Last post as a mama of two!

Tomorrow is it! Jesse and I go to the hospital at 6:30 am to get this baby out of there. Of course I'm jittery and nervous.. I've never had to be induced before so I'm honestly in the dark about what to expect. I do know it's not going to be pleasant. I guess that's the trade off you have to make to know exactly when you're baby is coming.

I probably won't get an ounce of sleep tonight. Jesse & I are hoping to be leaving the house by like 5:30 or so that way he can get him some breakfast and we can go fill out all the paperwork that's needed at the hospital since I never got around to pre-registering. I'm so worried about the girls... I guess what I'm really worried about is something going wrong and the girls not having a mom. I know.. I shouldnt even let those thoughts enter my mind, but of course they do. I'm sure all will be fine. I've always been a worrier and I find I worry over nothing a lot of the time! Jesse's all the time telling me to relax that stress kills.. lol...he's right and I really should listen!

Well other than that, not much else is going through my mind! I babysat for Alley today & she was good most of the day but towards the end, her & Ariel started fussing at eachother. They were both tired. Emiley had an unusual morning. She came in and laid on the recliner and *gasp* went to sleep! I never get that lucky! lol. I guess it was because I told her as soon as she came in to please try to be quiet and be good because I really didnt feel very good. She listened! I woke her up about ten minutes before the bus came and brushed her hair... and she was in a good mood when she left. Nice!

Alley is going to stay with her dad tomorrow through Sunday and Emiley I guess is staying with him Friday. I forgot exactly what Lisa said was going on... but she made sure she doesnt need me until next Monday which is when I told Gregg I would probably be good to take the girls again.

soooo the next time I post.. I will have 3 little ones and I'll be able to post pics of the newest addition to our family and finally be able to say if it's a boy or girl and what we named them! How exciting! It's been fun... but I'm so done :o) lol

Appointment Today

Well after getting Emiley to school, Jesse and I took off for my appointment which I swore was going to be a decently long one. Nope not really! I was pretty much in & out. Jesse and the girls weren't even done eating breakfast (he took Alley, Ariel & Clarity for some Mcdonalds while they were waiting for me).

The doctor checked me and I'm 3 cm but not much else to say about it. I haven't been having contractions regularly and pretty much this baby is being lazy. lol. So Dr. Potter scheduled an induction for this Thursday at 6:30 am (well 7:00 am but she said I could get there at 6:30 and God knows we will if this baby isn't here by then). I'm actually kind of hoping I make it to the induction just because Jesse would have a four day weekend to be home and spend time with the baby and plus I babysit tomorrow.. lol.

Alley was soooo good today. I was actually surprised at what an easy day I had. Her and Ariel dont bicker constantly like Emiley & Ariel do. That in itself just makes the day go more smoothly. I dont know what I'm going to have to do to get Ariel & Emiley to chill out and just be nice. I dont know why it's so hard for them not to compete and fight! I told Jesse I can't believe how catty they can be towards eachother. Emiley is the same way with Alley. This morning she took her foot and just kicked Alley in the mouth. I told Jesse I felt like I am watching wrestling or something when I have to seperate those two girls. Thank goodness Ariel & Emiley only have verbal wars and not the physical stuff. I'd go insane!

We have names!

Jesse and I have one boy name and one girl name picked... YAY!! The girl name just popped into my head at like 4 am about a week ago. Dont know what made me wake up and think of it.. but once I did.. I just KNEW that was the name I wanted to use if it was a girl. Jesse's being go with the flow this time around. He said I pretty much came up with the girls' names and he loved those so I'm good at it and he let me go with it.

Of course we're being turds and not spilling the names until baby is here! The girls I talk to online are going nuts... I didn't find out the sex.. I wont tell them the names... I'm being bad, bad, bad! hehe.

We'll find out soon enough!

When I made my appointment for tomorrow, I completely forgotten I had told Lisa I'd take them in the morning! So.. after talking to her I told her I'd get Emiley to school and just take Alley with us to the appointment. Jesse & the girls always just wait in the truck anyways. Maybe with any luck the drive will put her to sleep. lol. I better get some sleep myself.. It's 10:40 pm and I have to be up by 4:30 am... I always like to get up and have my shower and straighten up the house before they get here.

I'll update about my doctor appointment as soon as I get home :o) Fingers crossed for good news!!

Anytime now would be great!

