We'll just forget about Yesterday

It was horrible! Both of the girls have been battling diarrhea (Ariel longer than Clarity) but they aren't complaining. No change in appetite, no stomach aches, they just run about their lives and go potty when they have to without incident. I guess it's a tummy bug and we're just waiting it out. Ariel ended up taking a broom to her sister's head (have no idea why!) and Clarity got a huge bump and bruise. I lost it on poor Ariel. I yelled and screamed and scared myself how mad and out of control I felt. I wanted to call the cops to take me away. Thank God Ariel is forgiving. After I cooled off (I just had to leave the room), I apologized (and cried) for how I acted with her. I was feeling so blessed guilty about it the rest of the day and night that I prayed to God if I ever felt that again, that he would just let me die of a heart attack or something because she didn't deserve to see me psychotic. All is good in Ariel and Mommy world now though. We've been sharing lots of hugs, kisses and love. I explained to her that mommy's make mistakes too and just like she shouldn't go being mean to her sister, it was wrong of me to go and be mean to her. She understood, apolgized and kissed Clarity and then gave me kisses and said she was always going to love me *sniff*. I told her she will never have any idea how much I love her and her sister. So that's the main reason for my title "We'll just forget about yesterday".

I *think* I have it too but I'm just riding the nausea roller coaster with it. Constantly feeling the need to be sick. I actually PRAY it's a virus because the virus will go away. I was doing fine with the whole morning sickness thing for a while and I had just bragged to Jesse about how good it felt to just wake up and feel like a normal person. Hopefully I didn't jinx myself. The past few days my stomach has felt horrid.

On a bright note... we got approved for financing for our furniture!! So by the end of the month we will have a new couch, recliner, loveseat, and dining room table. I'm sooo happy. Right now our furniture situation is sad and pathetic. lol. I do, however, need to find a way to help Jesse bring in income. I'm so tired of constantly struggling and having to use credit cards. So I'm going to try to make up some flyers or something and babysit from home that way I can still homeschool Ariel (which we have started a bit and she's doing beautifully by the way) and be home with the girls. Hopefully I can find a way to at least bring in $300 a week. If anyone has any ideas.. let me know! Any prayers you care to send up for us would be great and appreciated too!

Our Anniversary!

Today Jesse and I have been married for four years! It's hard to believe we've already been back together for six and if you count the time we were together before our break up.. we've been together for nine and friends for almost 11. It's neat to reflect back and realize I ended up marrying a guy I've known since I was 14. When we broke up I had full intentions of never speaking to him again but funny how God has a very different plan for you life than you do for yourself. Instead of not talking to him again, I drove up to Virginia and moved in with him, we had a daughter, got married, had another daughter and are now expecting our third baby. Life is just full of surprises!

He has to work today and he'll probably end up home late since he's working out of town, so nothing special planned here. I'll have him dinner ready when he gets home and we'll probably get everyone in bed and watch a movie together. As long as I get to spend time with him, I'll be happy.

Yesterday we spent most of the day at home. Jesse washed the truck and we let the girls play outside. Then we went out and looked at new furniture for hours. We found the couch, loveseat and recliner we want and we also found the dining table we want. Not sure when we'll get them but at least we know what we want and when we're ready we can go for it. I really hope it's soon because we desperately need new furniture! Then we went and Ariel and I got our hair cut. We both cut A LOT off. lol. I'll have to get pics. After that we did some grocery shopping and came home. Again a busy "day off" for Jesse! lol.

I do want to mention that yesterday was a sad anniversary. One of my best friends from high school lost her sixteen month old daughter, Jenna, three years ago yesterday. I think of Jenna often and I think of her parents and brothers and just pray for peace for them. I know it's been three years, but it still has to be so hard. I can't even imagine. So Jenna... I love you baby!

A day with Grandma and Paw Paw

So yesterday my parents came and picked myself and the girls up and took us over to spend the day with my grandparents. We stopped at KFC and picked up some lunch to take over.

The girls had a blast. Grandma and Paw Paw have a mini farm. Basically it's a bunch of dogs and some horses. lol. Ariel loved feeding the horses... it made me kind of nervous but she wasn't scared a bit and I'm sure the horses loved getting some carrots and hay from her. Clarity liked to look, but she was on the cautious side. For once! hehe.

