Prayers

I just visited that message board a minute ago & found out some devestating news. One of the girls lost her four month old son to SIDS. This was back in July.. she's been MIA for a while.. but we just got an update from her. So even though it's been a while.. all of us girls that just found out are in shock & praying for her and her family. This is the second baby she's lost.. the first one was a daughter who was a part of a set of triplets. It's any parents biggest fear & worst nightmare to lose a baby or child... and this family is having to go through it.. for the second time. So please if you can.. say a prayer for them. I look at Emmalyn and I can't imagine her being here one day and gone the next with no sign that it was going to happen. My heart breaks for this family. It makes me want to go grab my babies and hug them and never let go.

Sometimes

The smallest things can change your frame of mind. That happened to me this morning. I was on the message board I always go to and I see one of the girls has a blinkie in her signature that says "Count your blessings.. not your problems". That was EXACTLY what I needed to see. To remind myself no matter what Jesse & I face.. we are BLESSED. Financially things suck. No denying that... but if struggling to make ends meet is our biggest problem.. we're doing good. We're all healthy, we have a home to live in, transportation, food in our fridge and our kids are well provided for.. but most of all we have eachother and our babies who even on their most difficult days make life a joy. Sometimes I get so stressed thinking of all the things that aren't right in my life.... that I forget to stop and praise God for all the things that are!

The pieces of my heart

Look what I finally captured!!

How nice!

The weather has been wonderful today. Well it's cloudy and supposed to rain but it hasn't yet.... and it's been nearly 70 degrees! Do you realize what this means? It means my kids who have been cooped up in this house all winter long were FORCED to play outside. I pushed them out the door. No, not really. lol. There was no forcing or pushing.. they gladly flew out the door on their own free will. It's getting them back inside where the forced part comes to play. Well Clarity gladly came in. I guess she was sleepy because she came in, ate a snack, went straight to the couch and crashed out. Ariel is just running in & out as she pleases. I'm actually making more of a dent in the mileage log so that's good news and miss Emmalyn is sleeping in my lap. I watched Emiley today. There was no school today.. AGAIN. I have no idea why but it seems the schools around here have an awful lot of days out. Which will be fine with me when Ariel starts! lol. I think I'm really going to miss that kid when she's gone throughout the day during the week. It will probably be more of an adjustment for me to make than her.

I dont think I have to babysit this weekend which will be great. I have a ton to do. We have to run out to Asheville probably tomorrow to go to David's Bridal & order my shoes for Lori's wedding. I need to find someone to hem the back of my dress. I have to keep chugging away at this hideous mileage log... thank God we wont have to deal with this again. It's been giving me a massive headache everynight I've been working on it. I only have September, October, November and part of December to go. *sigh* Dang IRS and their requirements!

Oh Emmalyn had her first trip out the other night! I finally got brave and let Jesse & the girls come grocery shopping with me late Tuesday night. It went amazingly smooth! Clarity sat in the front of the cart, Ariel walked, and Emmalyn was carried via my winnie the Pooh carrier pouch thing I wear. Clarity hated it! Emmalyn however, is quite content being close to me and being carried around. She snuggled up and stayed asleep the whole time.. and it was a pretty big grocery trip since we let oursleves run out of just about everything because we just couldnt find the energy to get out & get it done! But it wasn't so bad. I told Jesse I was terrified at the thought of having three kids.. I wasnt sure how I was going to do it.. but somehow it just seems natural to us. There really hasn't been much of a transition at all.. it's like we've always had three. weird. Great.. but weird! lol.

Focus on the good!!