Today is officially my due date and that baby is just as happy as can be staying where it is, I guess! I was supposed to have an appointment today, but I rescheduled since Jesse would miss a ton of work being it was at 11:15 am. So I go in tomorrow at 8 am. Jesse's a nervous wreck.. lol. He called me this morning to see how I was and to see if I called the doctor and when I told him my appointment was in the morning, he was like "to induce you?". lmao. I think not. We'll see what they say. Maybe something will happen tonight and we wont even make it to the appointment.. but I'm sure not holding my breath!

My internet has been out for several days which is why I haven't posted to update my blog. But it's back again. Yay. I have never in my life had to wait on hold before actually speaking to a person for 40 minutes until today. Wildblue... gotta love their customer service! But at least it's back.. I have to check the bank account and pay some bills and when you do everything by internet and then you dont have it for a while... kind of throws things off! Guess that's what I get for depending on technology.

I watched Emiley Saturday & Sunday. Alley was at her dad's. Things are going well... Emiley is doing better with listening to me. I think the first few times she tested me to see what it was I was going to let her get away with. Which I dont think there's a kid that won't do that. lol. Her & Ariel sure have their moments. One minute they are friends and playing fine and the next they are doing the whole " I'm older than you" "well I'm smarter than you" "well I have more toys than you" "Clarity likes me better" fights! *pulls hair out* The other day I had enough. I raised my voice and told both of them that I was older and smarter and sick of hearing the constant bickering. I told them if they wanted to keep it up, I'd put them both outside and they could argue until the cows came home but it wasn't happening in my house. Emiley pipes up with "But cows dont come home" OMG. lol. I told her the cows would do whatever I wanted. Then I told them that Clarity was younger than both of them and had a better attitude and was acting more mature than them. Then Emiley tells me it's because Clarity can't talk. I told her no it was because Clarity had sense enough to know if she acted up it would make me mad. Finally it sunk in and they both straightened up and were fine the rest of the day. I think Emiley was shocked. Jesse just kind of sat there with a smirk on his face while I had my tirade. lol. He goes, "I love when you do that. It's so funny". I think Jesse and I have figured out why Emiley feels so much competition with Ariel and we're going to do our best to keep it in mind. We're trying to make Ariel realize what's going on too so she doesn't take anything personally. Emiley and Alley are really great kids... and I do think it's good that they're here, even when it's hard. Lord knows my kids need the interaction with others. Especially Ariel... I dont want her thinking she's the center of the universe when she starts school this fall.

Well I'm off to clean the house. Not much to do.. just laundry and get something out for dinner. I still havent gotten around to this office or the spare room. Maybe I'll get started on that. who knows.. I keep telling myself I'll get it done, just having a hard time with the making it happen part!

Oh yeah!

I meant to mention that Ariel actually wants a brother now! She made me buy the baby this outfit the other night with dinosaurs on the onesie and then a pair of matching pants with a little tricerotops on it. I kept that tags on just in case we are having a girl... even if it is one, I'll probably keep them and let the baby wear it. It is the first gift from his or her biggest sister and Ariel's a girl and into dinosaurs, so I can't be sexist against that one! lol.

8 days left... wow

We ran out last night and did some baby shopping! We got our monitors, a sleep positioner (I am bound to get this baby to sleep in its own bed), a snuzzler for the carseat, a pump, a mirror for the truck & baby wipes (mom is bringing the diapers)... so I think we're pretty much ready! We didnt get our baby name book but I'm hoping mom can find one and bring it over when they come to visit today. Then we'll be doing all right! Jesse's going to install the carseat in the truck today so we wont have to worry about that. I'm hoping mom managed to get the baby swing from Linda but if not, we'll be okay. It wont be the end of the world. Now I just need to pack the hospital bag.. I'll probably start on that today. I will not be packing last minute like we did with Ariel. I ended up forgetting to bring Jesse clothes! lol. At least we wont be far from the hospital here, so even if I miss something... he can run out and grab it! We've got the diaper bag packed. Now we just play the waiting game (can I mention how much this drives me insane?). I told Jesse if the baby hasn't come by next Friday, I'm asking to be induced that way it can come on a weekend and he wont have to miss work!

The girls are excited. Ariel really is. I think now that we're getting things together and ready, she realizes this will be happening soon. It seems so surreal. Part of me feels like this pregnancy has drug on and on (mainly since I hit 30 weeks) but another part of me can't believe we are in the last days of it! I'm so excited. I can't wait!

