How much an upbeat attitude makes life seem. Even when things are tough... to go with the flow... is so much better than sulking and asking "why me?". I've been making an effort daily to be happy. reguardless. and it's working. I AM happy.
I can't thank God enough for the blessings he has put upon us. We have had our hard times but I believe we'll continue to grow from it and come out stronger in the end. It took us going through all these for me to decide that I'm worth going back to college so I can get a decent job to help provide for these girls. I am still so excited about this decision.. I just hope God lets everything fall into place and I do get to go. I just have to pray about it and let things unfold.
What is really cool is when you look back at something that at the time seems like a major tragedy and you now know that it was for the best. Jesse losing all of those jobs this past summer... It was unbelievable and I kept thinking "WHY?!". I mean he lost his job at the granite place.. then when he was doing remodels on homes.. then the car salesman....
but look... building and remodels have slowed down dramatically... the VERY day they told him they were letting him go from the car dealership (even though they had just hired him the week before)... the company he is with called. You can't say God didn't have a hand in what was going on. Not long after he joined this company... the auto industry went way downhill. So all of those layoffs in the end were the biggest BLESSINGS. Who would have thought? He is now doing something healthier (the granite thing is so unhealthy for a person's lungs)... he has steady work... and it pays as well as all the other things he was doing. He is happy where he is. It's where God finally put him. All I can do is keep praying that it is God's will that he is there and that things continue to go well and he has job security.
My whole point is... when something is going on and it seems like your world is collapsing.. GOD will take care of you. How people don't believe is beyond me. I would be a mess without my faith. And coming through all we've been through last year... and realizing how God has carried us through even when it didn't seem like it at the time... just makes my faith even stronger.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
So I totally lied
I had to do it. When I saw this layout for my blog... I knew... I HAD TO USE IT! Now this one... I can definitely deal with seeing for a long time!
so much to do
God grant me motivation!!! I have got to do something with this house. I have girl clothes to pack away, girl clothes to pull out and wash.... I swear having three girls was a blessing and a curse. It saved us money with not having to buy new clothes constantly... but then there's the issue I have now. Constantly pulling out and packing boxes anytime one jumps into the next size! Which is a huge mess. There are clothes everywhere.
I will work on this and cleaning my room today. So I say. I had tons of motivation yesterday... but what happened? I got slammed with a headache the size of Texas that lasted from the moment I opened my eyes until they shut last night. That threw my plans out the window. Today is a new day, though, now I just need to find that motivation again. Good luck with that. lol.
But at this very moment.. I'm starving.. So I'm going to go find some breakfast and then figure out where I want to start. First things first.. I need to get my arse off the computer!
I will work on this and cleaning my room today. So I say. I had tons of motivation yesterday... but what happened? I got slammed with a headache the size of Texas that lasted from the moment I opened my eyes until they shut last night. That threw my plans out the window. Today is a new day, though, now I just need to find that motivation again. Good luck with that. lol.
But at this very moment.. I'm starving.. So I'm going to go find some breakfast and then figure out where I want to start. First things first.. I need to get my arse off the computer!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
I fought... and LOST!
I fought this whole "Twilight" frenzy. I didn't see how it could possibly be as wonderful as everyone was saying. Well I lost this fight. BIG TIME. I decided I'd order the four book series.. unfortunately it's backordered (who knew?) so I decided to watch the movie yesterday.
OH.MY.GOSH!!!
For those of you who were like me (living under a rock) and really don't know what all the fuss is about... This is a love story. A fantastic, completely amazing, you wish you were Bella love story. lol. Edward is a vampire (the hottest vampire EVER).. Bella is human... they love each other.. but you can imagine it's hard for them to be together.
So anyways.. now I CANNOT wait for my book series to get here. From what I've heard, once you start reading, things can go downhill at home. You want to eat, live, breathe, and sleep Twilight. One of my friends thinks the books are laced with crack. LOL. I'm already a huge fan just by the movie so I'm looking forward to feeding my addiction with the books that give you so much more to the story.
I'm pathetic. oh yeah.. and I love Edward.
OH.MY.GOSH!!!
For those of you who were like me (living under a rock) and really don't know what all the fuss is about... This is a love story. A fantastic, completely amazing, you wish you were Bella love story. lol. Edward is a vampire (the hottest vampire EVER).. Bella is human... they love each other.. but you can imagine it's hard for them to be together.