Things are a bit stressful right now. The pressure is on to get these taxes done.. I have to do it. So I started doing the mileage book yesterday and was on a roll when I had to stop because the computer started acting up. That was ok.. I needed a break anyways. So the mailman comes & of course Ariel runs out with her bubbly self (she LOVES checking the mail) and brings it in. Something I got shocked the heck out of me as soon as I saw the writing on the envelope. It was psycho connie's (Jesse's psycho ex stepmom.. I call her an ex because in all honesty I consider his dad an ex dad). Anyways it said it was from Stoneage Technologies (the "business" if you can even call it that... Jesse used to be a part of with his ex dad. )Inside was a schedule K-1. A little late, yes?! Aren't all businesses supposed to have tax stuff to their previous employees by Jan 31st? I was furiuous. Not only because it's late but because I dont understand what it's saying. There are numbers like $14,000 & $23,000 on it. They sure as hell better not be saying Jesse made a ton of money. Jesse & I were talking and he's like 'Oh you know they probably screwed with the books and stuff while I was gone. This is their last chance to really get to me. After this we will never see or hear from them again". Which is what we want but we dont want to be screwed in the process. So what I'm going to do is put in all the satellite information (I do taxes myself) and Jesse's w2 from Biltmore and see what we owe or what we are getting back. Then I'll add the k-1.. if it messes up our refund or changes the result to us owing a huge amount to the IRS... we're taking it straight to a tax attorney. For one Jesse was totally out of the business in March and he sure as heck didnt make a huge amount of money during the time he was there. They can look at our bank statements from then and know this.. plus our credit card debt was starting to go up, up, up. We also have the tax stuff from the other places he's worked so that will prove he wasnt with them. Now I dont KNOW that they are trying to be sneaky, weird, or vengeful.. but with our past experiences with these loons.. we're being careful. So now I've really got to move my butt to do these taxes...cause if anything is fishy... those people will burn.. not us and we'll make sure of that.

Now onto the good.. the stuff that makes me happy to type about. Emmalyn is now 5 weeks old today. A day after her one month old mark she started smiling. Not the reflex smile.. I thought it was at first.. but as I kept doing my silly voice at her and laughing and she did a huge, beautiful gummy smile again! Of course I teared up... mostly because of happiness.. there's nothing better than seeing your baby (or any of your children for that matter) smile. But it was also bittersweet...every milestone she hits could possibly be the very last "first" I ever experience with my babies. Jesse & I have discussed another one in the future and we're up in the air about it but we're pretty sure we're done. We say maybe in five years but by then all the girls will be in school and we'll be moving on in life & will more than likely be too busy for another. I guess God & time will tell but for now I'm perfectly happy with my three angels.

What a day

Tired doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling right now. I think I could just crawl into any space and pass out. Emmalyn didn't sleep much last night... she fussed for a while and other times just laid there with her eyes wide open making noises. I think she was bored & didnt understand it was bedtime. lol. I woke up it seemed every hour. At 3.. I just gave up and pretty much got up for the day since the alarm was going to go off at 3:45. I got up and cleaned my kitchen & all the other things I should have done Sunday (Sunday was honestly and truly a day of rest for Jesse, the girls & I as we all lounged around and did pretty much nothing and took naps even though the house was in need of some tidying). We went to Murphy Saturday and the girls were so glad to have seen grandma & pawpaw, grandma & abu, and nanny & grandpa Jerry. Wish we could do it more often. We stopped by Jesse's friend Josh's place since he was on our way home and spent a bit of time with him, his wife Jamie, & their son Rylan. The girls and Rylan had fun playing for a bit and Jamie was glad to have me there... we always have fun telling eachother stories and having real adult interaction since we are both stay at home moms. So that was nice. Jesse called Rylan's name just to say hi to him and the kid looked up and did this little freak out. It was soooo funny. We were all cracking up..Jesse felt bad.. but Rylan didn't really even cry.. just got all startled and was fine after like two seconds. lol. I guess you would have had to have been there to see him to get why it was hysterical!

Anyways Monday morning & I was back at babysitting. Friday Emiley busted glass (not one but TWO of our glasses) in the flowerbed outside. I was livid! She was a total pain in the arse all day that day. Well today was Alley's turn. Long story short... the day is over and I'm so glad Lisa took her kids home!!! I'm going to have to make a list of rules and send them home with Lisa so she can drill them into her kids' heads. They sure as heck dont act like they care what I have to say sometimes. How many times a day do I have to tell them "Dont climb on the furniture.. it's for sitting. It's not a trampoline", "Get off of the counter", "Stay out of the laundry room". etc etc etc. I mean seriously. I know they dont do this at their place because Emiley told me Friday if they did the stuff they do at my house at theirs... Lisa would spank them. So they do it here because they know I wont touch them. UGH!

