The new pics!

Holy Smokes

It seems as if it's been ages since I've been able to update this! Things have just been crazy busy. My parents & brother are finally with us. Mom is still going to Murphy (she stays with my aunt) to work until she finds a job here. I dont think she'll have any trouble. She has an interview today so I pray that goes well and they put her with a client in Waynesville so she can work close by. That would be great!

Jesse has officially started his traning with Mastec (another satellite company) but this time he doesnt have to buy the supplies, he gets paid by the hour, we'll be able to get insurance (for now we're just going with the dental. we both have work that needs to be done and really that's all we can afford to have taken out of his check at the moment. Hopefully we'll get caught up soon and can do the health insurance). They also give him a gas card and a cell phone and he'll be driving the company van and bringing it home. He's excited.. it sounds like it's a nice job. Now lets all jsut pray that it works out and he doesnt get laid off anymore! He's in South Carolina for his training. I miss him!! He'll be coming home this weekend. Then he'll go back Monday-Friday and come home that weekend.. then go back for one more week. At least it's paid training. Always a plus! (I just realized I didnt make a post about him getting laid off from the car sales job. Yeah a dealership they had in Florida closed so the experienced salesman from there were coming up here and the two new guys got bumped out. THANK GOD that very day Mastec called Jesse asking him if he needed a job and if he'd come in for an interview. He had applied for this job months ago. Crazy how things work out!)

I'm still looking for work. I'm going to apply with Pizza Hut today. Hopefully soon I'll have a job. That would be nice!

The girls are doing wonderful. Clarity... my claire bear... is a royal pain in the arse. But she has a way of looking at you with this big puppy eyes and a little pout... and for a moment you feel bad for getting on to her... until she DOES IT AGAIN two seconds later. lol.

Ariel still loves school and seems to be learning a lot. she cops an attitude at times and that drives me nuts... but I have 13 more years of that to look forward to and it's just going to get worse, so I better get used to it!

I took some pics of the kids the other day at the playground (we took them to play at Ariel's school). So look for that in the next post!

My Littlest One

is getting so big! It's rediculous how fast time is going by and all the new stuff she is learning. She'll be 7 months old tomorrow and she's already pretty much got the crawling thing down, she can go from crawling to sitting on her own without any help from me, and last night she was trying to pull herself into a stand while trying to climb up on Jesse while he was laying in the floor. It just doesn't seem fair! Where is my tiny baby we were bringing home from the hospital just 7 short months ago?!

I really need to take pics and video. These past few weeks have been flying by and so much has happened, I've totally slacked on that. I need to get my rear in gear!

Ariel is doing great in school. She loves it and seems to be learning so much! I love it when she comes home with cute pictures and paintings for me. And to think I was afraid to send her... when it's been so good for her! We're looking into moving and this will mean transferring her to a new school. I HATE that but we have to do what is best for the whole family. The girls online tell me that Ariel will adjust just fine. I pray they are right! We should hear back about a house we looked at on Monday. We hope to be moved around the 1st so the sooner we hear something the better that way we can plan to meet her new teacher, see the school, and slowly ease her into it. I just dont want to throw her into a totally new environment and not prepare her at all.

Clarity has hit the horrendous 3's. LOL. No she's a great kid and I love her to pieces but she has become really trying lately. And she is a walking tornado leaving wreckage in her wake! I can't stay on top of the housework with her! I went through the same thing with Ariel so I know it's just the age and it will get better. Seems like overnight she went from my cuddly quiet Clairebear to a non stop jabbering mess maker! hehe. Gotta love it!

One of the FUNNIEST movies

I have ever seen! I now Pronounce you Chuck & Larry! I have just gotten around to watching this one and it's hilarious. I've always loved Adam Sandler & Kevin James...and getting both of them in the same movie was hitting a jackpot. I giggled so much during it. I'm probably going to watch it again with Jesse since he didn't watch it with me last night. He's not a homophobe but he is weird about seeing anything "gay".. kind of like he has this attitude if it's their thing, great, but I don't want a part of that. but I think even he would enjoy this one!

So much has happened

Actually it's insane the amount of mess that has happened since I posted last.

Yesterday I got a call from Brittany that mom & dad's trailer burned to the ground. Thank God mom, dad & Patrick were all able to make it out okay. They think all of the animals made it out even though there are cats that aren't accounted for. It's kind of surreal. They lost everything. I'm just glad they all got out alive, that's all that matters. Material things can be replaced, they can't. From what I heard the trailer burned really quickly.. as they do. I'm not sure what's going to happen over the next few days, but I guess I'll know more as mom finds out and lets me know.

I actually got a job.. and it lasted all of like.. I dunno.. 5 days! lol. I know that's not really funny and I should be embarrassed but I can honestly say it is totally not my fault and the person that hired me was a nutjob. I go to work one night and she has me training for a med tech and supervisor in charge position. It sounds all great right? Well no. Not really. You didn't get a raise for doing it, it just meant a ton more paperwork, giving out meds, and on your days off being "on call" in case a PCA called in. No thanks! So I left the supervisor a note (couldnt talk to her in person as I was working third shift and she was on first). I explained that between working nights and having to watch the girls during the day too while Jesse worked, I wanted no part of having responsibility like giving meds and doing important paperwork until I found a way to get more sleep. The next day, I was planning to call in anyways after one of the residents had a psycho moment that scared the you know what out of me... So I go to call in and the girl says "Oh Denise wanted to let you know she doesn't need you anymore". Good thing I called in.. they were going to let me drive 35 miles to tell me when I got there. Idgits! So there went that. Let me tell you though a CNA should get paid way more than they do for all the stuff they have to deal with! I have a new respect for them.. totally.It takes a special person to do what they do. I'm glad I had the experience... I dont think I'm one of those special people. lol.

Jesse's found a new job. He's a car salesman. Yes, he has taken on a job where people think he's sleazy and just a money grubber. But it's the only job that called him back after all the applications he put out. I pray he's good at this, there's good money to be made. He's still in training, not out on the lot yet, but with prayers once he is, he'll do fine at it. He doesnt want to be one of those salesman that no one trusts or thinks he's out to rip them a new one, he just wants to be honest and sell as many cars as he can to help us make a living.

Other than that, we're just hanging in there. Playing powerball faithfully. lol. Maybe one of these days! As for now, I'm looking for another job... and taking care of these three beautiful girlies! And staring around my home that looks like an F-5 tornado tore it up... and trying my best to find the motivation to get up and clean it!

Roll with the Punches

That's what we have to do but sometimes I feel we are fighting with one really big bully! I'm hoping someday Jesse & I can look back and be proud of ourselves for getting through everything that gets thrown our way and surviving in one piece. Jeff finally called Jesse back last night. Money has run out (thanks to a brother that squandered it) and Jeff can't afford any of the help... he doesnt have money for himself... so basically it's, "start looking for something else". Again. Didn't this just happen to us? I swear it did. I keep telling myself things will be okay. We'll get through it. God will pull us through... but there is this human side of my faith. The side that says oh my God we are never going to be okay. We just keep sinking deeper & deepeer into debt. We're at the point where there is no where else to sink to cause we're about out. Then what? I'm praying for a miracle. Wondering what God is wanting us to do. Why this is happening. They say God never closes a door without opening another... but I really wish they would stop slamming shut in our faces. I have to keep faith.. I KNOW God is there. I KNOW he will take care of us & he has a plan for us.There is just that tiny human doubt that tells me to stop kidding myself but I have to get rid of that or it can only get worse. If God is testing my faith he's really doing a good job...
I'm praying for a miracle. I'm going to go play powerball. lol.