So anyways.. now I CANNOT wait for my book series to get here. From what I've heard, once you start reading, things can go downhill at home. You want to eat, live, breathe, and sleep Twilight. One of my friends thinks the books are laced with crack. LOL. I'm already a huge fan just by the movie so I'm looking forward to feeding my addiction with the books that give you so much more to the story.
I'm pathetic. oh yeah.. and I love Edward.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Well....
First of all thank you everyone for your prayers and uplifting thoughts for us and Miss Ariel! God is Great!
We took Ariel to her appointment yesterday. I was so mad because when we got there, they made us wait in the "sick" waiting room. I was thinking "OMG" and wanted to rip their heads off. I kept muttering how if she wasn't sick going in, she sure would be when we left (as well as Emma and Clarity). I was fit to be tied.
We got back there eventually (the wait at this office is rediculous.. always). The doctor checks the lymph nodes all over her body and keeps saying "well this seems harmless. Probably a virus". I was about ready to scream... but I did a great job hiding that and just let her examine her.... she looks in Ariel's throat and it's red. She says "we'll do a quick strep swab.. and if that comes back negative, we'll do a CBC panel just to be safe". Low and behold.. the kid has strep throat! No fever, no sore throat, no nothing but she tested positive. So we're praying that's why the lymph node on her neck got bigger like it did. The doctor did say if it doesnt start going back down in two weeks, to bring her back and we'll do that CBC panel just to double check things. That makes me feel better. So I'm praying her lymph node just goes back down. But knowing me, I'll take her in and have them do that panel just to get me to stop worrying all the dang time!
The girls went to the dentist for the first time yesterday. They both did GREAT. I wasn't allowed to go back there with them.. but the dentist said she couldn't believe how well behaved and pleasant they are. Ariel's report wasn't too great.. she has cavities, not terrible ones, but little ones between her teeth. I kind of figured.. this being her first visit and she's six years old... but the dentist said she can tell we brush her teeth very well, she just has deep grooves around her molars and that's where they are. They have referred her to another dentist (this was my choice) because I have the option of getting them all fixed at once and she'll be asleep (they dont put her under general... it's some drink that makes them loopy and sleepy). I opted to do that because her visit with this dentist went so well and I dont want to ruin that comfortable association she has with them.. or make her fear that office. So this other dentist will be in touch with us this week to make an appointment to get a consult and get this all over with. Clarity got a clean bill of dental health. Yay.
So all and all, things didn't go too bad yesterday at all. Ariel is on antibiotics for her strep and was actually cleared to go to school today. Which by the way, we got a two hour delay today due to the snow that started coming down yesterday evening. Always a plus! We were in t-shirts the other day.. now there's snow on the ground! Crazy weather!
Well I'm off to clean and take care of these two crazy girls I still have at home with me...
God bless you all and have a great day!
We took Ariel to her appointment yesterday. I was so mad because when we got there, they made us wait in the "sick" waiting room. I was thinking "OMG" and wanted to rip their heads off. I kept muttering how if she wasn't sick going in, she sure would be when we left (as well as Emma and Clarity). I was fit to be tied.
We got back there eventually (the wait at this office is rediculous.. always). The doctor checks the lymph nodes all over her body and keeps saying "well this seems harmless. Probably a virus". I was about ready to scream... but I did a great job hiding that and just let her examine her.... she looks in Ariel's throat and it's red. She says "we'll do a quick strep swab.. and if that comes back negative, we'll do a CBC panel just to be safe". Low and behold.. the kid has strep throat! No fever, no sore throat, no nothing but she tested positive. So we're praying that's why the lymph node on her neck got bigger like it did. The doctor did say if it doesnt start going back down in two weeks, to bring her back and we'll do that CBC panel just to double check things. That makes me feel better. So I'm praying her lymph node just goes back down. But knowing me, I'll take her in and have them do that panel just to get me to stop worrying all the dang time!
The girls went to the dentist for the first time yesterday. They both did GREAT. I wasn't allowed to go back there with them.. but the dentist said she couldn't believe how well behaved and pleasant they are. Ariel's report wasn't too great.. she has cavities, not terrible ones, but little ones between her teeth. I kind of figured.. this being her first visit and she's six years old... but the dentist said she can tell we brush her teeth very well, she just has deep grooves around her molars and that's where they are. They have referred her to another dentist (this was my choice) because I have the option of getting them all fixed at once and she'll be asleep (they dont put her under general... it's some drink that makes them loopy and sleepy). I opted to do that because her visit with this dentist went so well and I dont want to ruin that comfortable association she has with them.. or make her fear that office. So this other dentist will be in touch with us this week to make an appointment to get a consult and get this all over with. Clarity got a clean bill of dental health. Yay.