Oh mom I wanted to thank you soooo much for those binkys! Emmalyn has finally started to take them when she's super fussy or when she "thinks" she's hungry and they are a miracle worker! She goes right to sleep! woohoo! I've got some pics of her (and the other girlies of course) to post up on here but the camera is in the truck so that will have to wait until Jesse's home & I have the energy to do it!

one last thought... the other night I woke up wanting to kill Jesse. I mean I hated him at the moment. I had a nightmare that I found out he'd been cheating on me and OMG was I pissed off. lol. It's amazing how feelings from a dream can wander over into reality and stick with you. I got over it fairly quickly but ugh! This is like the third dream I've had like that lately. I think it's because someone I know is going through it. I know he would never... he knows I'd kill him. lol.

Some silly pics

My girls are too much!

Ariel & Clarity are a couple of goofballs! I just got done playing with them and they had me laughing so hard I was in tears. We were jumping on the bed (yeah I know not the best thing to teach them.. but you know what.. it was fun! I've been far too anal with them lately. lol), tickling, chasing eachother, & playing with Clarity's baby. Clarity would squeeze her baby and make it cry then say "uh oh", open her diaper, and go "ewwww poo poo!" and change the baby's diaper. Then she lifted up her shirt to let her baby eat. Jesse & I were rolling! You can tell our kids were raised in a house that hardly uses bottles! But anyways.. it felt good to put off housework & spend time with my two little girls that haven't gotten a ton of my time lately. I have to be sure to do it more often! I have the rest of my life to stay on top of chores... but they're only little once!

Jesse & I both got surprises in the mail today...yay! He now has all the stuff for his art project (which he's in the storage shed working on now) and I got Ariel's box from Kohl's. They had a great clearance going on about a week ago and I got her five pairs of awesome jeans (they're all so pretty and stylin') and a cute Candies top for under $70! I'm trying to get a jump on school shopping. Her jeans are a bit big (I ordered size 6) but I'm hoping she'll grow into them by the time school starts or at least by the time it cools off in the fall. Now I just have to do some shopping for shirts, get her some new shoes, & her school supplies and we'll be ready! I'm starting to get excited because I know she'll have so much fun (at least I'm praying so)!

Emmalyn has been having those crying episodes once to twice a day. I give her gas drops just in case she's in pain.. but I don't necessarily think that's what's going on because I can bounce her a certain way and she'll stop. I think if she was hurting.. it wouldnt be so easy. I just do my best to comfort her and we deal with it. I think I read somewhere that sometimes newborns do these crying fits as a way to release energy since they can't get up or do anything else to burn it off. I think that may be what's going on. It sure is tiring though. I hate hearing her cry non stop for like an hour! Especially when it's bedtime!

Miss Clarity has turned into curious George all of a sudden. The girl is always into EVERYTHING. Ariel just had to throw away an entire roll of aluminum foil because Clarity thought it would be fun to unroll it all over the kitchen. lol. She got into some lotion last night (not my new stuff.. thank goodness) and I just had to get her away from the germ x not two seconds ago. She just wandered out of the office so who knows where she's going to wreck havoc next. lol. She just better be glad she's so darn cute & has those huge puppy brown eyes that gets her off the hook soooo easily with me. Maybe too easily!

Nancy! Thank you sooo much!

The girls absolutely LOVED getting their box of goodies!! I of course loved my lotion (Bath & Body Works rocks) & the outfits for Emmalyn and stuff you sent for the girls was too precious! So thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

As you can tell in the pics below, the peeps were a huge hit.. Clarity couldn't stop (which is why her mouth is bright pink in just about every picture) and they absolutely adore the Easter cups and plates! I have to keep them washed because they have been wanting to use them everytime! What I really thought was too great... the cards from Mikey and McKenzie!! I saw those and wanted to cry.. and Ariel thought that was so sweet!!

