EXHAUSTED

That word doesn't even touch how I feel. I feel more like zombi-ish. Is that a word? Well if not, it is now. Clarity has spent several nights of this week waking up crying... about every few minutes. At least once an hour. I would ask her, "Are you sick? Are you hurting? Do you have to go to the bathroom? Are you scared? Did you have a bad dream?" and I'd always get a head shake no. I was beginning to get so mad. I was wondering if these were night terrors and I'd just have to never sleep again until she had outgrown them. I was beyond frustrated not knowing what was wrong with her. She had a cold so I thought maybe the congestion had something to do with it. I hate to admit I was so mad. Mad that she wouldn't tell me what was wrong. Mad that I was losing so much sleep. Mad that I didn't know how to help her. My mood was really beginning to suck and this was draining me. I was starting to feel sluggish and sick.

Yesterday Claire Bear wouldn't smile at all. HIGHLY UNLIKE HER. So I took her to urgent care because she did start complaining about her ear and throat. Great. It turns out she has a horrible ear infection in her right ear and her left ear had been infected but was drained. This would explain all the sleepless nights. I just wish she had told me earlier so she (and myself) didn't have to lose so much sleep! She's on a stronger antibiotic this time and it's only once a day versus the 3 x's a day (YAY) so hopefully she'll be on the mend very soon. She did wake up crying a lot last night but nothing like before, so I think even one dose has helped. Tonight should be much, much better. I'm so looking forward to the sleep. And I'm so looking forward to the poor kid feeling better!