And she's off

This morning was a complete 180 from what the past few days have been. Ariel was more than ready to go to school. That was a relief. She woke up, took her shower, ate her breakfast, played her dog's life game, then off to school we went. She looked so darn cute & big with her bookbag. I didnt get many pics.. there werent any other camera happy parents in there so I didnt want to embarrass her... but you can bet I'll get lots when she gets home! Here are the ones I got:

So proud and ready to go! This was right before we left the driveway.

And here is little miss in her classroom. Gosh she's cute! lol.

No tears were shed.. no freak outs... nothing. She was content as can be giving me & her sisters a hug & kiss & then going back to her thing. What a relief!

Clarity, however, did have a bit of a time once we left and got back in the van. "mama Air Air is not in her seat". I explained that Ariel was staying at school & we would see her this afternoon. With that tears came to Clarity's eyes, her arms crossed, and she looks down and says, "I miss my Air Air". I had to distract her or I was going to cry! She hasn't been easy since we've been home. She's bored. And whiney! Hopefully she'll get used to this adjustment soon or I may just go bald from pulling my hair out! I think she needs a nap.

Anyhow all went great getting Ariel to school. I can't wait to go pick her up & hear all about her day!

It's Flying By

naturally the last day with my pumpkin home all day... is going by in a flash. Soon it will be her bedtime. I swear I'm not going to get any sleep tonight. She's nervous, I'm nervous for her. I just keep hoping once we get there her nervousness will turn to excitment & she'll be a-okay having me leave. If she tears up, I'll have to be strong.. I can't show her that I'm nervous or that I just want to keep her home after all.. but I'm sure if it happens, I'll be having a major meltdown as soon as I make it to the van. I just keep telling her she's going to have so much fun that she won't have time to miss me. She'll be making new friends, making me things, & she'll have a ton to talk about when she gets home. And that I can't wait to hear all about it. Tomorrow Ariel will be my little kindergartener. I still can't believe it when I say it.

The girls & I ran to Burger King, had a quick lunch, then took off to walmart to grab a few things. I got miss Emmalyn a pink, princess walker. Now I know the pediatricians say it's best not to use them.. but right now, they can bite it. lol. We don't have stairs & she will always be supervised. I just have to have something to put this baby in where she can follow me around & play at the same time. She hates for me to be out of sight. Kind of hard when I have an entire house to clean kiddo. Maybe now, I can get things done without her hollering about being neglected. lol. The poor, pitiful baby. She cracks me up though... she's too darn cute. she's got this thing with sticking her tongue out.. all the time. And we definately have a mobile one on our hands... you can lay her in the floor and she is on the other side of the room in no time with her rolls & scoots. She's still not sitting up by herself.. she can but she slumps over rather quickly. It's okay.. I'm so not rushing anything. She's going to be in Ariel's shoes and starting her first day of Kindy before I know it!

oh lol I am going on a cruise to Nassau! Yeah I'm so sure! My phone rang and it was some automated man saying if I just answered a 10 question survery, I would recieve two all inclusive cruise boarding passes. Eh, why not? I'm sure there is some catch or some scam... but it only took three minutes so I did it. A cruise director or something is supposed to call me in 72 hours... I would so laugh if this were legit. A girl can dream!

Rain, Rain, Much Needed Rain!

I guess these are the remains of Fay coming down... and I am sooo glad! We have been so dry... and needed this badly for a while! Just as I'm sitting here typing up praises of this rain.. I check the weather bug. My stomach is in knots when I see the county Jesse is working in is under a tornado warning. It says very strong rotation has been associated with the storm and to take shelter now. I think I nearly threw up. I ran to the phone & called and he says it's okay looking where he's at but he heard the sirens going off & that they are about to hit the road to come home. Lord please just let him make it home safe, please! I couldnt believe they were out driving while tornado sirens were sounding. ugh. I could kill him! I'll wait until he gets through this door safe & sound though! As much as that man can drive me crazy, I'd be absolutely lost without him.

We took the girls out for a bit of fun during Jesse's three day weekend (he had Monday off cause his boss was in Virginia). We took them putt putt golfing in Maggie Valley on Sunday and then to the rec. center swimming yesterday. Both were quite an adventure. Emmalyn was good as gold during the golfing... just hung out in her carrier & watched us play. Thank God cause miss Clarity Grace was a MONSTER! She would run all over the green as one of us was trying to play, or go grab the golf ball after we had putted, or jump around and run ahead to the other holes... gah. We tried letting her play but she would rather roll the ball like a bowling ball towards the hole than to use a putter... so we let her play... her way. We got through it.. but it was a bit of a challenge. A funny one though!

The swimming looked fun. I sat in a chair holding Emmalyn while Jesse & the girls swam. They pretty much stayed in the big kiddie area (I think the deepest it got was 2 feet). Before we went I ran into Kmart and found a pair of floaties for Ariel, a swimming vest for Clarity, and the cutest inflatable boat for Emma Girl (even though she didnt use it.. it was on clearance and I figured we may use it later!). The girls had a blast. It was too funny though...Jesse was on one side of the pool letting Ariel and Clarity play. Well Clarity was in like one foot of water but since she had her vest on she was floating and I guess didn't realize she could just stand up. She spies Jesse on the other side and panic hits. she's trying to doggie paddle to him and ends up doing these rolls in the pool. Poor baby, I could tell she was freaking out and thinking she was going to drown. So Jesse rushes over to "save" her and helps her realize all she had to do was put her feet down and she could stand up. LOL. I was rolling. Next summer we definitely need to look into getting swimming lessons for the girls. I pray we're in a better place financially by then & we can do that. We can only pray!

Jesse's on the hunt for another job. This one treats him good and all but there's just a couple of issues we both have. 1. With him being out of town and having to leave so early on the mornings he is home, It's going to be hard if I go to work (and we are at that point where I HAVE to) working out care for the girls. 2. His boss Jeff is planning on moving an hour further away soon so Jesse wouldnt be able to catch a ride and an hour and a half trip to work one way... is so not going to happen. 3. Jesse hates this out of town stuff. He misses the girls & the girls miss him. Shoot.. I miss him. He's going to stay with this until he finds something else. But please say prayers that we both find something great that works for us soon. We need all the thoughts & prayers & good vibes we can get!

Miss Ariel starts school on Thursday. one more day left with my baby home... *sniff*. The anxiety for her is starting to set in. She'll break down into tears out of nowhere and say that she's really going to miss me when she goes. This is different for her & she's scared. I pray it all goes well for her. I also pray she doesnt cry when I take her in. If she does, I'm going to have a heck of a time keeping myself together!

Now that

I posted my little reflective post, it's time for me to post something upbeat & funny. I'm not sure how that's going to play out yet, though. Surely I have something zany or witty to say. Or then.. maybe not!

ooh I got it! However even though I sit here & giggle about it... you may not. It may just be one of those "you had to be there" things. I'm not sure. Anyhow.. on with the story...