Just wanted to let you know... you really made our day!

My Precious Girls

Three weeks old... already!

God who gave time permission to fly by so fast? Emmalyn is three weeks old today.. in one more week.. she'll be a month old! Crazy! Poor little thing has broken out in bad baby acne :o( She's still a pretty little princess even though her face is all red and it looks like it hurts! There's nothing you can do for it.. it just has to go away on its own, which sucks. I have to take the blame though since they say its horomones the baby gets from the mom during pregnancy that causes it.

Little Clarity is down for a nap. We didnt even wake up THAT early this morning. Lisa didn't have to be at work until 9 so I didnt get up until like 8:20 or so. Of course the girls got up with me. I'm so glad I started this babysitting stuff. Even though sometimes it's a huge headache.. in the long run it's a huge help. Ariel is FINALLY getting along with both Alley & Emiley. In fact her and Emiley are good friends now and Ariel always looks forward to seeing her. Ariel has learned to share & that the universe doesn't revolve around her. It's a relief seeing how she is now versus how she was when I first started watching the girls. And another thing that's different: Ariel is looking forward to going to school!! That is a giant weight taken off of my shoulders. She's gaining independance slowly but surely...and she's seeing she doesn't need me as much as she thought she did. Which is a huge milestone & yet it makes me kind of sad! She's growing up and becoming her own little person. I just pray Jesse & I do well in raising her.. teaching her right from wrong..teaching her to be a good, compassionate person.. all that stuff we want her to be. All we can do is do our best and pray for God's help with that.

I went to the Ghost Hunters website today and saw that they are doing a convention in Clearwater, FL in July. Oh how I wish I could go! lol. Unfortunately I can't even get Jesse to sit down & watch the show with me, let alone take me to Florida to meet them! Even if he did agree.. I dont think I could go just for the fact I'd have to leave my little ones behind. I just dont think I could do that! Guess I'll just have to settle for enjoying the show. Not that I ever want to see something for myself.. like a ghost or whatever.. I'll stick to them showing me on tv. I think I would mess myself & run screaming like a banshee if I caught something firsthand.

Well only one more day of watching the girls! I have to get up super early tomorrow and keep Alley until 2:30. Just one more day! I think the dad is taking the girls for the weekend and Lisa made other arrangements for Monday since Mom & Dad are coming up Sunday and staying the night. Ariel's looking forward to that! I've got to get my house in order. Maybe I can get the spare bedroom done Saturday and they can actually have a room to sleep in. lol. We'll see. Lately I'm lucky to get a shower in and brush my teeth everyday!

Hallelujah! Holy sh**! Where's the Tylenol?

That quote from National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation fits exactly how I'm feeling right now. Today didn't start off too bad... Alley & Emiley came in and went to sleep *gasp* and I managed to get all three of mine that way too. So I was able to sleep until quarter till 8... get Emiley on the bus.. then go back to sleep and sleep again until 9! Amazing! God must've known I was going to need it.

Actually it wasn't even that bad until around 1:30 or so.. about an hour before Lisa was coming to get Alley. I hear Alley in the bathroom just cracking up and talking to somebody. I noticed Clarity wasn't around.. so I go in... and there's Alley sitting on the toilet and Clarity with poop smeared on her chest! OMG! I asked Alley what in the heck she was doing and told her I was going to text her mom about what happened. I sent Lisa a text saying that I was leaving the door unlocked and to come on in because I was having to get the girls in the bath since Alley smeared poop all over Clarity. I did that to give Lisa heads up and let her deal with punishment. Well Alley stands up and there is poop all over my toilet, all in her pants, on my floor... GAH! So I had her take off her pants and stand in the tub while I sanitized the toilet and floor. Then I had her run the water and clean herself... then she had to get out and I had to sanitize & clean the bath then get both of the girls in there and wash them. Ariel was fantastic with keeping an eye on Emmalyn while I was dealing with that mess. Would you believe Lisa came in and didnt say one word to Alley about it? No punishment, no getting on to her, nada. If my kid did that at a babysitter's house.. I'd be beyond mortified. I couldnt be mad at the kid if they messed themselves by accident... but to smear it on another person's kid? Um yeah they'd be in some hot water with me. I should sneak an extra charge in there for having to deal with that and clean that up & I seriously might.

