Nerves!

So today I got for a job interview at the Hampton Inn in Biltmore Square in Asheville. I am so blessed nervous.. it's been 2004 since I've last had an interview and that was a casual Pizza Hut interview where Darryl didn't honestly care what I had to say... I guess I had the look of a waitress... he started me the next day. lmao. If only I could get that lucky tonight. But I have a feeling they have a lot of interviews lined up so I'm going to have to stand out somehow. I havent wanted something this bad in a while. I did make a boo boo and told them I wanted the 3 pm - 11 pm shift. I've since changed my mind. I'll take the 7 am- 3 pm one. I thought about it and with 3-11 I'd be going to work before Ariel got home from school and coming home way after bedtime. That's not gonna fly. I gotta see my babies! So I'm thinking I'll see if Patrick wants to stay here and keep Clarity during the day.. she loves him.. and I think he can handle her. And I'll pay someone to keep Emmalyn. That's a nerve wracking thing right there. I'm trying to find someone close to the hotel... just in case. Maybe things will fall into place. I pray so. I HAVE to help start bringing in an income. My time at home is long past over. So we'll see. I went to walmart and bought a dress and a cute pair of shoes for the interview. Did I mention how nervous I am?!

I guess we shall see what God has in store for us. Jesse is out of town.. spending the night in Spartanburg. I was fine with this yesterday. Thought "whatever"... but for some reason as me & the girls were out shopping for my interview outfit.. it hit me and I wanted to bawl. I miss him. More than I thought. I dont know how military wives do it. I'd be a downright mess.

My parents bless their hearts are driving all the way back over.. even though they just left yesterday.. so I can go to this interview. Makes me want it even more. I will be totally bummed if I dont get it and they wasted time & gas & energy. I'll be totally bummed anyways.. but that would add to it!