Last night Jesse did his usual goodnight call (sucks to only get to talk to him for a few minutes once a day!). well he talked to me, then Ariel, then Clarity. Well as Clarity was saying her I love you, sweet dreams stuff... she stops & before she says goodbye tells her daddy he needs to talk to Emmalyn. So I get the phone and ask him if he wants me to put it up to her ear and of course he would never say no to that. So I do & I hear him start talking to her. Her head jerks over and looks at me with these huge eyes and her mouth wide open. Her face was priceless... like "what is going on?!". It isn't two seconds before she realizes, "hey that's my daddy". she had been quiet as a mouse the whole time me & the girls were on the phone... in fact she was drifting off to sleep. Not anymore! She started smiling and making all these noises.. kicking her feet.. squealing. I couldnt stop laughing! It took me a good while to settle her back down after we hung up.

Jesse is coming home this afternoon. He told me it may be early too.. so woohoo!! The girls & I have missed him lots this week. We'll be so glad when he comes through that door!

So I was on myspace

and I went & checked in on Steven Curtis Chapman's page. Somehow doing this made me go to his website and I can't believe it's been 3 months since his daughter, Maria, was killed. Even more of a reminder about how fast life passes by. I would have thought it has only been a couple of weeks. I'm sure it feels like an eternity for them, though. I'll be keeping them in my prayers, for sure.

It's hard not to get wrapped up in everyday life... housework, cooking, errands... but this is a reminder to me that everyday is a gift. I thank God for my babies and for all the time he's blessed me with them. I pray I have many, many more years & years with them but I'm going to do my best to love them and hug them and kiss them as if I won't.

Isn't it beautiful? Thank you Kristy!!

I could not ask for more

She cracks me up!

Nancy.. some of her blog entries are just gold. She had one up about commercials and what is hilarious (to me anyways) is the exact commercial that she wrote about (an eharmony one where the husband and wife look related)... I've had the same thoughts as I was watching it! Then I read her comments and Misty hit on another one of the other commericals that just gets on my nerves.. the lovely time in a bottle allergy medication one. Now what bothers me about that one is the girl says "They should put that in the ingredients... 2 hours you didnt have before". That just really gets on my nerves because an ingredient is something that makes up the medication. You having more time is not a part of it. That's more along the lines of the purpose section not the ingredients. But that's just my thinking. lol. So yeah I got a good laugh last night reading the musings of these girls. Cause they are so right on! And though I have never seen the fruit arrangement commercial nancy talked about... I sure had a giggle!

Isnt it Ironic?

How when you pay a company they can take that money right out of your bank account... but when you cancel... it takes forever to get that money back. I had to cancel the whole charter internet/phone deal. Another tech showed up unexpectedly today and he said he couldn't do it because he couldn't ground the cables. Whatever. I'm so over this. lol. So I just called and I will be getting a full refund, however they issue a check and it takes three weeks. Why can't they just put the money they took out right back in? Oh well. Charter sucks. Now I know. I did place an order for AT&T to come out and do the phone and internet thing. We will see how that goes. I'm not paying a penny in advance. Lesson learned.

Ariel's teacher & her assistant came over for the home visit today. They are both so sweet and I think this home visit thing is an awesome idea. Ariel is looking forward to going to school and is more at ease. I got my questions answered and I'm feeling better myself. She starts school August 28th.

Jesse is MIA this week. He left this morning & won't be coming home until Friday evening. I started missing him last night knowing he was leaving this morning. He misses us.. we miss him. It's not too bad when he only has to spend a couple of nights.. but when it's nearly a week.. I realize he does more around here than I give him credit for!

Visitation Night

Well we visited Ariel's classroom this afternoon... and honestly I dont know how she's going to find it! I'll have to ask her teacher this when she comes over for the home visit tomorrow. The school is pretty big and the kindergarten/first grade wing is way in the back. But I'm sure Emiley will walk Ariel to her class since they will be just a few doors down from eachother. That makes me feel better. Hopefully Ariel isn't as geographically challenged as her mother! Ariel flip flops on how she feels about going to school. Some days she's excited & can't wait... others she says she'll miss me and she's not ready. She'll be fine. I'm worried about ME. Where have the past five and a half years gone?! I still can't believe next week I'll have a kindergartener. Seems so surreal.

I am fuming with Charter..which is who I am scheduled to get my phone and internet with tomorrow. My installation date was Aug. 19th between 5-7 pm. About 20 minutes before we leave to go to Ariel's open house... a charter tech pulls up. He says he's here to hook up my phone. I asked if he was here to do the internet too and that they didnt even tell me he was coming.. that I wasnt scheduled for anything until tomorrow & they were supposed to do both. He said his work order only had him scheduled for doing the phone and that if he did the phone and another tech did the internet, I'd have to pay two installation charges. Um. no. I already paid them $110 and haven't gotten anything installed yet! So he calls his dispatch and explains the situation.. that I'm leaving & I was supposed to have everything done tomorrow... and they tell him my account is now on hold. So who knows when I'll get it. I love how my installation date is on hold when it hasn't even gotten here yet. I sent them an email stating how unhappy I am. I hope to hear back! ugh! Aggrivating.

Well I better get to work cleaning and getting ready for that home visit with Ms. Wilson tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes! Oh you know that office I've been saying for months that I needed to organize? It's clean! I spent ALL day on it yesterday. Shredding papers, unpacking boxes, clearing the 'catch all' room out. I can't believe it's done. And NO help from my husband. Well I guess he did help.. he kept the kids out of my hair & let me get it done.. my way. And I got a massage as a thank you for doing it alone.. soooo... he redeemed himself. lol.

Still no word

from Walmart but I'm assuming since I signed papers & got sent out for a drug test... I'm hired. My drug test didnt get sent away until Monday.. so I'm going to call Walmart by next Monday if I hadnt heard from them by then.

Jesse is in Spartanburg until Saturday evening. I hate having him gone. I hate even more that I am *ahem* jealous... Did I just say that? I believe I did! They are great to him.. I'm glad. They pay for him to eat out... he gets put up in a Marriot (because the boss' sister works for them.. he gets the guys great rooms). Jesse gets to soak it up kid free in a jacuzzi. He says he gets so homesick though and misses the girls like crazy. I believe him. I can't go a day without my girls even though some days I feel a trip to a padded room would be enough to make me happy! lol. But we miss him.. lots & lots!

I'm going to feed the girls some dinner & then I might go over and see Lisa and Stevie. She had the baby today at 2:57 pm. He weighed... 10 lbs 8 oz!! Big Boy!! But all is well and I'm looking foward to meeting him. I'll post more in a bit.. dinner is cooking.

The poor girls

all have colds. Clarity started having a runny nose and stuff the night before last, Ariel started yesterday morning, and miss emmalyn... she woke up with it. Yuck. Colds during the summer.. boo! My throat feels a little off but so far so good.

I got a call last night from the Hampton Inn wanting me to go in for a second interview.. which during my first one the manager said if I got that I was pretty much hired.. but I'm not going. I had an interview at walmart friday and they are waiting on my drug test (which I know I passed). They are going to start me in the old store which maybe takes me eight minutes to get there and move me to the new store when it opens oct. 1st (which is literally 2 miles from me). So woohoo! I'll be working third shift so I shouldnt have to find a sitter for the girls and they are starting me only a dollar less than the hotel so walmart is the way I'm going. While I would have loved the $29 at any HIlton owned hotel perk... I would have been spending close to $100 a week in gas and then another $100 a week easy on a sitter.. so... doesnt make much sense! I'm just glad God brought something even better through for me.

