infection or just my body preparing towards the end of this pregnancy. If they call that means infection and I have to start on antibiotics. yay!

Other than that not much to say. Baby did move down some (don't know if it turned around or not, I forgot to ask with all of the Clarity drama). She said I'm measuring smaller but that's probably because baby has dropped some. I did notice it's a bit easier to breathe but I'm still feeling a lot of action in my ribs so it didnt move too much!

So now I'm home with the girls and Jesse's at work. Clarity ate some chicken noodle soup (just a bit) and went to sleep on the couch so far no more throwing up, I pray it stays that way. Ariel is still kind of sick, but nothing meltaways don't help. Hopefully we'll get done passing germs and viruses before the new baby gets here. This is exactly why I dont even want the girls going to the hospital.. all it takes is a minute to get some germ on your clothes and then I have a sick newborn on my hands. Hate, hate, hate cold and flu season! Jesse and I are getting a carseat cover so we can carry it out of the hospital without exposing it to anything (plus it keeps it warm too).

I'm meeting with Lisa and her girls today around 3. So I'll probably be back to update how that goes. I pray these are great little girls and they get along with mine and I pray Lisa likes me and decides to use me to watch her kids. Any extra money is good right now!

wheeee!

You've got to love winter time. The snow, the cool air, the holidays and my favorite the germs! bleh! Last night as we were leaving Wal-mart Ariel complained of a tickle in her throat. An hour or two after we get home she had a cough and and her throat felt worse. She wakes up crying at around 4 am and I get up and get her some tylenol meltaways. Thank God that did the trick and she was sound asleep within a half hour. I however, didn't get so lucky. I tossed and turned and couldnt get comfortable. Then wake up this morning and I felt okay... not great but I assumed it was from lack of sleep. I cleaned out the fridge and did the dishes then ate some breakfast. Here it is nearly noon and wow has it hit. I feel like a semi truck has plowed into my body. The body aches and headache are awful! I took some tylenol (and I hardly ever take anything so you know it's bad) and Jesse gave me some vitamin C. He says he's feeling "run down" too. Hopefully this is very short lived and we'll all feel better tomorrow. Lisa (the girl that wants me to babysit) called yesterday while we were all fine... and I think we're supposed to meet tomorrow and if she works (and likes me), I'll probably be watching her little girl. So this bug better vacate asap. Knock on wood.. there are no fevers.. so that's something to be happy about! Oh and so far Claire Bear is doing okay... I pray God has mercy on her since she had the tummy bug the other day and we didn't... and she doesnt catch this mess!

A bit of a heavy heart

Today I went on the Hannah and Lily blog... I hardly go on there because of the emotions it evokes for me. Hannah is the reason I started blogging myself and her mom is just amazing. A pillar of strength. How she keeps such a positive outlook on things after losing her five year old is beyond me. In her entry she was saying how she thanks God everynight for the time he let her spend with Han. She's sad she's gone but she knows God has a reason and she knows she was blessed to have had her in her life. Wow.

Then tonight I read about a family whose two year old son woke up with a cold, passed out, was taken to the hospital and died. So between Han who was the same age as Ariel and this little boy.. who was probably around Clarity's age.. I'm just sad for these famililes and giving the girls more hugs and kisses than normal. I can't even imagine losing one of my babies and it's selfish but I pray I never have to face that harsh reality. I don't think I'd have a positive outlook, I don't think I could make it.

Right now Jesse took the girls out with him and left me home (a first!). T hey went to pick up Pizza Hut and some milk. I thought I would relish this time of peace but I miss them. This house is way too quiet.