So all and all, things didn't go too bad yesterday at all. Ariel is on antibiotics for her strep and was actually cleared to go to school today. Which by the way, we got a two hour delay today due to the snow that started coming down yesterday evening. Always a plus! We were in t-shirts the other day.. now there's snow on the ground! Crazy weather!
Well I'm off to clean and take care of these two crazy girls I still have at home with me...
God bless you all and have a great day!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
I can
go on & on & on about my girls and their senses of humor. I think they have their dad's "I think I'm a comedian" gene. And sure enough.. they crack me up on a daily basis.
Clarity... she thinks she is queen of the tv and remote. If you sit down to watch something, she'll try to change the channel. Sometimes she succeeds and you have to threaten her life to get her to leave it alone. Okay.. maybe you don't have to be that dramatic... but anyhow.
Yesterday such was the case. I was trying to watch something and she goes on playing her role as TV Commando. She holds the remote and looks at me in all seriousness, "I like Dora. Do you like Dora?" . "I like Max and Ruby. Do you like Max and Ruby?"..."I like Diego. Do you like Diego?". She's being nice and trying to compromise on finding something we both like. But do you see my options here? LOL. And if I dare to be bold and say I don't like her shows... she cries fake tears and whines... but then even she catches on to how pathetic she sounds and it turns to giggles. She can be aggrivating at times, but her laugh is contagious. At least for me!
Emmalyn is getting more and more personality. The girl is taking off everywhere. She's got this walking thing about down. It's too cute to see this bald, toothless baby walking around. She's a "toddler" now. But she's still such a baby...at least she looks the part! She's such a piece of sunshine. Her smile can light up a room. And her giggles.. wow. She is just so much fun!
What can I say about Ariel? I can say a lot. She's at that age... where she knows everything. I don't know what she needs parents for. lol. She can be mouthy, but she's a great kid with an awesome heart. She's also got a way with making me laugh. Be it by a silly dance or a song she makes up... or an outrageous story... or a funny face... she can bring a smile to your face if you're down.
I'm lucky to be given the opportunity for smiles and laughs everyday. No matter what is going on in my life... my girls are a joy. A sense of humor is vital in living a happy life... and I don't think I have anything to worry about with these three around.
Clarity... she thinks she is queen of the tv and remote. If you sit down to watch something, she'll try to change the channel. Sometimes she succeeds and you have to threaten her life to get her to leave it alone. Okay.. maybe you don't have to be that dramatic... but anyhow.
Yesterday such was the case. I was trying to watch something and she goes on playing her role as TV Commando. She holds the remote and looks at me in all seriousness, "I like Dora. Do you like Dora?" . "I like Max and Ruby. Do you like Max and Ruby?"..."I like Diego. Do you like Diego?". She's being nice and trying to compromise on finding something we both like. But do you see my options here? LOL. And if I dare to be bold and say I don't like her shows... she cries fake tears and whines... but then even she catches on to how pathetic she sounds and it turns to giggles. She can be aggrivating at times, but her laugh is contagious. At least for me!
Emmalyn is getting more and more personality. The girl is taking off everywhere. She's got this walking thing about down. It's too cute to see this bald, toothless baby walking around. She's a "toddler" now. But she's still such a baby...at least she looks the part! She's such a piece of sunshine. Her smile can light up a room. And her giggles.. wow. She is just so much fun!
What can I say about Ariel? I can say a lot. She's at that age... where she knows everything. I don't know what she needs parents for. lol. She can be mouthy, but she's a great kid with an awesome heart. She's also got a way with making me laugh. Be it by a silly dance or a song she makes up... or an outrageous story... or a funny face... she can bring a smile to your face if you're down.
I'm lucky to be given the opportunity for smiles and laughs everyday. No matter what is going on in my life... my girls are a joy. A sense of humor is vital in living a happy life... and I don't think I have anything to worry about with these three around.
Monday, January 5, 2009
I hate this feeling
My nerves are on edge. If you go back into my blog.. say to last January or February.. you'll see where I was nervous about Ariel having lymph nodes in her neck. Of course we went to the doctor twice and I was told... don't even give it a second thought. She's fine. Well it's been almost a year and they never went away. All of a sudden.. without her being sick... they have gotten bigger. So we go Wednesday and I'm going to push for them to do blood work. I don't dare google all the possible things that could be wrong... I'm a nervous wreck as it is. Of course I've already got the "what if it's lymphoma? What if she has cancer?" running amuk in my brain. I want to cry. I'm trying my hardest to prepare myself for the worst... but I'm praying to God (more like begging) for it to be nothing. But I want proof. I don't want to take a doctor's word for it. They are going to have to do blood tests or something.