Jesse said he was sooo homesick leaving from Wednesday until Friday. But get this. They put him up in a sweet Marriot hotel (his boss' sister works for the Marriot so she gets the nice perk and lets Jeff put the guys up cheap). Jesse got to relax in a hot tub, watch the new Indiana Jones movie on pay per view, his boss treated him to Outback Steakhouse and other great dinners & breakfast. Suuuurrree you were homesick! lmao. No I know he misses us like crazy. I guess rooming with guys just isnt as nice as being in this hectic house with your wife & kiddos. Jesse did bring me home the shampoo, conditioner & lotion the hotel provided. He knows I love Bath & Body Works so when he saw that's what the hotel used.. he brought it back for me. aww. Gotta love him.

Well Emma girl is fussing. I think she has a present for me. lol. I'll try to get on here more and update. I've really been slacking badly in my blog. I hate that.

Nerves!

So today I got for a job interview at the Hampton Inn in Biltmore Square in Asheville. I am so blessed nervous.. it's been 2004 since I've last had an interview and that was a casual Pizza Hut interview where Darryl didn't honestly care what I had to say... I guess I had the look of a waitress... he started me the next day. lmao. If only I could get that lucky tonight. But I have a feeling they have a lot of interviews lined up so I'm going to have to stand out somehow. I havent wanted something this bad in a while. I did make a boo boo and told them I wanted the 3 pm - 11 pm shift. I've since changed my mind. I'll take the 7 am- 3 pm one. I thought about it and with 3-11 I'd be going to work before Ariel got home from school and coming home way after bedtime. That's not gonna fly. I gotta see my babies! So I'm thinking I'll see if Patrick wants to stay here and keep Clarity during the day.. she loves him.. and I think he can handle her. And I'll pay someone to keep Emmalyn. That's a nerve wracking thing right there. I'm trying to find someone close to the hotel... just in case. Maybe things will fall into place. I pray so. I HAVE to help start bringing in an income. My time at home is long past over. So we'll see. I went to walmart and bought a dress and a cute pair of shoes for the interview. Did I mention how nervous I am?!

I guess we shall see what God has in store for us. Jesse is out of town.. spending the night in Spartanburg. I was fine with this yesterday. Thought "whatever"... but for some reason as me & the girls were out shopping for my interview outfit.. it hit me and I wanted to bawl. I miss him. More than I thought. I dont know how military wives do it. I'd be a downright mess.

My parents bless their hearts are driving all the way back over.. even though they just left yesterday.. so I can go to this interview. Makes me want it even more. I will be totally bummed if I dont get it and they wasted time & gas & energy. I'll be totally bummed anyways.. but that would add to it!

I not D.D!!

I admit as much as I love my girls.. sometimes I get great joy over aggrivating the crap out of them! I know that's mean.. but they do it to me... so we're even. Just a few minutes ago I was singing a song called "I know a girl named D.D". For those of you who don't know the story behind D.D that's just the initials for dirt dobber. It's something Jesse called her the other day when she was filthy and needed a bath. So I'm singing my song and Claire is getting madder by the second. "stttoopp! Dont sing that song! I not D.D! I'm ity" I really should stop. Do I? No. lol. "ooohhh stttooopp! I not D.D!!" I stop because I can see this might possibly lead to a meltdown if I don't. She huffs away " I not talking to zhu" The way she says "you" cracks me up. It has like a z sound at the beginning. cute. So yeah I'm done irritating my baby. Pretty sad that was like the most fun I've had all day. I need to get out more.

Emmalyn had to get her shots today. awww. She did excellent. I mean yeah she cried.. but as soon as I scooped her up all was fine in Emma land. The whole waiting game getting back there was not fun. Our appointment was at 1:55. I was warned that they were short handed and the wait would be a while. So we wait. And wait. and wait some more. Finally I ask someone what time it was. When she said it was going on 4 pm I got up and politely asked the receptionist if there was a guesstimate time for us getting back there. Appearently we had been forgotten because within like a minute we were back there. They were slammed.. it was so busy.. and being short handed never helps. I wish I had asked before I waited that long though... Ariel & Clarity were bored to tears & hard to keep happy. But once we got back there we were in & out. Wham bam thank you m'aam. Miss Emmalyn is as happy as can be sitting here "talking" to me while I'm on the computer. You wouldnt know she had her shots. so yay!

Mom, dad & Patrick came over and have gone back home. My dad has an MRI scheduled for September 3rd I believe so if you all could say some prayers, we'd appreciate it. I wish it was sooner.. that seems so far away! Hopefully they'll be coming back for a visit before then though. The girls miss them lots after they leave.

Just an update

so today.. what happened today? Oh yeah we went job hunting. I put in an application at that home health care place. I felt like I was applying to work for the CIA or FBI or something. It was pages long and if you get an interview I think they fingerprint you and everything else. I'm clean. I think. lmao. No I am. Seriously. So anyways maybe I'll hear something back. I sure hope so!

Jesse talked to Ray tonight (a guy he was working with that doesnt do the granite just remodeling and stuff) & he said that Pat came and got his lowes card back from him so Ray thinks he'll be let go as well. So Ray said if he hears of any work, he'll call Jesse and Jesse said the same. It's sad a company can do this to people.. little or no warning. But whatever. I told Jesse I'm glad he's out of there. Jesse just doesnt know how they could be so nice and then this happen. I guess they're just crazy! lol.

So our agenda tomorrow... get out and hand out avon brochures and see if some salon will do the raffle thing for me (I have the gift).. I'm just trying to get some contact info for potential customers. Jesse is going to keep on the job hunt and we're also hitting art galleries in waynesville about Jesse's fountain. It just so happens tomorrow is Art after Dark (it's the first Friday in each month) and all the galleries are open until 9 and they have live demonstrations of art, food & all that stuff.. so maybe just maybe Jesse can be in that tomorrow evening. That would be awesome!

We'll see what happens. That's all we can do :o)

oh mom Jesse called that guy back and all he was asking about was how to get some of the plumbers putty from around his strainers. lol. I guess he called Biltmore and they gave him your phone number since it was an emergency contact? I dunno. Jesse didnt ask how he got your number but that was weird! It wasnt important or a bad call.

To my awesome girlies!!!

It is amazing the friends I have made from this one message board. They are honestly & truly some of the most awesome girls ever. I am thankful for them. Sometimes they are my lifeline. When I'm feeling guilty about getting on to the girls or I've made what I think is the worst mistake a parent can make... they are the ones to tell me "I've been there". They are also there to pray for me or lift me up when something like what we're dealing with right now is going on. Yesterday I checked my mail and I had gotten my wool diaper shorties from Sarah. That was something that totally made me smile... not only did the girl crochet me these things... she made Emmalyn a pair of mary janes. I so need to get a pic cause everything is so freaking precious! Sarah is the same girl that made up my pregnancy announcements. She has so much talent! So Sarah thank you!!

and to the rest of you that are always there to tell me funny stories about your lives or kiddos, to offer me words of support or encouragement, to let me vent or cry or be a bitch & you still love me anyways...

YOU ALL ROCK!!!!

He has his reasons

Sometimes I wish I knew what they were. I know God has a plan. I know things happen for a reason... but the human side of me just wants to scream, "What is it?!" at times. I'll get into this in a minute.