She's fine!

My little girl is okay! I had an appointment at the same time as hers so I wasn't with her but Jesse said the doctor was so nice and thorough and he really liked her. If he liked her, she must've been good, he's so picky about the doctors that deal with the girls! When I came out of my appointment (which ran over beause they did a non stress test) and saw they weren't out... I about freaked. I was sure they were doing all kinds of tests or the fact that it taking so long was bad news. I felt so sick waiting! After about a half hour they come out and she's all smiles. Jesse told me it was just lymph nodes from her being sick and I wanted to just cry! We're going to schedule her for a five year check up soon (and Clarity needs to get in for her two year). The doctor said she'll probably refer us to a dermatologist to get her "watch" (birthmark) removed at that appointment. Ariel's kind of afraid of that already, but we'll see what they say about it when we have to cross that bridge. Oh and she got weighed... she weighs 39 1/2 lbs. We got her new carseat in the nick of time!

My doctor's appointment went fine. I think I've capped off at 130 lbs. Hopefully I wont have trouble losing the weight after this baby comes. I told Jesse I'll have to bust out the ab lounge to get ready for Lori's wedding. lol. The midwife told me that the baby turned and isn't posterior anymore which is good news. Amazing how she could do that just by feeling my stomach. She was telling me she could feel features on its face. crazy! Clarity was an absolute angel during my appointment. She just sat in the chair all quiet and held her baby panda snugglekins we got her for Christmas. The nurses and midwife were so surprised at how good she was... and how serious! lol. She is so shy around people and keeps such a serious face. Ariel was a little social butterfly smiling and talking to everyone. It's amazing how alike they are and yet how different!

Well I dont have Alley and Emiley this weekend as planned. Lisa called me last night and they ended up going to their dad's. Lisa sounded horrible sick so that's probably a good thing. She could hardly talk. Plus I didn't get any sleep last night and I just feel worn out this weekend... so being able to rest is always nice! I was looking forward to it, but there will be other times, times when I'm feeling more up to it.

Jesse's at work for a bit today. The granite place is entering some home shows and they asked Jesse what he would put in one. He told them a granite sink would be a good show piece and they asked him if he would come in and start working on it. So that makes up for him missing out on work yesterday. I told Jesse they must really value his opinion on things because they are always going to him for ideas and now he's the only one that templates and they've given him the job of collecting checks...which puts a lot of trust in him, especially after what just happened with the former manager there (long story but lots and lots of embezzlement).

Well I need to get going and start cleaning and get the girls some lunch. I think we're going to the grocery store this afternoon and to pick up some last minute baby items... baby name book for sure! hehe. My main point of jumping on here today was to Thank God for my healthy little girl :o)

Off to the doctor!

Not for me though. I had to call and schedule Ariel an appointment for the pediatrician because last night at walmart I put my hand around her neck to lead her away from the toys, and I felt a lump. Of course my heart is racing with all the bad thoughts that can overcome your mind with something like that. I had Jesse feel it and we decided to get it checked out. It's probably just a swollen lymph node from her being sick this past week... but I'm not taking any chances. I sent her inside the grocery store with him last night after we left walmart and I had a good cry. I knew I couldnt do it in front of her or let her see me worried & scared. It felt good to get that out. So at 3:15 pm today we'll be at sylva Pediatrics hopefully being told that's she's fine and feeling relieved.

I got a call from Lisa this morning and I watch Alley & Emiley this weekend from 6 am- 2 pm both days. So that will help with Jesse having to take off of work early. I really dont want him having to take off some Monday for my appointment.. I may just cancel. lol. okay scratch that. I just called and I have an appointment at the same time as Ariel today. Luckily they're in the same area next to the hospital so I'm going to get to Ariel's early, fill out all of her paperwork and Jesse is going to stay with her while I run over to my doctor (with Clarity.. fun fun.. hehe). So we're knocking out all appointments today and Jesse wont have to miss any work Monday. Phew. Busy day. We'll probably get some of our grocery shopping done while we're out there as well.

Busy, busy, busy!!

Nothing More than Rain!

I can't even begin to tell you how relieved I was when out of nowhere the storm system weakened (the weather channel wasn't expecting that one.. must have been all the prayers!) and we didnt get more than rain and wind yesterday. I feel for all of those who weren't so blessed... the last count I saw on CNN this morning was 55 deaths and I dont know the count of actual tornadoes but it did say over a thousand warnings went off! That was crazy scary.

