I hate this feeling

My nerves are on edge. If you go back into my blog.. say to last January or February.. you'll see where I was nervous about Ariel having lymph nodes in her neck. Of course we went to the doctor twice and I was told... don't even give it a second thought. She's fine. Well it's been almost a year and they never went away. All of a sudden.. without her being sick... they have gotten bigger. So we go Wednesday and I'm going to push for them to do blood work. I don't dare google all the possible things that could be wrong... I'm a nervous wreck as it is. Of course I've already got the "what if it's lymphoma? What if she has cancer?" running amuk in my brain. I want to cry. I'm trying my hardest to prepare myself for the worst... but I'm praying to God (more like begging) for it to be nothing. But I want proof. I don't want to take a doctor's word for it. They are going to have to do blood tests or something.

Ariel is a smart girl. She knows something is going on. She knows we're going to the doctor about her lymph nodes. She knows they have gotten bigger. I am trying to hide how scared I am deep down but I have a feeling she senses that I'm worried.

So please, please, please... lift her up in prayer. And Wednesday *tick..tick...tick... time drags by when you're a worried mama* hopefully I can come on here and have a praise report that she's okay.