He has his reasons

Sometimes I wish I knew what they were. I know God has a plan. I know things happen for a reason... but the human side of me just wants to scream, "What is it?!" at times. I'll get into this in a minute.

My parents came over for a couple of days. I'm glad. I miss seeing them. I know the girls do too (Clarity cried & cried for her Abu after they left). After they left I felt in a funk. I guess because of my dad having to be referred to a neurologist and worrying about that, plus the other stuff going on & just wishing my parents could stay... I was just down & out. Jesse gets home and he's looking down & out as well. I ask him if he had a bad day and he takes a deep breath & blows it out. Then tells me he wont be going back. huh?! Appearently they felt the need to fire EVERYBODY. It wasn't just Jesse. That was the icing on the cake for me. I burst into tears and cried & cried & cried. Pat (the shop partner) told Jesse he didnt want it to end this way but he has a partner and the partner wanted to clean house and start all over. I think something is up big time. I'm not sure what. They did pay Jesse for all that he worked so that will help but I hate being in the "what does the future hold?" boat. I hardly slept at all last night.. just kept praying. I know God has something in store. I know he'll take care of us. It's just the waiting and being patient part I dont like. So anyways Jesse is looking for something else. Bummer. He'll find something and he'll find it soon. He always does. But this so SUCKS that they did this to him. I got a call on my phone today (it's still not working but I can check my messages using Jesse's cell). It was the lady that Jesse installed the countertops for, did plumbing work for, did tile work for (they didnt finish yesterday). It was the lady that adored the kids and was just wonderful to us when we went for Jesse to do the plumbing last Sunday. She was wondering if I knew where Jesse was because no one had shown up to finish her tile work. So I call her from Jesse's phone and tell her what happened. She was HOT ! She was like "You have got to be kidding me! I have told them over and over how wonderful Jesse is. How they are lucky to have such a polite guy working for them and how he does everything he can to please you". She told me that when she sees Pat she's really going to lay into him over that. She just couldnt understand. Anyways no one showed up to do her tile work. I told her to go about her day and do whatever she had to do... not to wait for them. She said she had been waiting all morning and she had things to do. She said she tried calling their showroom & it's closed. Fishy fishy fishy. Something is so not right. Maybe the fact that Jesse's out of there is a GOOD thing. The lady told me she will be keeping us in her prayers and she will definately be staying in touch with me... she wants us to bring the girls back. They loved it at her house and didnt want to leave! lol. They are grandparents and all of their children and grandchildren live far away so it was a blessing to her to play "nana". I just wish I could see Pat's face when she gets on to him about how they did things with Jesse! lol.

I am applying for a home health care place in the morning. They said CNA is not required and they are hiring for all shifts and you can choose your hours. So prayers being sent up that I get an interview and get hired! Well I just wanted to post a little update.

Mom.. dont worry about us. We'll be fine. I know it's a mom thing to worry but don't! :o) I'm actually feeling optimistic today and not totally worried and stressed like last night. God has his reasons.