My parents came over for a couple of days. I'm glad. I miss seeing them. I know the girls do too (Clarity cried & cried for her Abu after they left). After they left I felt in a funk. I guess because of my dad having to be referred to a neurologist and worrying about that, plus the other stuff going on & just wishing my parents could stay... I was just down & out. Jesse gets home and he's looking down & out as well. I ask him if he had a bad day and he takes a deep breath & blows it out. Then tells me he wont be going back. huh?! Appearently they felt the need to fire EVERYBODY. It wasn't just Jesse. That was the icing on the cake for me. I burst into tears and cried & cried & cried. Pat (the shop partner) told Jesse he didnt want it to end this way but he has a partner and the partner wanted to clean house and start all over. I think something is up big time. I'm not sure what. They did pay Jesse for all that he worked so that will help but I hate being in the "what does the future hold?" boat. I hardly slept at all last night.. just kept praying. I know God has something in store. I know he'll take care of us. It's just the waiting and being patient part I dont like. So anyways Jesse is looking for something else. Bummer. He'll find something and he'll find it soon. He always does. But this so SUCKS that they did this to him. I got a call on my phone today (it's still not working but I can check my messages using Jesse's cell). It was the lady that Jesse installed the countertops for, did plumbing work for, did tile work for (they didnt finish yesterday). It was the lady that adored the kids and was just wonderful to us when we went for Jesse to do the plumbing last Sunday. She was wondering if I knew where Jesse was because no one had shown up to finish her tile work. So I call her from Jesse's phone and tell her what happened. She was HOT ! She was like "You have got to be kidding me! I have told them over and over how wonderful Jesse is. How they are lucky to have such a polite guy working for them and how he does everything he can to please you". She told me that when she sees Pat she's really going to lay into him over that. She just couldnt understand. Anyways no one showed up to do her tile work. I told her to go about her day and do whatever she had to do... not to wait for them. She said she had been waiting all morning and she had things to do. She said she tried calling their showroom & it's closed. Fishy fishy fishy. Something is so not right. Maybe the fact that Jesse's out of there is a GOOD thing. The lady told me she will be keeping us in her prayers and she will definately be staying in touch with me... she wants us to bring the girls back. They loved it at her house and didnt want to leave! lol. They are grandparents and all of their children and grandchildren live far away so it was a blessing to her to play "nana". I just wish I could see Pat's face when she gets on to him about how they did things with Jesse! lol.

I am applying for a home health care place in the morning. They said CNA is not required and they are hiring for all shifts and you can choose your hours. So prayers being sent up that I get an interview and get hired! Well I just wanted to post a little update.

Mom.. dont worry about us. We'll be fine. I know it's a mom thing to worry but don't! :o) I'm actually feeling optimistic today and not totally worried and stressed like last night. God has his reasons.

How do they know

how to have you completely wrapped around their little fingers? Miss Emmalyn.. 5 months old.. and already such a con! She ALWAYS wants to be held. That's not good. I admit I have done this. I have spoiled her rotten. She's my last.. what can I say? Dont mind that I did this with the other two as well. I guess I'm just a sucker. Anyhow I need to find her a walker or exersaucer or something to put her down in. She associates her swing with sleep. Therefore when I put her in it.. she whines to get out. Today she was almost asleep.. I wouldnt let her see me cause I knew if she did it would be over. Well at that moment I spotted a fly on my screen door on the inside. It had to be let out.. I had to pass in front of her... darn! I open the screen and get the fly out and turn around to see these wide blue eyes just beaming at me. Then comes the huge wide open mouth smile. Then the little feet kicks. I talk softly to her and tell her to go night night. WHATEVER! Yeah right. She just smiled & kicked some more. How could I not pick her up? So yeah.. not much has gotten done today. Amazing how I had the house clean yesterday & today it looks as if a hurricane hit it. Until I get this kid something to occupy herself.. I'm going to be in this same boat. Giving in. Picking her up. Holding her. I'm such a sap!

It's been a while

I am having to FORCE myself to make a blog entry. So unlike me. My blog is usually so fun for me. I love having these memories recorded to read back over, but for the past week.. I've just not been myself. I think I may have a bit of depression kicking in & I think I'm figuring out why. Ariel starts school in about a month. I am going to miss her like crazy. Just thinking about my day without her.. tears start filling my eyes. I'm not ready. I know, Im probably being a huge baby but I can't help it. She is my big helper. She is there to make silly jokes, sing silly songs, & make me smile. She is also there to drive me crazy and smart mouth.. which I admit... I might miss! It's just going to be a huge adjustment & I have anxiety about that. I also dont know how Clarity is going to deal. Clarity & Ariel, though they have their moments when they drive eachother totally crazy, are honestly the best of friends. Clarity is going to be lost and I'm not sure how I'm going to entertain her as well as Ariel does. ugh I'm hoping this is like what I usually do. I think worst case scenario and then when it happens.. I'm like "what was I so worried about?". I pray it's like that.

Here's a quickie recap of importance since I blogged last:
*Jesse got a new job that pays well and he loves. That's wonderful! Nice to see your husband come home happy :o)
* I got a new cell phone (well it was used. A palm treo) off ebay. I LOVED the thing. Yes, I said "loved". It lasted two days. Nice. So now I have another phone coming. One that isnt so much like a computer & wont have program issues. I asked my friend April why the cell phone god is peeing on me. She said she doesnt know but she hopes they stop soon. Me too, girl, me too!
* the girls are wonderful. Precious as always. I dont know if I have ever mentioned in this blog.. HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. lol. They are my heart. So is my husband even though yesterday I could have kicked his butt to the moon! It was just one of those days... we were both in grouch mode. He irritated the crap out of me and I did the same to him. Funny how you can have days like that.. then today is completely opposite where I miss him and can't wait for him to come home. lol.
*I visited a friend's blog and became sad with her today. She's not having anymore children and she visited a site that told her this time last year she was 5 weeks pregnant. Well this time last year I was 11 weeks. I'm not having anymore kids either. To be honest it's not the pregnancy I miss.. I hated that... but I am sad that Emmalyn (shoot.. all 3 of them) are growing at rates of speed that can't be human. Why can't they just stay little for a little longer?

Okay I'm going to clean the office now. That should kick my depression in the butt. Either that or it's going to overwhelm me and make me more depressed. lol. Well here I go.

Cute Little Sprout!

I'm so silly!

Cuddling with her new blankie! Thank you aunties!!

Are you talking about me?!

I got my peekablock!

uh oh! Daddy's gonna get me!

Look at those blue eyes!!

Goodbye Diz

Ariel comes and tells me yesterday afternoon that she hasnt seen Dizzy (the next door neighbors little dog that she claimed as her dog that lived next door.. lol) all day. Hmmm. I look outside and nope he's not there running along the fence playing with the girls. Come to find out Dizzy died yesterday. At least I think that's what happened. Ariel saw our neighbors daughter and asked her where Diz was & she told Ariel that he got sick and went somewhere else. So I'm assuming this was her way of telling Ariel that he passed away. I'm sad. I miss the little guy! The girls do too. Ariel of course cried. Clarity has no understanding that dying means forever. She just walks around saying she "miss diz". I havent even seen the old man that lives next door in a while. His wife has been in the hospital and their daughter has been coming over taking care of things. I hope everything is okay. It's amazing how that little dog not being in the next yard makes such a difference. Things just seem empty. He's been there since we moved in so it's just too quiet. Not that he was yappy or annoying.. far from it. But he always came running to the fence to greet the kids & play or wait for them to give him his doggy treats. I guess this is a sucky part of life. Things dont always stay the same or how we want them to be. Goodbye litte Diz. We had no idea how much we thought of you until you weren't here anymore.