Ariel is a smart girl. She knows something is going on. She knows we're going to the doctor about her lymph nodes. She knows they have gotten bigger. I am trying to hide how scared I am deep down but I have a feeling she senses that I'm worried.
So please, please, please... lift her up in prayer. And Wednesday *tick..tick...tick... time drags by when you're a worried mama* hopefully I can come on here and have a praise report that she's okay.
Ariel is a smart girl. She knows something is going on. She knows we're going to the doctor about her lymph nodes. She knows they have gotten bigger. I am trying to hide how scared I am deep down but I have a feeling she senses that I'm worried.
So please, please, please... lift her up in prayer. And Wednesday *tick..tick...tick... time drags by when you're a worried mama* hopefully I can come on here and have a praise report that she's okay.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Fresh
As you can tell, I can't keep my blog looking the same for very long. I guess I just like to change things up! I'm not sure why. I like this pink and brown stuff though... maybe I'll keep this longer than the rest. At least until the next holiday!
It's 2009. Oddly enough I'm very optimistic about this year. Maybe because last year was kind of a blah year. I mean a GREAT thing DID happen in 2008... Emmalyn Reese... a huge surprise... but a wonderful blessing... came into our lives. That overshadows the bad for me. As I've said before, having her made all the crummy stuff worth it.
And in the end, God has seen us through everything. He never promised life would be easy, but he did promise never to leave us and to always provide. So far, so good.
But anyhow.. I'm excited for 2009. It's a fresh start. New opportunity. With many prayers and faith.. it will be a wonderful year. Even if nothing fantastic happens.. I just pray that it's a calm one!
I wish all of you many blessings and prayers for you and your families during this coming year. May you have many laughs. May you be healthy. And may you thank God everyday for what you do have and not feel lacking for what you don't. May friends surround you and great memories fill your heart.
So even though I slept through 2009's coming.... there is my "toast" and my wish for all of you :o)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It's 2009. Oddly enough I'm very optimistic about this year. Maybe because last year was kind of a blah year. I mean a GREAT thing DID happen in 2008... Emmalyn Reese... a huge surprise... but a wonderful blessing... came into our lives. That overshadows the bad for me. As I've said before, having her made all the crummy stuff worth it.
And in the end, God has seen us through everything. He never promised life would be easy, but he did promise never to leave us and to always provide. So far, so good.
But anyhow.. I'm excited for 2009. It's a fresh start. New opportunity. With many prayers and faith.. it will be a wonderful year. Even if nothing fantastic happens.. I just pray that it's a calm one!
I wish all of you many blessings and prayers for you and your families during this coming year. May you have many laughs. May you be healthy. And may you thank God everyday for what you do have and not feel lacking for what you don't. May friends surround you and great memories fill your heart.
So even though I slept through 2009's coming.... there is my "toast" and my wish for all of you :o)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Yay Emma!
Yesterday was a big day for us. Miss Emma got brave & started trying to walk. She managed to get from the bounce and spin zebra (in the middle of the floor) to where I was at the couch. Only a few feet away.. but still... this is big news! I'm so glad Jesse had yesterday off so he was home to watch those first unassisted steps with me. Now that she knows she has the potential to walk.. she just keeps trying & trying. She's a determined little thing and before long, I know she'll have it down. Walking at 10 months. wow. I guess she feels she better get a move on things so she can keep up with her rough and tumble sisters!
Some more big news in the Moore home... I've decided to go back to college. Of course I decide this while my former college is out on break. So I have to wait to hear back about my transcript and won't be able to start the one here until fall, but the fact that I've applied and pretty much made up my mind is a start! I think I still owe Tri-County money from where I was withdrawn after having to go to Florida for Jesse's grandma's "funeral" (It never happened. The poor woman was cremated and not even a service ended up being held the week we were down there). So I'd probably have to start in fall anyways.. I won't get my transcript until that's paid off, so that buys me some time. I'm just so excited! I went for two years in Murphy and never could decide on a dang thing to get a degree in. I flip flopped all over the place. I've felt those two years were such a waste. But now I think I'm going to go into massage therapy and I'm sure those two years I went to Tri-County will come in handy with getting some of the basics out of the way towards my degree. So now I just wait patiently and enjoy the time with my girls. Fall will be here before I know it. Time always flies by at an unrealistic rate for me. I swear I feel like I just graduated high school a couple of years ago but it's been almost 9 years! Yikes! Where does time go?!