Yesterday I ended up sleeping all day long. God must've known I needed it because Clarity slept with me on the couch and Ariel bless her little heart just quietly entertained herself by watching cartoons, coloring or playing with her dinosaurs. She honestly is such a blessing and such a great little girl. Clarity is too, don't get me wrong, it's just amazing that Ariel let me get all the sleep I needed. She didn't bother me for anything (of course I did get up and feed her lunch and snacks... I didn't just sleep and let the kid go hungry. lol).

Today though, I dont want to be so lazy. I have great ambition to get all of my laundry caught up and put away and clean the office as well as my usual dishes, cleaning the floors, straightening up and cooking dinner. So I'm about to go grab a shower and get started. Hopefully I wont tire before I get done... lol.. I'll do my best! Hope everyone has a happy day!

A Nervous wreck!

The weather is awful. Not here... not yet. Just in the southeast. They are saying it's one of the worst February tornado outbreaks in history. So far the count is 57 tornadoes in three states and 31 deaths (although unfortunately since it happened at night the numbers will more than likely climb as daylight allows damage surveys and rescues). I've been watching a storm move towards murphy all morning... a tornado warning for Chattanooga Tennesse, then Cleveland, now it's Polk County (the next county over from mom and dad). I can't even tell you how sick I am. Between being tired and overly stressed... I feel like throwing up. I'm actually surprised it hasn't happened yet. I didn't want Jesse to go to work but I couldnt ask him to stay home. I'm worried about my parents & family, the girls and myself, Jesse. I hate that we're all apart. I keep praying to God this monster will weaken and we'll all be fine. More than likely, we will, but you know me and my fear of storms and tornadoes. It's my own personal demon. so tons of prayers going out this morning to those who have gone through this and those that have to deal with it later. Prayers that my family will be kept safe and we wont even see any severe weather. I'll be back on later today... hopefully to say that nothing happened and all is fine!

Better Today

Everyone seems to be on the mend... THANK GOD! Ariel said she's feeling pretty good. Her cough and sore throat are gone and she hasn't had to have any Tylenol so that's great. She also slept through the night (as did Clarity). It was so nice having them both asleep before 11... Jesse and I kicked back in the loveseat and enjoyed some Mythbusters before he was out. Then I went and slept on the couch with the girls. We havent slept in our bed in weeks... I just find the couch more comfortable right now and I guess Jesse hates being by himself so he usually sleeps in the living room with us. Clarity also seems to be doing nearly 100% better from yesterday. She's rowdy and hyper and bugging her sister. lol. She ate cereal and spaghetti o's and drank her juice and hasn't cried with a stomach ache or thrown up. I forgot to ask Jesse how he was feeling when he called on his lunch break. I guess he's fine. He was more concerned with how the girls were doing and to make sure I was okay. He was happy to hear all was good.. I think it makes his day easier to know that.

They've put him in charge of templating so he's going out on his own all the time. I bet he loves that. It probably makes the day go by a lot faster. He's never thrilled when he's stuck in the shop, so I'm happy for him.

We just got over our weekend and I'm already counting down this upcoming one. As long as I'm not watching Emiley and Alley we're going to hit asheville again. We still need to pick up a carseat cover and head cushion for the baby. It's still so weird to me that a huge mall, Target, Kohls, Chuck E Cheese, and pretty much anything else I can imagine is just a half hour drive away. I guess that's what happens when you're stuck with being happy with only having a super walmart for so many years! lol.

Update on today!

Thank goodness it went great! Lisa and her girls (alley and emiley) came over and I have to say I liked all three of them. I think they liked us too... all four girls (hers and mine) had a blast running around, squealing and playing with eachother while Lisa and I talked. It thrilled me that they were all getting along! Then Emiley made my day by drawing me a picture. It's nice to know that these girls wont feel terrified and they liked it here. When Lisa was trying to round them up to go they kept saying they didnt want to and Lisa asked them if they would like to come back later and they excitedly replied "yeah!". She said she'll definately need me. She's just starting her job tomorrow but she wont need me for a few days because the girls' dad will have them. So we shall see. Any money coming in is great and honestly I'm looking forward to those girls coming back because they were so blessed cute and mine had so much fun playing with them! Turns out Emiley rides the bus that drives right by our house.. so if Ariel ever rides the bus.. she'll know someone! That's a relief!

