It's been a while

I am having to FORCE myself to make a blog entry. So unlike me. My blog is usually so fun for me. I love having these memories recorded to read back over, but for the past week.. I've just not been myself. I think I may have a bit of depression kicking in & I think I'm figuring out why. Ariel starts school in about a month. I am going to miss her like crazy. Just thinking about my day without her.. tears start filling my eyes. I'm not ready. I know, Im probably being a huge baby but I can't help it. She is my big helper. She is there to make silly jokes, sing silly songs, & make me smile. She is also there to drive me crazy and smart mouth.. which I admit... I might miss! It's just going to be a huge adjustment & I have anxiety about that. I also dont know how Clarity is going to deal. Clarity & Ariel, though they have their moments when they drive eachother totally crazy, are honestly the best of friends. Clarity is going to be lost and I'm not sure how I'm going to entertain her as well as Ariel does. ugh I'm hoping this is like what I usually do. I think worst case scenario and then when it happens.. I'm like "what was I so worried about?". I pray it's like that.

Here's a quickie recap of importance since I blogged last:
*Jesse got a new job that pays well and he loves. That's wonderful! Nice to see your husband come home happy :o)
* I got a new cell phone (well it was used. A palm treo) off ebay. I LOVED the thing. Yes, I said "loved". It lasted two days. Nice. So now I have another phone coming. One that isnt so much like a computer & wont have program issues. I asked my friend April why the cell phone god is peeing on me. She said she doesnt know but she hopes they stop soon. Me too, girl, me too!
* the girls are wonderful. Precious as always. I dont know if I have ever mentioned in this blog.. HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. lol. They are my heart. So is my husband even though yesterday I could have kicked his butt to the moon! It was just one of those days... we were both in grouch mode. He irritated the crap out of me and I did the same to him. Funny how you can have days like that.. then today is completely opposite where I miss him and can't wait for him to come home. lol.
*I visited a friend's blog and became sad with her today. She's not having anymore children and she visited a site that told her this time last year she was 5 weeks pregnant. Well this time last year I was 11 weeks. I'm not having anymore kids either. To be honest it's not the pregnancy I miss.. I hated that... but I am sad that Emmalyn (shoot.. all 3 of them) are growing at rates of speed that can't be human. Why can't they just stay little for a little longer?

Okay I'm going to clean the office now. That should kick my depression in the butt. Either that or it's going to overwhelm me and make me more depressed. lol. Well here I go.