It's amazing

How much an upbeat attitude makes life seem. Even when things are tough... to go with the flow... is so much better than sulking and asking "why me?". I've been making an effort daily to be happy. reguardless. and it's working. I AM happy.

I can't thank God enough for the blessings he has put upon us. We have had our hard times but I believe we'll continue to grow from it and come out stronger in the end. It took us going through all these for me to decide that I'm worth going back to college so I can get a decent job to help provide for these girls. I am still so excited about this decision.. I just hope God lets everything fall into place and I do get to go. I just have to pray about it and let things unfold.

What is really cool is when you look back at something that at the time seems like a major tragedy and you now know that it was for the best. Jesse losing all of those jobs this past summer... It was unbelievable and I kept thinking "WHY?!". I mean he lost his job at the granite place.. then when he was doing remodels on homes.. then the car salesman....

but look... building and remodels have slowed down dramatically... the VERY day they told him they were letting him go from the car dealership (even though they had just hired him the week before)... the company he is with called. You can't say God didn't have a hand in what was going on. Not long after he joined this company... the auto industry went way downhill. So all of those layoffs in the end were the biggest BLESSINGS. Who would have thought? He is now doing something healthier (the granite thing is so unhealthy for a person's lungs)... he has steady work... and it pays as well as all the other things he was doing. He is happy where he is. It's where God finally put him. All I can do is keep praying that it is God's will that he is there and that things continue to go well and he has job security.

My whole point is... when something is going on and it seems like your world is collapsing.. GOD will take care of you. How people don't believe is beyond me. I would be a mess without my faith. And coming through all we've been through last year... and realizing how God has carried us through even when it didn't seem like it at the time... just makes my faith even stronger.