Some more big news in the Moore home... I've decided to go back to college. Of course I decide this while my former college is out on break. So I have to wait to hear back about my transcript and won't be able to start the one here until fall, but the fact that I've applied and pretty much made up my mind is a start! I think I still owe Tri-County money from where I was withdrawn after having to go to Florida for Jesse's grandma's "funeral" (It never happened. The poor woman was cremated and not even a service ended up being held the week we were down there). So I'd probably have to start in fall anyways.. I won't get my transcript until that's paid off, so that buys me some time. I'm just so excited! I went for two years in Murphy and never could decide on a dang thing to get a degree in. I flip flopped all over the place. I've felt those two years were such a waste. But now I think I'm going to go into massage therapy and I'm sure those two years I went to Tri-County will come in handy with getting some of the basics out of the way towards my degree. So now I just wait patiently and enjoy the time with my girls. Fall will be here before I know it. Time always flies by at an unrealistic rate for me. I swear I feel like I just graduated high school a couple of years ago but it's been almost 9 years! Yikes! Where does time go?!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Christmas 2008 Pics
Twas the night before Christmas and we had two other girls just as bright eyed as this one! lol
Santa came!
My FAVORITE ornament on the tree this year... Ariel brought this home from Kindergarten her last day before Christmas break!
My babies on Christmas Morning!
No more pictures! Let's open presents!
I couldn't seem to get a "real" smile out of her!
She's not sure what's going on.. but it sure looks fun!
Maybe another reason I couldn't wait to get the tree down? lol
Ariel's "special gift" from Santa... the one she opens first!
Excitement as she opens it!
This is what was inside!! Was someone naughty?!
You gotta love the "What the heck?" expression on her face! Priceless!
My poor sick and tired Clarity.. she did enjoy her Christmas though!
You can see the relief on her face that Santa did bring her some "good stuff"
So happy she got the "Pop-A-Beaver" game! lmao!
The Bounce & Spin Zebra.. another one of Emmalyn's faves!
She LOVES this toy and her baby!
Excuse her face and jammies... she got into some chocolate out of a stocking!
Clarity "helping" Emma.. lol... notice Emmalyn doing a super baby on the floor!
Clarity with the trash mountian of boxes from toys behind herReally, Really, Really
Looking forward to 2009!! And I hope I don't eat my words later for saying that! I'm just looking foward to a "fresh start". This year has had way more downs than ups.. and I'm hoping next year is opposite. A complete opposite! I've taken down my Christmas tree, my decorations are down, and normalcy is returning to my home. Usually I LOVE Christmas and I keep the decorations up for as long as possible. But this year, I just couldn't wait to get it down. Maybe it was because of losing my Grandpa. Maybe it's because it just didn't feel like Christmas. How can you get into a Christmassy mood when you can walk outside and it's in the 60's. Not that I'm complaining about that... oh no... I'm loving our warm weather! Maybe it's because my kids were sick on Christmas. It's probably a bit of everything. Anyhow. It's done. Hopefully next Christmas I'll be back on track... and be in the holiday spirit as long as possible.
I took Clarity to the pediatrician yesterday. On Christmas night she was up all night crying about her throat hurting. The next day.. same deal. Wouldn't eat. Then that night she started spiking 103.5 fevers so I decided to get her in asap. I thought it was strep. No let me rephrase that... I KNEW it was strep. As it turns out I'm not a doctor and her throat actually looked okay... it was her ear causing all the pain. She has a horrendous ear infection in her right ear. Poor kiddo! So here we go... round 2 antibiotics in a month! I swear if my kids don't stop getting sick, I'm going to put them in plastic bubbles. Bubble girls. lol.
We had Grandpa's funeral on Dec. 23rd. Everyone did really well. My Grandma who I was expecting complete melt downs from... held herself together way better than I expected. I think it made it easier that Grandpa didn't look like the Grandpa we were used to. Seeing what a toll the cancer did to him... I think made it easier for us to accept it was his time to go. It was a nice service. As nice as a funeral can get, I think.
Christmas was nice (besides the girls being sick!). They got a lot of great stuff thanks to Grandma, Abu & Uncle Patrick. I've been driving Ariel crazy playing her Nintendo DS.. I even went out and bought myself a game (Sims Castaway). Yeah I probably need my own with as much as I'm using hers! LOL!