Other than that & my house being an absolute disaster because I just can't keep up with everything between my kids, babysitting, and not getting near enough sleep having to wake up at 4 something every morning (oh Lisa gets no days off until Sunday and Alley's lovely dad isn't taking her this week so I get to do this ALLL week. sarcastic YAY). I'm spread so thin lately. Maybe Lisa will call in one day this week. I doubt it but I can hope! But then we need every extra bit of money we can get... so I'm just going to have to suck it up.

Clarity got stung by a yellow jacket yesterday. Not once but twice. She ran out into the fenced area of our yard yesterday because the older girls did, and she had no shoes on. She comes flying back inside screaming. I thought she had stepped on something. She points to her pant leg & I lift it up and a yellow jacket is crawling around. I knock him out and squish him. Then I looked at her foot & saw where he got her. Then she holds her other foot... sting welt there too. Little bastard! One good thing to come out of it... she's not allergic.

Well Jess is about to be home from work so I'm going to have a chance to straighten up a bit and try to get things done. Let's hope lil Emmy stays asleep! You know once I go to start something.. she's going to pop those eyes open & need something. That's how it always works with a newborn! lol.

Attention all idiots!

If you are a complete moron it should be a law that when you are driving.. you have to have a bumper sticker that states that! Let me explain. Today Jesse, the girls, & I went to Asheville. On our way home were cruising along down the interstate. I was eating a gordita from Taco Bell so I wasn't looking up. All of a sudden I felt the truck skidding, heard the tires, and felt our bed fishtail a bit. It all happened so fast but when I looked up we were about to hit the car in front of us. We didn't... THANK GOD... but we did have to come to a dead stop.. on the freaking interstate! I was so afraid we were about to be slammed from behind. All I could do was think of the girls back there. Thank God again.. the people behind us had plenty of time to slow down. So why did this happen you may ask.. because some stupid, stupid person decided to "be nice" I guess and stop in the middle of the interstate to let someone coming off of an exit on. Hello! You don't do that! I don't know what they were thinking. They are sooo lucky they didn't cause a pile up on I-40. I was shaking so hard and the names I was calling that person.. gracious. lol. I told Jesse they are so lucky we didn't hit someone or get hit because I would have jumped out, grabbed something heavy out of the truck, and beat the crap out of them. No lie. You harm my kids because you have no brains.. you're going to get it.

The reason we went to Asheville was to try to return the playpen (the rainforest one) to Target. The girls (I'm sure it was mainly Ariel and Emiley) kept getting in it and it tore. This was a week ago or so. I was so mad. Luckily Jesse found the receipt in his wallet so we took it back and acted like it was like that when we got it. They gave us no problems returning it so we have a new one. So help me if I ever catch one of the bigger girls in it again. I dont think I will. After we told them they tore it up, we havent even had any attempts from them trying to climb in.

We also ran to walmart for grocery shopping. Both the Target & Walmart trips I sat in the car with the girls and let Jesse do the running around. He took Ariel with him into walmart.. I made her keep germ x on her and told her to use it often. Daddy bought Ariel a nice new pair of earrings and she's in love. They are a pair of blue opal studs. Other than that, not much else went on today. Emmy's had two more of those screaming episodes.. so not fun! I dont remember Ariel or Clarity doing this but they probably did.

Well I should get going. I have to clean up before bed because I have to be up at the butt crack of dawn for Lisa's girls. I so dont feel rested enough! lol.

Slept in!

