I have come to realize

I love my girls... all the same.. with all of my heart. But I have come to find that a part of me is a bit more protective over Clarity. Maybe because she's not the oldest or the youngest... she's the middle baby. Maybe I'm worried about her being lost in the shuffle. I'm not sure but I battled these feelings yesterday. I got all bent out of shape over something that was said about her which probably wasn't said with bad intentions. I stormed around and huffed and puffed all day. Then in typical Frances fashion, I got over it and realized I was probably blowing things way out of proportion. I tend to do that more than I care to admit. I'm just glad I'm one of those people that just goes and cools off before I blow up over nothing. If I can be alone when I'm that upset, I'm good. Jesse has learned when I'm in a "mood" to just leave me alone or he'll be in for a battle. lol. I was all over his case about the bills the other night... it turns out that too much caffeine makes me 'crazy like a bitch' as Jesse says. He tells me this the next day when I couldnt place my finger on why I felt so irritable and had such a headache the night before. I had found a cup of espresso and drank it. I thought he had made it for me, turns out it was his and it had enough espresso to knock a bull out (that's how he drinks it). I'm just glad it didnt make me sick like it usually does. I normally would have puked... instead it just made me grumpy and mean. I guess I'm a mean 'caffeine drunk'. lol. who knew? He said he just let me have my rampage and kept his mouth shut. See.. he's learning!

Once again I have found myself falling off of my blogger train. I can't remember what has gone on since the last time I've posted. Jesse is back from his training (actually he has been since last Wednesday). He's still in training but doing on the job training and learning the ropes of DirecTv with another guy. So far so good. He likes it. This job couldn't have come at a better time. I just keep praying that it's permanent and good to him. He deserves something good! He's trying to find out if he can get Wednesday and Thursday off so he can come with the kids and I to Atlanta. I'm soooo excited! 3 more days and I will be walking into the Gwinnett Arena with Ariel to see the New Kids. I'm so thrilled to share this with her! And then we'll be staying at the Wyndham. I've never stayed in a fancy schmantsy hotel so I'm excited for that too. lol. Normally I would never spend money on a hotel... but with it being in Atlanta, I didn't want to risk going ghetto with my babies.

Everything else is going well. We're all doing good. I'm still job hunting. Mom found a nice job and works 8:30-4:30 Monday through Friday. I think she's happy. I hope so! She deserves to be. I'm glad she's not doing the third shift garbage anymore. And she has weekends off for herself. Woohoo!