Oh and mom got Guitar Hero III for us for Christmas and I LOVE that addicting game! Our sensor thing went out (after two days! gasp!) so I've sent off for another one. They are replacing it for free so it must be a common problem. I wish they would hurry up and send it already... I want to play again!
Other than that... not much more to update! I'll post some more pics soon!
I took Clarity to the pediatrician yesterday. On Christmas night she was up all night crying about her throat hurting. The next day.. same deal. Wouldn't eat. Then that night she started spiking 103.5 fevers so I decided to get her in asap. I thought it was strep. No let me rephrase that... I KNEW it was strep. As it turns out I'm not a doctor and her throat actually looked okay... it was her ear causing all the pain. She has a horrendous ear infection in her right ear. Poor kiddo! So here we go... round 2 antibiotics in a month! I swear if my kids don't stop getting sick, I'm going to put them in plastic bubbles. Bubble girls. lol.
We had Grandpa's funeral on Dec. 23rd. Everyone did really well. My Grandma who I was expecting complete melt downs from... held herself together way better than I expected. I think it made it easier that Grandpa didn't look like the Grandpa we were used to. Seeing what a toll the cancer did to him... I think made it easier for us to accept it was his time to go. It was a nice service. As nice as a funeral can get, I think.
Christmas was nice (besides the girls being sick!). They got a lot of great stuff thanks to Grandma, Abu & Uncle Patrick. I've been driving Ariel crazy playing her Nintendo DS.. I even went out and bought myself a game (Sims Castaway). Yeah I probably need my own with as much as I'm using hers! LOL!
Oh and mom got Guitar Hero III for us for Christmas and I LOVE that addicting game! Our sensor thing went out (after two days! gasp!) so I've sent off for another one. They are replacing it for free so it must be a common problem. I wish they would hurry up and send it already... I want to play again!
Other than that... not much more to update! I'll post some more pics soon!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Recent Pics of the Girls
The three biggest blessings of my life
I'm bias.. but I think they are some of the most adorable girls! 
Okay this parade is getting old...
Emma girl checking out some teddy bears someone in the Christmas parade gave her.. how nice! 
I'm not sure where she got this.. but she was doing a samarai type bow saying "why don't you cook for the master?" and acting like her straw was a sword and bowing her head. Hilarious!! The girl is a total trip!! 
Clarity and "her" kitty... CJ.. doesnt the cat look soo happy? lol
Ariel the drama queen.. but God knows I love her!
My sweet Clarity (well at least she was at this moment)
She's always into some mischief! 
Emmalyn... you are such a mess! But you're oh so cute! lolBehind every dark cloud
There really is a silver lining. Last night I was hit with a wave of sadness unexpectedly. I went into my laundry room and cried until I had a splitting headache... but I tell you it felt GOOD. Well besides the headache. I will say over & over again that my Grandpa is in Heaven and not suffering and I'm happy for that... but darn it... that doesn't stop me from missing him to pieces! And even though I didn't get to see him too often.. just knowing there's that void and he's not there (at least not physically).. hurts.
But God is good. In spite of all this that we're going through.. I got what I consider.. one of the most awesome gifts. My Uncle Mike got in touch with me!! It's been so long since I've heard from him... so seeing that he had made a comment on my blog in my email... wow... it was really something that brightened my day!
I'm probably going to embarrass him here... but he'll get over it :o) But my Uncle Mike was always someone I looked up to sooo much. As a kid, I don't think anyone made me laugh more and I always remember being so excited if we were going to visit my grandmommy & granddaddy and I knew he was going to be there. He was the funnest Uncle... EVER (I'm sure he's always going to hold that title to me!!!)
So God is good. In the midst of dealing with one of the hardest times ever... he has brought one of the people back into my life that means so much... and I'm so happy about that!
But God is good. In spite of all this that we're going through.. I got what I consider.. one of the most awesome gifts. My Uncle Mike got in touch with me!! It's been so long since I've heard from him... so seeing that he had made a comment on my blog in my email... wow... it was really something that brightened my day!
I'm probably going to embarrass him here... but he'll get over it :o) But my Uncle Mike was always someone I looked up to sooo much. As a kid, I don't think anyone made me laugh more and I always remember being so excited if we were going to visit my grandmommy & granddaddy and I knew he was going to be there. He was the funnest Uncle... EVER (I'm sure he's always going to hold that title to me!!!)
So God is good. In the midst of dealing with one of the hardest times ever... he has brought one of the people back into my life that means so much... and I'm so happy about that!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Merry Christmas from God
Have a happy period :o)
%$&#@ !!!!