Oh and Clarity finally woke up from her hours on end nap when they showed up and she seems to be feeling a bit better. She had energy to play and she's taken a bath and eaten some banana. Hopefully all the puke is over. I pray so! It makes me so sad to see her choke and struggle.. I hate that so badly!

It's raining.. it's pouring

Literally and figuratively speaking! It has been a dreary, cloudy, rainy day all day long. And this morning didn't start off so hot. I almost had the girls ready for my doctor's appointment (Jesse was giving them breakfast) when Clarity came and started acting all sleepy in my lap. Next thing I know the poor baby is throwing up all over the place. So I had to take her and get her in the shower and all cleaned up. So we get on the road and once we're in Sylva we stop at a gas station to get some donuts. Clarity's all wanting some and she seemed fine, so I gave them to her. Jesse parks in the doctor's office and him and the girls wait in the truck (dont want to contaminate the place with germs). As I'm waiting to see the midwife, my phone starts going off. Poor Clarity had thrown up all over Jesse. I ask my nurse if she had any paper towels I could run out to them and she was sooo sweet and helpful and even gave us some clorox disinfectant wipes. lol. So Clarity got stripped down and had Ariel's sweater put on her and Jesse just wore his jacket (he had to take off his shirt) and PJ pants (thank goodness he was dressed in double layers preparing for it to be cold, when it wasn't that bad today). I went back in and finished my appointment... lol...

As far as my appointment goes all is okay, I guess. I had to leave two urine samples. The first one had blood and white blood cells in it. So they wanted another to send to the lab to see if it's a bladder infection or just my body preparing towards the end of this pregnancy. If they call that means infection and I have to start on antibiotics. yay!

Other than that not much to say. Baby did move down some (don't know if it turned around or not, I forgot to ask with all of the Clarity drama). She said I'm measuring smaller but that's probably because baby has dropped some. I did notice it's a bit easier to breathe but I'm still feeling a lot of action in my ribs so it didnt move too much!

So now I'm home with the girls and Jesse's at work. Clarity ate some chicken noodle soup (just a bit) and went to sleep on the couch so far no more throwing up, I pray it stays that way. Ariel is still kind of sick, but nothing meltaways don't help. Hopefully we'll get done passing germs and viruses before the new baby gets here. This is exactly why I dont even want the girls going to the hospital.. all it takes is a minute to get some germ on your clothes and then I have a sick newborn on my hands. Hate, hate, hate cold and flu season! Jesse and I are getting a carseat cover so we can carry it out of the hospital without exposing it to anything (plus it keeps it warm too).

I'm meeting with Lisa and her girls today around 3. So I'll probably be back to update how that goes. I pray these are great little girls and they get along with mine and I pray Lisa likes me and decides to use me to watch her kids. Any extra money is good right now!

wheeee!

You've got to love winter time. The snow, the cool air, the holidays and my favorite the germs! bleh! Last night as we were leaving Wal-mart Ariel complained of a tickle in her throat. An hour or two after we get home she had a cough and and her throat felt worse. She wakes up crying at around 4 am and I get up and get her some tylenol meltaways. Thank God that did the trick and she was sound asleep within a half hour. I however, didn't get so lucky. I tossed and turned and couldnt get comfortable. Then wake up this morning and I felt okay... not great but I assumed it was from lack of sleep. I cleaned out the fridge and did the dishes then ate some breakfast. Here it is nearly noon and wow has it hit. I feel like a semi truck has plowed into my body. The body aches and headache are awful! I took some tylenol (and I hardly ever take anything so you know it's bad) and Jesse gave me some vitamin C. He says he's feeling "run down" too. Hopefully this is very short lived and we'll all feel better tomorrow. Lisa (the girl that wants me to babysit) called yesterday while we were all fine... and I think we're supposed to meet tomorrow and if she works (and likes me), I'll probably be watching her little girl. So this bug better vacate asap. Knock on wood.. there are no fevers.. so that's something to be happy about! Oh and so far Claire Bear is doing okay... I pray God has mercy on her since she had the tummy bug the other day and we didn't... and she doesnt catch this mess!