Anytime

I'm out with the girls.. I get compliments on how sweet they are. I'm not bias or anything *wink* but I totally agree. God has blessed me with three precious little girls. I have to type this in my blog because I want to remember. Clarity dressed herself & went outside (Ariel quickly followed suit). She comes in while I'm cleaning my kitchen. "I got you a unflower mom" I look down to see her handing me a dandelion that isnt even opened up. She is all smiles and oh so proud of herself. I melt into a puddle. I give her a huge hug & kiss & thank her for it. So now I have Ariel and Clarity bringing me tons & tons of those little white flowers that grow everywhere. I dont even know the names of them. They aren't anything special.. but these are.. because my girls are running about picking them for me. Clarity has brought me some with some long stems "It BIG mom!" and the she just smiles her smile that lights up a room. Some days these girls make me want to run and take a vaca (though I never would. How could I leave them?!) and then there are these days like today. The days that make me want to get down on my knees & just thank God for how blessed I truly am.

My Crazy Day, Roly Poly Emmalyn, & more

Prepare yourselves. I'm sure this is going to be one of those posts where you sit there and think, "Good Lord. Why doesnt she just write a book?"... one of those looonngg posts!

It starts off around 11 am yesterday when I realize I left something in Jesse's truck that I had to have. I call him and we decide since the van is cheaper on gas it would make more sense to go to him on his lunch break. We agree to meet at a gas station so he could put gas in for me. So I get on the interstate. Not two minutes later... gas light comes on. uh oh. I call Jesse and ask him if he thinks I can make it to asheville. The light goes off... it was only on when we were kind of going uphill. By the time I get to Canton it still wasnt on but I kept picturing myself stranded on the side of the road, run out of gas, with three kids. I'm not going there. I get off at the exit. I pull at the pump and go to open the gas tank. I can't get it open. There has to be a way to open it. There must be a button. I am looking everywhere. I must've looked like an idiot. I call Jesse and tell him I dont know what to do. Thank God the owners left the manual in the glove box. After a few minutes of searching I finally find the button.. under the drivers seat! If that manual hadnt been there.. omg.. I dont know if I had ever found it! So I put the nozzle in the tank, swipe my card, it tell me I am authorized and asks me to press the start button to begin fueling. I can't find it. lmao! Hidden buttons are out to get me. I swear it! So I'm pushing the yes button on the credit card pad, looking at the nozzle, everything. Finally my eyes gaze upon a HUGE yellow button. What does it say? start. Tada! I get gas and finally make it to asheville. I'm so relieved to see Jesse. I hate city driving. I am always a nervous wreck and I was just glad to get there. I get what I need and see him for maybe five minutes when it's time for both of us to leave. I make it back home, grab the girls a snack and then head out to the health department where I sit for 3 hours. 3 hours! I must say the girls were AWESOME. I couldnt have been prouder. We finally get out of there and as I walk to the van.. I see something that makes me nervous. I had left the lights on. I just keep thinking.. please dont let the battery be dead. Please dont let the battery be dead. I get the girls in their seats and go to crank it. It makes noise but it wont start. Terriffic! I run back inside and ask if there's anyone that can give me a jump. They say they have cables but I would have to wait twenty minutes before a girl's husband could come and do it. Fine. I'll wait. What choice do I have? I decide to try one more time. It cranks! Hallelujah! The girls are famished so I decide to head over to wendy's. I pull in and the sky falls out. It is raining so hard.. just opening my window a crack sends a flood of water in. No drive thru for us. Well it gets worse.. the rain is pounding and the wind is going crazy.. the sky is dark. I pull into a parking space and we wait it out in the van. Now if you all know me you know my storm fear.. I wasnt happy but I will say I did not show one bit of panic.. not one hint that I wanted to grab the girls and go into wendy's.. who cares if we all looked like drowned rats. lol. But no.. I decided we would wait in the van. We would be okay. It took a good half hour for it to slow down but it finally did. By this time, it was time for me to go meet a girl in Canton to sign up for Avon. I tell the girls since I'm meeting her at Arby's... they can wait and eat that. They're cool with that. The meeting goes well. Emmalyn.. awesome.. just chilled in her seat. Ariel & Clarity kept piping up, "when are we going to go home?". lol. I can't blame them. We had been out since 11 am and here it was going on 7:30 pm. I get all signed up and head back home. Did I mention all throughout the day I couldnt find my cell? I knew I had it when I went to asheville but when I came home to grab the girls a snack real quick... that is when I noticed it was missing. Anywhow. I get off my exit to go home and who is following me? A police officer. Big surprise. My van has no tags.. it's not registered. I have the bill of sale in my glove box along with my proof of insurance so I'm not worried. Go ahead. Pull me over. Turn on your lights. Let's get this over with. Just stop following me! I keep saying under my breath. Amazingly enough.. he doesnt. He turns off and goes somewhere else. I guess God whispered into his soul to give me a break! lol. I make it home.. and Jesse is still not there. He had gone to a job interview after work (which we think went amazingly so say prayers he gets it! Much more worth it than where he is now). I check the mail and see my nose ring that I ordered off ebay is here (Jesse did buy me another one from the tattoo shop here so it wasnt NEEDED anymore but I ordered it back when I lost my other nose ring). I open the envelope and there's a packet where the nose ring should be.. but it's not there. So I email the girl. Havent heard back from her yet. But how weird is that? As I'm looking over the rest of the mail (bills, bills, and yes more bills) Ariel discovers my phone. Behind one of my tires. Appearently I had dropped it before we left.. and ran it over coming home. I have no phone. I smashed its guts out. Soooo.. that's that. I need to get another one activated. I'd like to say this was the end of my day. But.. it wasn't. I had forgotten to go get electrosol and had run out. Jesse gets home & we load the kids up. I make it to walmart 10 mins before they close. Just long enough to grab my stuff & book it out of there. We came home and snacked a bit then we all just crashed out. What a day.

About miss Roly Poly Emmalyn. Two nights ago I had her on the floor in the play room. She rolled from her back to her tummy.. then to her back again... then once more on her tummy. She looks around & realizes Hey I'm getting somewhere! My 4 1/2 month old has figured out her own little way of being "mobile". What a stinker!

Where's Kirby?

is not a question you want your two year old asking you when you have a hermit crab pet named Kirby. Yet this is an honest to God true story. Miss Ariel left Kirby's container down where Clarity could get it. Appearently Clarity let Kirby wander. Wonderful. So here I am.. my cleaning mission thrown completely out the window. I am on a new hunt. Find Kirby. Watch where you step. Don't smash Kirby. Have mercy! I am searching everywhere to no avail. I'm harping at Ariel (who is wandering around the house crying for Kirby) that she shouldnt have left him down and why can't we have any pets without a disaster happening? The crab is nowhere. I can't even hear him walking.. so my thoughts.. he's dead somewhere. During this fiasco I see Clarity has spilled chocolate milk on her bed. She's not allowed to even drink in her room! ugh I'm fuming and ready to send my kiddos to boot camp! All of a sudden I hear Ariel praying. Please God let us find Kirby. Let him be alive. Let him be okay. Please God show me where he is. I'm sorry. I love him. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen. Oh no. My mission has new meaning. He HAS to be found. I tell God.. I hope you come through with this. She's asking you. All of a sudden even though I had looked three or four times... I get a feeling to look under their bed. So I peer and way back in the corner, sits Kirby. THANK YOU GOD!! He's alive but he's pissed. He has his claw out and won't come out of his shell. I hurry and put him back in his sand haven. Then I start talking to him. Yes, I'm talking to a crab. I'm calling him in a little high pitched voice that always gets him to come out. It takes a minute, but he comes crawling out of his shell. So this ordeal is over with but I have a headache. I still have to scrub Clarity's mattress.. grrr. But first I think I'm going to take Jesse up on his offer to go get out of the house. I might run to "junk mart" (walmart without the grocery store. This is Ariel's name for it). I'll probably end up taking the kids even though this is my chance to get away. I'm a sucker like that.