That's what this house has to look forward to on Christmas Day.
They are already feeling my wrath...
The End
%$&#@ !!!!
That's what this house has to look forward to on Christmas Day.
They are already feeling my wrath...
The End
Saturday, December 20, 2008
As I was making my earlier post...
My grandpa was on his way to Heaven. My mom called just after I posted the pic of him and the girls to tell me he has passed away. I'm a bit numb at the moment... not really feeling much besides a sense of relief that he isn't laying there suffering anymore. Does that make me a bad person? That I'm not completely falling apart? I'm sure it will hit me more at the funeral but for now.. I know he's happy. I know he's in Heaven seeing people he's missed so much since he's been here... my uncle Reid, his parents & some of his siblings... and even people I have no idea about.
We will miss him. No doubt. More than he could ever know. I will cherish the memories and time God let the kids & I have him. And I will be happy for him. Our grief is a selfish thing. We're sad because WE miss them. But if I know my Grandpa, he's having the best time he's ever had cutting up in Heaven. Feeling perfect... in a perfect place.
We will miss him. No doubt. More than he could ever know. I will cherish the memories and time God let the kids & I have him. And I will be happy for him. Our grief is a selfish thing. We're sad because WE miss them. But if I know my Grandpa, he's having the best time he's ever had cutting up in Heaven. Feeling perfect... in a perfect place.
Merry Christmas? Not so much...
I am praying I can make Christmas great for the girls. It's going to be so hard though. The weather here lately, crap. Rain & wind & storms. Dreary. Yuck. But it's actually fitting for what's going on.
I guess it wouldn't bother me so bad if I knew my grandpa was going to be around. I took the girls to visit him the other day and it broke my heart into a million pieces to see him the way he was. He didn't look like grandpa (or paw paw as the girls call him). I won't even go into detail how he looked because I know he wouldn't be happy about that. He wouldn't want me to remember him that way. So I'm going to try to remember the happy guy with a great sense of humor that had this laugh that could make you laugh with him. It's hard to think that the other day was probably the last time I'll see him until it's my turn to go be with God. I'm glad I went. To be honest I was avoiding it because I was afraid. I didn't know what I would say. I didn't know what to expect. And honestly it was the same when I was there. I didn't know what to say. I was kind of nervous. But at least I got to kiss him and tell him I loved him... at least the girls got to do the same... and at least he got to tell us back.
It's going to be hard when he does go on to Heaven. But I do know one thing... he won't be hurting anymore. That's about the only thing that gives me comfort. He's stubborn and won't take much for the pain, but you can tell he hurts. He has to be.
Cancer. It sucks. It sucks big. I'm praying one day we find a cure for that garbage. So not one more person has to suffer. It's horrible & it's not fair & no one should ever have to go through it.
Yeah this post is depressing. I'm going to stop now.
I guess it wouldn't bother me so bad if I knew my grandpa was going to be around. I took the girls to visit him the other day and it broke my heart into a million pieces to see him the way he was. He didn't look like grandpa (or paw paw as the girls call him). I won't even go into detail how he looked because I know he wouldn't be happy about that. He wouldn't want me to remember him that way. So I'm going to try to remember the happy guy with a great sense of humor that had this laugh that could make you laugh with him. It's hard to think that the other day was probably the last time I'll see him until it's my turn to go be with God. I'm glad I went. To be honest I was avoiding it because I was afraid. I didn't know what I would say. I didn't know what to expect. And honestly it was the same when I was there. I didn't know what to say. I was kind of nervous. But at least I got to kiss him and tell him I loved him... at least the girls got to do the same... and at least he got to tell us back.
It's going to be hard when he does go on to Heaven. But I do know one thing... he won't be hurting anymore. That's about the only thing that gives me comfort. He's stubborn and won't take much for the pain, but you can tell he hurts. He has to be.
Cancer. It sucks. It sucks big. I'm praying one day we find a cure for that garbage. So not one more person has to suffer. It's horrible & it's not fair & no one should ever have to go through it.
Yeah this post is depressing. I'm going to stop now.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Congratulations to Tanedra!!!