A bit of a heavy heart

Today I went on the Hannah and Lily blog... I hardly go on there because of the emotions it evokes for me. Hannah is the reason I started blogging myself and her mom is just amazing. A pillar of strength. How she keeps such a positive outlook on things after losing her five year old is beyond me. In her entry she was saying how she thanks God everynight for the time he let her spend with Han. She's sad she's gone but she knows God has a reason and she knows she was blessed to have had her in her life. Wow.

Then tonight I read about a family whose two year old son woke up with a cold, passed out, was taken to the hospital and died. So between Han who was the same age as Ariel and this little boy.. who was probably around Clarity's age.. I'm just sad for these famililes and giving the girls more hugs and kisses than normal. I can't even imagine losing one of my babies and it's selfish but I pray I never have to face that harsh reality. I don't think I'd have a positive outlook, I don't think I could make it.

Right now Jesse took the girls out with him and left me home (a first!). T hey went to pick up Pizza Hut and some milk. I thought I would relish this time of peace but I miss them. This house is way too quiet.

My Poor Pumpkin!

This morning I was supposed to meet with a girl, her fiance, and their four year old about babysitting for them. So I'm cleaning the house and getting ready and Clarity keeps laying in the middle of the floor. I figured she was just having a hard time getting up and moving.. which isn't unusual for her. I did ask her if she was sick and she looked at me and said "uh huh". I still brushed it off... she wasn't running a fever or anything so I kept doing what I was doing. Well I hear Ariel call me, "mama! Clarity is sick! She just threw up!". So I go into their play room (the only room with carpet of course) and see a huge splatter of throw up. Then there's another one in the kitchen. Clarity's not crying (Thank goodness...I was afraid she'd hit freak mode since this is her first time really throwing up) but she's walking in circles spitting and has a horrible face. The first thing I did before cleaning it was I called that girl and left her a message. She's newly pregnant and I didnt want to expose her or her four year old to a stomach virus. Lord knows no one wants to deal with that. I dont know if I'll hear from her again or not but that doesnt matter. It would have been nice to make some money but my priority right now is my sick baby girl. She's been sleeping on the loveseat most of the day but actually woke up to eat lunch so fingers crossed it stays down! I'm also hoping none of the rest of us get it. I guess that would be one way to bring on labor.. but I really dont want to go that route. lol.

Oh I wanted to post pics of some of the stuff we bought for the baby last weekend.

Here's the Rainforest Playpen with bassinet. It plays music, has a nightlight, a mobile and all that stuff. Plus it's cute!

And here is the carseat. We got a graco

snugride in Jungle adventure. It has these cute lions, hippos, giraffes, and alligators on it.

I'm having trouble finding a pic of the diaper bag we got. It's a big brown Classic Pooh one. It has the older version of Pooh and Piglet on it and it's sooo cute but guy enough that Jesse will carry it around. Plus it has tons of room! I'm sure I'll get around to taking real pics of the stuff we bought as soon as it's all ready. We still havent set anything up yet. Not sure why we're wating.

Well my heart is pounding. Clarity just came in crying about her foot. I look at it and it was bright red and looked like she was having a bad reaction of some sort. So immediately I'm grabbing her up and examining her feet wondering if I should make my call to Jesse to come home or 911. She stopped crying and it went away so I'm wondering if she stood in front of one of our heaters and that made it all red. I swear nothing makes you worry like your babies! She's fine now. Her and Ariel are laying in the living room on the blankets Heather made for them (which are soooo cute and soft! I need to get pics of those too) and they are watching the Backyardigans.

Clarity ate two helpings of chicken and dumplings and drank a whole glass of chocolate milk. I wanted her to take it easy and eat a bit and drink water... but nope... not her. She was hungry! lol. So far so good. I'm saying my prayers!

Thought I should add

A complete tragedy. Prayers and thoughts are with his family, friends and loved ones. We'll miss you Heath!!

More on this past weekend...

Since I had my big pregnancy whine party, I'll talk about the girls and what we did this past weekend. We took them to Chuck E Cheese this past Sunday since we got out of David's Bridal and having dinner a bit late. Of course I forgot my darn camera at home and didn't get any pics, so that figures! The place was a madhouse. Linda, Ricky and Brittany stopped in to see the girls for a bit and they loved that! They also loved seeing Lori and David over the weekend. Ariel said she remembered David and we talked about how he was a police.. that's her big thing now.. she wants to be a police. lol. Lori is being so sweet about letting both of the girls be flower girls in the wedding. I can't wait to see it.. I bet it will be so cute. She picked the most adorable dresses for them to wear. They looked like little Cinderellas when we had them try them on! Beautiful! Ariel's excited for the wedding.. she keeps asking me how many tomorrows away it is. Hopefully both of the girls will be happy and cooperative on May 3rd and the wedding will go off perfectly. I'm sure it will be gorgeous. I'm looking forward to it! Since I didnt have a wedding, I'll live vicariously through Lori. lol.