Who ever would have thought I'd consider 7:30 sleeping in?! lol. It felt good not to have to wake up at 4:30! But today isn't a family day like I had been hoping for. At 9 last night Jesse's cell rings. It's Ray from work asking him to come in and work in the office since he couldnt do it. Jesse & I discussed it and decided he should do it. It would be crazy to turn down money at this point. We got his check last week and we barely have enough to cover rent since he took off for Emmalyn's arrival and then ended up getting a flu bug. Part of me wanted to tell him forget it.. stay home.. but I knew I had to be realistic. He's only working 11-5 so that's not too bad. Right now him and the girls ran to McDonalds for some breakfast burritos.

So I guess today will be spent catching up on laundry & other housework. I REALLY need to start on the taxes.. time is slipping away and it has to be done. So maybe I should put that on the top of the priority list. Just the thought of doing those gives me a headache. Too many numbers, papers, and record keeping! Ick!

Emmalyn had some colic or something last night. The poor baby screamed for over an hour.. that cry that no matter what you do.. it doesnt comfort them. I hate that! I gave her some gas drops and just walked around rocking her. Finally at 11:30 she stopped and fell asleep. I hope we dont have to go through that again anytime soon (or at all for that matter). It makes you feel so helpless!

What I've been waiting for!

Lisa just came and got Alley! Hallelujah! I know that sounds horrible mean... but Lord have mercy... it couldn't come soon enough for me today!

Let me count the ways that child rode my nerves today.
1. She came in and woke everyone in the house up
2. She ate my fudge rounds! I dont mind her getting snacks but holy cow she eats everything! She will tear into my little debbies, yogurts, puddings, whatever. I honestly need to raise my price just to feed the kid. lol.
3. She got our change bowl down (it's filled with change.. I mean lots) and she threw it all over the playroom. I had her clean it up and not two mins. later she did it again. *allow me to rip my hair out*
4. She goes to the "bathroom". A few minutes later she comes out with my brand new lipstick in hand.. it's demolished. I had it up in the cabinet.. snooper!
5. She slapped Ariel in the face twice because Ariel wouldnt play with her. Ariel was good.. just quietly came and told me. Because I didnt see it, I didn't yell at her but I did tell her to be nice and if someone isn't in the mood to play, just give them time.

So you can see why I'm sooooo glad my weekend has begun. Now if I can just get my two "angels" (trust me they havent been the best today either) to lay down and take a nap... I'll be in Heaven! Update: As I was typing this I noticed Clarity was wayyy too quiet..so I jumped up to check on her and she is sound asleep on the couch holding her little bowl of cereal (no milk). Ugh why is my digital in the truck?! Anyways.. one down.. one to go!

I'm so tired!

Forgot!!

I completely forgot to mention the temper tantrum of the century we had go on in this house yesterday! I must make note of it in my blog because it was a first. Who did this? Could it have been my fiery Ariel? Actually.. nah! Even she never threw one this bad. It was my precious, innocent Clarity! Yes, Claire Bear! It all started right after her bath. I ran out to check the mail real quick (Jesse's expecting some things for his project) and she follows me outside butt naked. So I ask her to come back inside with me and hurry up and she starts having this mini meltdown. She throws herself on the sidewalk in front of the front door. So I'm having to drag her up by her arm and kind of fling her inside.. lol.. what a sight..me with this naked kid flailing and screaming in one hand and mail in the other. Once inside all heck broke loose. She was throwing herself all over the floor.. fists banging.. feet kicking. I was in hysterics and wished I had the camera batteries charged up! I had never seen such a fit in my life. I would walk out of the room and she would stand up, follow me and then throw herself down in the room I was in and start up again. It was funny for five mins. after 10-15 I was getting annoyed. Ariel couldnt stop laughing... so Ariel & I were kind of mean and decided to mock her. We were both throwing ourselves down and doing the same thing and then laughing about it. Clarity even joined in on the giggles until we stopped.. then the wailing started again. Jesse soon came home from work and couldnt believe it when I told him about the episode. His little angel.. it couldnt be. *giggle* All we could say was "Just think.. the three's are worse!" oy!