Lord Grant Me

motivation!! PLEASE!! I have a ton to get done before Jesse gets home. I don't have to but if he's busting his rear working. I at least want to give him a clean house to come home to. I can't have him thinking I just sit on the computer all day (which in all honesty I have done today.. lol). Oh wait.. no I did bake a gooey chocolately fudgy cake. Which I am guilty of letting the girls eat for lunch. oh my word. I am rotten today! lmao. So here's hoping I get my rear in gear and get things done. It's almost 2:30 and Jesse will be home at 6. Sure that sounds like loads & loads of time but it's not. Not for my slow poke heiny!

Jesse called not long ago.. which is unusual because his break isn't until 3. He was asking if the girls & I were okay. Um yeah.. as far as I can tell. He tells me that Asheville just got hit with a really severe storm. He said it was lightning every second & they even had an electrical fire at an outlet because of it. He said the guys he works with tried to put it out by throwing water on it. We laughed at that. Water & electricy = not an effective way to put out an electrical fire. So anyways I guess that was his excitement for the day. I guess Jesse was calling to make sure I was able to come out of hiding from the storm. We didn't get anything but some rain and cooler temps. Hallelujah! We went from 81 degrees to 64 in a matter of an hour. Nice!

Well Jesse is hoping to get a call from another granite company in Asheville. He stopped by yesterday and talked to one of the owners and the other one is supposed to get in touch with him. He's just trying to see what else is out there and if he could ever make more by doing more. He knows how to do a ton of stuff but the place he works for just doesnt care to use him for all he knows. He's not going to up and quit but he's looking around. He never stops trying to better himself. I love that about him. I'm complete opposite.. I am always afraid to step out of my comfort zone.

I am also looking for a night job. I applied at one place but who knows if I'll hear back or not. I'm looking around. Trying to find something that will let me work nights or evenings and weekends. I dont really want to do restaurant work again.. Im looking for something that pays a bit more than that if I'm going to work that hard! Praying I find something soon. I'm also signing up to start selling Avon. Any little bit I can pull in will help! So if any of you.. my lovely little blog readers want anything... please come to me! hehe.

Well I have to go finish emmalyn's load of diapers. I tell you.. this cloth diapering is an everyday laundry thing since I dont have many. I just love to add to my work load! Well she's more comfy and we're not filling up the landfill... I guess it's worth it ;o) I'll let you know if I get anything accomplished in the next 3 hours and 20 mins!

Is it just me?

or is it just freaking fun to make babies dance? I love blasting some music and holding Emmalyn up and making her shake her booty! She smiles all big and I just think it's so cute. I did the same thing with Ariel & Clarity. But I have to wonder... if this is just something I do. lol.

Disappointment

was never something I experienced when Emmalyn came out being a girl. Obviously God wanted to give me the gift of three girls and I couldnt be happier. I love watching them and their friendships grow. I ran into a girl last night that was pregnant with her third while grocery shopping. Jesse was ahead of me with his cart that carried Ariel & Clarity and I was following behind with my cart that had Emmalyn. The girl peeked in and was like, "Is that another girl?" and I smiled really big and said, "sure is". She then tells me she's so glad she's not alone, that she's expecting her third girl in two months. She told me how much she had wanted a boy and how disappointed she was. She didnt want anymore pink.. she had dealt with that enough and she wanted blue. I just kept telling her how awesome I thought having three girls was. I guess a part of me wondered what it would be like having a boy but I honestly didnt care either way. I have never experienced disappointment with what my kids gender was so I guess I was kind of shocked to see someone so upset over it. I'm sure her feelings will change once her daughter gets here. That girl is going to have her hands full though as there is only 18 months between her first and second and then there will be 17 months between her second and third. YIKES!

A bugga! lol

Instead of getting their beds made and getting them in them... I had to video tape the total goofiness that was going on last night. Here you can see very well what a little "copy cat" Clarity has become. Whatever her Air-Air does.. she has to do too! Even on my most horrible days.. these girls know how to make me laugh! I love them to pieces! By the way I asked Ariel what a "bone styler" was (she says this in the video) and she told me it's an exercise. Well.. at least one of us is exercising ;o) lol

Interview with Ariel

This cracks me up(especially the ending)! Dont mind Ariel's shaggy bangs.. we're growing them out and unless we're going out, she doesnt let me fix her hair. Stubborn girl!

Short Fireworks Video

How was your 4th?

I hope everyone had a fantastic 4th of July! ours was pretty good! My parents were over here for part of the day (they came in on the 3rd). So we got to spend some time with them. They left around 3 pm. Jesse & I had no idea where we were taking the girls to see fireworks as this is our first year over here. We ended up going over to Maggie Valley. Oh my gosh that place was packed! Every hotel had no vacancy. Cars everywhere. People in chairs lining in the streets and at the festival grounds. We parked & walked around. We didn't bring any chairs so in the end, we decided to watch the fireworks from our van (yes I said van! We got a decent deal on a used Toyota Previa so now I have something to drive when I need to run errands and Jesse doesnt have to take a day or half day off to chauffer me around. yay!). The fireworks were long. LOL. Jesse & I laughed that it was the never ending fireworks display. Then the finale came and it was the never ending finale! Then afterwards when people were leaving, I guess they had a few they forgot to shoot up, so they did those. It was hilarious! The girls loved them this year. I have some video (very dark so you cant see the girls but you can hear their 'wow's!). Even little miss Emmalyn was mesmerized she just laid in my lap staring up at the sky watching them! Now for some pics!

Yikes!

well it's Air-Air's turn to be sick :o( She woke up this morning crying about how bad her throat hurts and choking on her spit. Same thing I just went through with Clarity 2 days ago. Peachy. My poor babies.. I so hate it when they get sick! Hopefully Emma won't get it..or Jesse... or myself. I guess I get to spend today disinfecting the house & toys. Be right back.. Ariel just got so choked she puked. UGH! Well thank God for small miracles it was just a bunch of spit. Poor baby! She just keeps wandering around the house crying and asking if she can give her bad germ to me because she doesnt want it anymore. Breaks my heart. I'm praying she feels better super soon.

I was watching an infomercial this morning about John Becks Free & Clear system. Supposedly this guy will send you all the info you need to buy a house for a couple hundred dollars. All you have to do is pay back taxes on it and it's yours! ha! I decided to look it up online & see if it had actually worked for anyone (I honestly didnt believe it) and my gut was right. It is a HUGE scam and people are losing their butts on hundreds of thousands of dollars. How is this guy not sitting in prison? It amazes me that people can come up with something crazy, put it on tv, scam people out of butt loads of money, keep doing it, and still walk away richy rich. oooh Karma is so gonna have to bite him in the butt one day!

Well I guess I better stop eating these peanut butter M&Ms (thanks mom.. lol) and get my butt off of the computer and get to cleaning. Hopefully I'll have a happier post next time!