Tired and Done!

Well this pregnancy WAS flying by... now each minute seems to just tick tick tick. 37 weeks and 2 days. It's getting really difficult now. Nausea is back in full force and I never feel like eating. I asked my doctor about it and she said it's completely normal and sometimes it's just easier to throw up. I dont want to! Been there, done that, and dont want to look back! Also found out the baby is posterior. Wonderful! This means it's back is facing my back instead of the other way around like it's supposed to. She said if it doesnt turn, it probably will during labor but this makes labor long, painful, and difficult. It also means bad back labor.. which I pray I dont have to suffer through because I HATE back pain. yay! Should have known I wouldnt have a breezy labor like I did with the girls. The whole pregnancy has been a pain in my butt! lol. I guess we'll see how things go within the next few weeks.



Jesse and I did get our carseat, playpen/bassinet, diaper bag and a few sleepers while we were in Asheville this past weekend. So we're ready enough! lol. For some reason buying this stuff made it hit me that this is really happening. Jesse of course thought I was crazy but I was nearly having a panic attack thinking about it. There is no turning back. I'm going to be a mama to three. Crazy!



We had a fun weekend. It was nice seeing Lori and David. This is the dress I ended up picking out for my bridesmaid dress. It comes with optional spaghetti straps. I guess I'll decide if I'll wear them or not once I get it altered and see how it looks both ways. I love this dress.. at first I wasn't sure about it, but it really is pretty! I'm glad Lori picked a gorgeous color too. I love it!

So ready... so not!

36 weeks and one day... and the countdown is on. I'm almost to the full term mark of 37 weeks but that doesnt mean much to me. lol. Ariel came at 39 weeks and 3 days and Clarity came at 40 weeks and 1 day so I don't consider myself a candidate for going much earlier than that anymore. Jesse told me that was a silly way of thinking... I think he's paranoid. It's sneaking up on him. lol.

We still havent even gotten a carseat or the bassinet yet... so if I were to go early, we'd be in trouble. I think he wants to go back to Target this weekend while we're in Asheville and pick up the stuff we were looking at last weekend. So not only are we not ready for this baby to come in that aspect, I'd like to get the house totally ready and get our taxes done (OMG that is a chore and a half and I HATE it).

My 36 week appointment was yesterday and went okay. As good as could be expected anyways since they had to do the strep B test. I'll find out next Monday if that came out positive or not.. knowing my luck this pregnancy it probably did. lol. I'm still gaining weight (ugh that can stop anytime now, I'm at 130 lbs) and my blood pressure was good. Baby is head down still but high (big surprise.. I could have told her that being I can barely breathe all the time). No dialation yet but she said my cervix is soft. Maybe we'll have some progress soon. Well even that wouldnt mean much... lol.. I was dialated 3 cm for over 3 weeks with Clarity and she still made her appearance a day late! Stinker!

Ariel's birthday was terrible! Clarity decided to be an escape artist and snuck out the door (I always check the latch as soon as I get up, but that morning, I just forgot). Anyways I realize the door was open and go flying outside to see a red car with some lady asking Clarity where her mama was. I scoop up clarity and the lady starts screaming at me what a horrible mother I was, how dare I let my baby run the streets and that was a good way to get her killed. As if I wasn't beating myself up over it already! I felt if she were about to stone me. It was an accident. A stupid one on my part.. but that's what it was. I spent the entire day and most of the night (I think I stopped at midnight) crying and feeling horrible. We were supposed to take Ariel out to Chuck E cheese that night but since I was so depressed we waited until the next day. We did end up having a lot of fun and I took some super cute pics with the digital... but yesterday I realized Ariel had gotten it down to take "her" pictures and deleted them all! I'll have to take them back this Saturday. Jesse, the girls and I are meeting Lori in Asheville to go to Davids Bridal and try and find me a bridesmaids dress and get the girls fitted for their flower girl dresses. I'm looking forward to it.. just hope I can find something that looks decent on me!