One of those days!

Hmm can we say unhappy?! Gah.. Alley & Emiley arrived here at 5:15 this morning. Of course Alley just had to be completely obnoxious and Emiley wasn't tired either. So before long I had all five kids awake... four running around & screaming. I'm sure Jesse loved having the last hour of sleep he could get totally shot. I went to wake him up at 6 and he was just laying there with his eyes wide open. He didn't really complain though since I had been the one up since 4:30 and I barely get any sleep tending to Emmalyn as it is. Not that she's not a great baby or great sleeper.. she really is.. but it's a mama thing I guess. Even when she's soundly sleeping, I automatically wake up just to check on her. Clarity and Emmy went back to sleep this morning but no one else did. My house = ABSOLUTE CHAOS! It was so clean this morning and now.. I had to escape to my computer to avoid laying into some kids. lol. The put water in the baby bath in the living room which is all over the floor, my kitchen table is covered in markers, play dough, papers, food, etc. Everything is just everywhere! I told them before I came in here that they needed to clean up and Alley says "I wont. I'm going to be leaving soon". I told her please.. she was leaving at 2:30 this afternoon and she had plenty of time to clean. I asked her if she made messes like this at her house and she goes, "no". So I told her to not to do it in mine... I mean the messes I dont mind as long as they help clean it up. But I am not getting paid enough to babysit AND be her maid. I just have to keep reminding myself just a few more hours and then the rest of today and the weekend is MINE! woohoo! I probably should get back out there.. I hear my vaccum cleaner going. Knowing alley she has the hose up to her head and is sucking up her hair. She does that everyday for some reason. lmao.

One More Day

Well technically 1 1/2 or something like that. Point is.. weekend is almost here! YES! I'm sooo looking forward to having Jesse home. I miss him during the week. Lisa and the girls are heading off for the weekend to visit some of her family so it will be a family weekend for us. Woot! I dont mind watching her girls but I'm glad I'll be getting a break and I know the girls are dying to have Jesse all to themselves.


Jesse has a project he'll start working on in a couple of days. He's had the idea in his head for months now and he finally was able to order the stuff he needs to do it. So that stuff should be coming soon and he'll be able to work on it on his off time. I've decided to be completely supportive... I've been known to not be & I'm ashamed of that. He has so many ideas and he's so artistic & creative... that's just him and I decided I should let him tap into that and go with it. Who knows.. it could mean something awesome for us in the future! I'm excited for him & I can't wait until he's finished to see what these talks we've had over the past few months materialize into.


The girls are doing great. Emmalyn is turning into such a chunky monkey! She's two weeks old today and seems she has grown so much already! She's got the chubbiest cheeks, an adorable double chin, and sumo body. lol. It's too cute! Clarity is cracking me up with her vocabulary (as small as it is). Right now she's slapping my leg asking for "jew" aka juice in her whiney voice going "maaaa jew! jew! maaaaa". It's hilarious. If I dont hurry up.. I'll hear her trademark "butt" remark. Silly girl! Ariel's actually looking forward to school. Her & Emiley have put aside all of their differences and are now good friends. How this came about.. I have no idea but I'm so glad it happened. They play together so well now. Ariel has really needed this outside interaction with other kids to learn how to deal when things dont go her way. I think it will help her come time for kindergarten. I can't believe that day is sneaking up on me. In five months or so my baby will be going to school. wow.

My New Love!

Okay this is really rediculous but I have a tv show I just can't miss. I've always liked it but just recently I've really, really gotten into it. It's my favorite! Of course Jesse's not a fan *boo on him* so I have to record it & watch it when he's not around.

I dont know what it is about it but I'm very intrigued. I get so excited everytime they capture something that can't be explained. It used to scare me but now... it's like even though it makes the hair stand up on the back of my neck at times... I find it very fascinating. They had a marathon of it yesterday and I recorded every episode. So yay!