I wish

So much time hasnt passed between updates. My blog is my baby but lately my internet hasnt been so wonderful. We're probably going to check into getting cable internet soon.. this satellite mess just isnt cutting it. But it's what we have for now so I'll just have to be thankful! lol.

Poor Clarity is sick... again! It has been a week with her. It started last Sunday... she got stung on the foot by a bee. Well her foot swelled up & turned red & hot. She couldnt walk on that foot and cried about it. Sleep was out of the question. Monday comes & she's running a fever and has a rash on her shoulders & tummy. This made me call Jesse home from work to take her to the ped. We get there and there are cops everywhere. They haul some guy away and impound his car. Well the cops being there made our wait take FOREVER. We finally get back there and Jesse asked the nurse if it was anything we should be worried about with all the cops everywhere. She told us no that some boy had been brought in with injuries so severe they had to life flight him to asheville. Poor baby must've been really bad since Harris Regional is right next door! I never have heard any more about this so I dont know exactly what happened or if he was okay. But anyways we see the ped and she said she thinks Clarity has a virus on top of the sting that it was a viral rash. I guess it's a good thing that mom of those boys didnt use me to babysit (guess she found someone closer to where she wouldnt have to backtrack.. she never called). I would have had to call her to come get them the first day I watched them to take Clarity to the doctor! lol. Flash forward to now and yesterday Clarity starts whining about having a sore throat. She's not running a fever but her throat is just bugging her. ugh. Poor girl. It's been a rough week!

Grandma, Abu & Patrick came over to see the girls this week. Ariel was thrilled to death. And it made it even better that her Uncle Patrick came along! She is always talking about him and how she misses him and when is he coming to see her. So when she saw him standing there, I think she about had a fit! It was a nice surprise :o)

Well other than all that, not much else is going on. Emma is growing like a weed and amazing me more & more everyday. she is giggling, grabbing at her feet, trying to play with toys hanging above her. Just getting so big and taking so much in! I love it when she wakes up in the mornings... she just seems so happy to be here and just lights up with a huge smile. She melts my heart. All of my girls do!!!

Jesse is going to Hendersonville to look at a vehicle for me today. If it's as good as they say and he approves he's going to give them some money to hold it & the rest when our check comes in. I hate that our stimulus is going to be gone in one shot... but I could so use something. Just having the truck and being stuck at home all week is getting to me.

well I'm going to take some new pics & vid of the kiddos today and I'll have that put up soon. Seems so much has been going on lately. I'm exhausted!

Big Update

I'm probably going to be all over the place with this post as it is midnight and my mind is scattered everywhere and lots has been going on.

Jesse missed work yesterday. He pulled a muscle or did something to his lower back and he literally had to roll out of bed. lol. He had been up all night the night before and come morning he was no better so he stayed home. Luckily the r&r helped him and he was back at work today and feeling much better. It did end up being a great day though...I was browsing on Craigslist (I did get that bumbo and tummy mat.. it was a steal and I'm so happy!) and came across a listing for a trundle bed & dresser for $150. The couple had a son about Ariel's age and he had used the top bed for not even a month and the bottom wasn't used at all. The couple was moving and just didnt want to deal with taking it. Well I emailed and wasn't expecting them to have it. They did! I asked the girl if we could just pay like $120 or $130 for the bed that the girls didnt need a dresser and she said that was fine, we'd work something out. I talk Jesse into driving to Asheville.. I really wanted to check this out! Well let me tell you we hit the jackpot! The mattresses are about brand new... one even had the warranty tag still on it...and they were Serta! So comfy! The trundle bed is in excellent shape and what did the people ask for it....$115! We hauled that baby home! You can't even buy one of the mattresses alone for that price. So the girls now have big girl beds in their room. Clarity is snoozing away in hers right now.. and Emiley is in the other. Yes Emiley... she spent the night tonight :o) Lisa brought her over to play and she didnt want to go home so I told her she could just stay. I had my moments when I wondered what in the world I was thinking.. but it wasn't her.. it was just having three kids running around the house making messes! lol.

The woman with the two boys came over with Camden and Carter yesterday. The are two of the cutest, sweetest little guys! Her and her husband were nice.. they've really been put through the ringer as far as babysitters go so they are being very picky and cautious. Who can blame them? I havent even left my kids with a sitter that wasn't family yet! She did love the house, the yard, and she said I was the best yet (She has been interviewing like 7 other sitters). So hopefully they pick me. I don't know yet, they havent called but she said she hoped to be bringing the boys back. Camden didn't want to leave.. lol. The dad says, "Well that's a great sign! He's comfortable here". She's hoping to be using someone by next Monday and I hope that's me. I guess I'll find out soon. We could really use the $$.

What else... oh yeah. I'm on my way to becoming a cloth diapering mama! It is EXPENSIVE to start but I think in the long run it will be worth it. I'm honestly not doing it to save money... it would probably be cheaper to keep using disposables honestly... but I am hating throwing away tons of diapers to be hauled off into a landfill when I could be more "green" about it. I'm a nutcase about recycling and taking care of the environment. Before I moved here and really started recycling, I didnt think it would make much of a difference but it really does. I have one or two big blue bags full of recyclables out by the curb and just like two bags of trash. When before we would have 5 or more bags of trash every week. I just want to do my part to take care of the world my babies are going to be growing up in.... now if only we could get rid of the crime and scumbags like that... recycle them into something more valuable... wouldn't that be something?

Well everyone is sleeping.. I guess I should be doing the same. Dont know what time the girls are gonna wake me up asking for breakfast and tearing through the house so I better snooze while I can. Goodnight!

Yay!

for Craigslist! As soon as Jesse comes inside & helps me get the girls ready we're going to pick up a bumbo seat & tummy mat new for $20! The girls son hated both so score for us! I was just looking at bumbo seats last week but couldnt justify spending $40 on one. So I get my bumbo after all. I doubt she'll like the tummy mat either, but hey, it's worth a shot!

You liking my pop music selection you are most likely listening to as you read this post? Yeah I never grew out of my teenage love for boybands and pop! So if you don't like it... tough... deal with it. Either that or you can scroll down to the bottom of my blog and turn it off. lol. Well I still have a ton to do around here.. just wanted to jump on and update a bit for the day.

Oh yeah we have had rain showers all day! woohoo! Maybe my hay like brown grass will be happy and turn green again! God I sure hope so.

Could be good!

well a mom got in touch with me about my ad in the iwanna for babysitting (as much as I've enjoyed all my time off since Lisa quit needing me...I need to babysit again! We need $$). She has two boys (eek boys! I dont have any so that would be nice!) ages 1 and I think 2 1/2 or somethng along those lines. I know they are 18 months apart. The best part she needs someone FULL time Monday- Friday (we would still have our family weekends.. YES!) from like 7:30-5. She said she's going out of town this weekend but will call me back Monday to hopefully see the house and meet us. It sounds too good to be true so I'm not holding my breath. she said she's called a bunch of people so I'm sure I have competition. So this weekend Jesse & I are going to go crazy cleaning & babyproofing since she has little ones. We need to for Emmalyn anyways. It's not a bad thing to get a jump start on that. I'm just crossing my fingers & toes & praying big time. I guess we'll know something Tuesday. I hope so!

Thanks Misty!!!

I found this WONDERFUL video on her blog & I have to share! They are sooo much hotter now than they were back then! Makes me even more excited for October, I tell you!

A vid!

Ignore my goofy laugh! I'm a dork! I should win a mom of the year award for giggling like a goon while my poor baby chokes on water!