In case you have no clue what I'm talking about... lol... I've been following Scream Queens (a show on Vh1) for a few weeks now. The winner of the show gets to be in the Saw VI movie. The girls in the above pic are Tanedra (left) and Lindsay. These two were my faves. Lindsay was actually the one I was really pulling for but I'm very happy with Tanedra winning! What impresses me about her is she has had zero training as an actress. She just has natural talent (and believe me.. this girl is something else!). I admit, I cried when she won. She is very deserving of this. She tried so hard and when they announced her as the winner, she just cried & cried. If I'm not mistaken even one of the male judges got teary eyed. I look forward to seeing her in the new Saw movie. The judges picked the right girl... if a girl named Michelle had won (she was so full of herself it was unbelievable), I wasn't going to watch the new Saw movie period. lol.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sickos
No, this isn't a rant about perverts... lol.. I'm talking about my kids. Well actually they aren't too sick anymore. After a doctor visit and a few days of antibiotics, they are on the mend. I decided to take them in last Friday & I'm so glad I did. Even though I felt kind of silly taking them in for a cough and runny noses, it turns out my gut was right, and they needed to be checked out. Emmalyn had a double ear infection and Clarity was well on her way. I have to say Emma is the best baby with ear infections ever. She has hardly cried. She has tugged on her ears here and there and fussed a bit at night but nothing too major. The doctor was even impressed because she said her ears were pretty darn red and fluid filled. She had just had her well child check a few days before and her ears were fine. So this happened really fast. All the drainage from a virus just led to infections. yuck.
I had to call Poison Control on miss Clarity on Saturday. I dozed on the couch (I have not been getting too much sleep at night during all this virus stuff) and when I woke up, I found Emma's antibiotics opened up and some spilled on the floor. I ask Clarity if she drank any and she smiles. when they do this, it is not good. I couldn't tell how much she had drank so I called and they kept asking me "well how much?" I had no idea! I mean I had spilled some that morning, there was another spill, I had given Emma doses... so I just guessed worst case scenario and she wasn't even close to the toxic level.. THANK GOD. This kid will be the end of me. I swear it. After I hung up, I wanted to double check so I guesstimated (on the low end) the two spills.. and then emptied out all the antibiotics into a bowl. I accounted for the amount I had given Emmalyn. All in all we were only missing like 20 ml or something like that and I'm sure most of it was spilled. I'm glad the girls don't mind the tasty antibiotics but come on Clarity. How she got the childproof lid off I will never know. I don't think she'll do this again. Between me yelling and threatening to take her to the hospital where they would make her throw up all night long... I think I put the fear of God in her about it. I sure hope so.I'll let Emma finish what she has left then I'll call the doctor and say I spilled it to get a bit of a refill so she can finish. I don't want to tell them the truth.. lol.
Well tonight is the Waynesville Christmas parade. I'll be taking the girls and I hope it's good. It will give me a chance to use the early Christmas present I got for myself. I found a black Friday deal online at Office Max. I got a Nikon Coolpix P60 for $119. Pretty sweet deal! It's not the pretty pink one I had my eyes on but I'm very happy with it!
I had to call Poison Control on miss Clarity on Saturday. I dozed on the couch (I have not been getting too much sleep at night during all this virus stuff) and when I woke up, I found Emma's antibiotics opened up and some spilled on the floor. I ask Clarity if she drank any and she smiles. when they do this, it is not good. I couldn't tell how much she had drank so I called and they kept asking me "well how much?" I had no idea! I mean I had spilled some that morning, there was another spill, I had given Emma doses... so I just guessed worst case scenario and she wasn't even close to the toxic level.. THANK GOD. This kid will be the end of me. I swear it. After I hung up, I wanted to double check so I guesstimated (on the low end) the two spills.. and then emptied out all the antibiotics into a bowl. I accounted for the amount I had given Emmalyn. All in all we were only missing like 20 ml or something like that and I'm sure most of it was spilled. I'm glad the girls don't mind the tasty antibiotics but come on Clarity. How she got the childproof lid off I will never know. I don't think she'll do this again. Between me yelling and threatening to take her to the hospital where they would make her throw up all night long... I think I put the fear of God in her about it. I sure hope so.I'll let Emma finish what she has left then I'll call the doctor and say I spilled it to get a bit of a refill so she can finish. I don't want to tell them the truth.. lol.
Well tonight is the Waynesville Christmas parade. I'll be taking the girls and I hope it's good. It will give me a chance to use the early Christmas present I got for myself. I found a black Friday deal online at Office Max. I got a Nikon Coolpix P60 for $119. Pretty sweet deal! It's not the pretty pink one I had my eyes on but I'm very happy with it!
I better publish this post now. Thank God blogger saves your progress.. my sweet monkey Emma has crawled under my computer desk and hit the surge protector twice on me shutting the computer off. So while she's occupied wrecking havoc elsewhere.. lol.. I'll use this as my chance to post :o)
Saturday, December 6, 2008
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