Grandpa (paw paw) looked good. His weight is good and he had his wonderful sense of humor going so he must've felt pretty good too. He kept chasing Clarity around with the "little man" (his two fingers he made walk at her). She would run and kind of smile.. she wasn't sure about it at first but then she thought it was funny. Clarity also had fun teasing paw paw with cake. He would ask her if he could have a piece of hers and she would grab a bite (I seriously thought she was going to give it to him) and instead shove it in her mouth and just look at him like "ha! no way!". He would just crack up over that. I think Grandma and Paw Paw (as well as Grandma and Abu.. my parents) loved spending the day with the kids. We all had fun.

Feeding the horses!

Happy Labor Day!

Most of you probably have the day off and are enjoying a nice, long weekend. Wish it were the same for Jesse! The poor guy works 6 days a week, over 10-12 hours a day, and they can't let him have a holiday off?! He just left for work (it's 5:45 am) and he's absolutely exhausted. He's so ready for his day off which is tomorrow and his manager sent him an email asking if he wanted to work it. Is she crazy? I mean seriously. lol. Tomorrow I'm going to cater to his every whim. I'm going to let him sleep in as late as he wants, give him breakfast in bed, and be as nice as possible. He works so blessed hard so I can be a stay at home mom and I'm so thankful for him. I truly love him with every fiber of my being. Now more than ever.

Those were some pretty cute pics I posted, huh? I FINALLY got to see my cousin's baby boy on Friday. He's six weeks old and such a tiny little thing.. only 7 lbs! Clarity weighed that much at birth so I was shocked to see a bitty baby. I guess my girls were brutes! lol. He's absolutely precious. Ariel was a bit bent out of shape by him, I think. I think between him and Clarity she's worried we don't love her as much as we used to, which couldn't be farther from the truth but hard to explain that to a four year old! As I was holding Brandon and talking to him, Ariel crossed her arms and said, "I'm not talking to you anymore mama!" and walked off. Little drama queen! Thank God for my aunt Linda taking her and talking to her. I think that made Ariel feel tons better. I have to admit holding Brandon, I got sooo excited about our baby and it made the "I want a boy" feeling even stronger.

After visiting with my grandparents, seeing Aunt Linda, Heather and Brandon.. mom, dad, the girls, and I went to Fire's Creek. That's where the pictures of Ariel and her "water slide" were from. She loves going there! The girls had a blast. We weren't there very long because it got really cloudy and started thundering and raining, but they had fun while it lasted!

Sorry I haven't been doing much on here for the past few days. I had a couple of days there where I was suffering from nausea 24/7. A constant seasick feeling. It was horrible! I didn't get sick but always felt like I could at any given moment. Yesterday was a great day and today has been good so far (6 am here, I've been up since like 3 am so I guess I'd better go catch up on some sleep before the girls wake up!). Hopefully when I get up for the day, I'll feel great still. Pray so! Today mom is coming to pick me and the girls up and taking us to see my grandparents. Ariel loves to see her grandma and paw paw!

Hopefully I'll have some more pics to share!

Goodnight everyone.. or should I say.. good morning. Hope you all have a blessed day!

First some pics! Then some blogging...

The things I cherish

So this post will most likely be sappy as all get out. I just wanted to make a list of all the things my girls do that make my heart melt and things I'll always cherish, reguardless whether they grow out of them or not :o)

*Ariel using my hair as a security blanket. She's been doing this for years.. whenever she needs comfort she lays behind me and just twirls or strokes my hair. She'll wake up from a sound sleep come up next to me and say "I want to play with your hair" and just cuddle up closely and do so until she falls asleep.
*Clarity's story time. She'll grab a book or brochure and sit there and "read" to me. Just jabbering away pointing at the pictures or words. It's so precious. I'll ask her questions about her story and she'll just beam with a smile and tell me all about it.
*Ariel's poems and songs. They can be so sweet or absurdly silly. They usually always rhyme which I find very impressive for someone her age. Hearing her little voice singing me something she made up on her own... I can't help but smile.
*Clarity's version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. I dont think she sings any of the words.. again just her own little jibberish but the melody is perfect and I love to listen to it. Too cute.
*The girls dancing to songs together. They're so funny!
*Clarity playing "Where's the baby".. our little version of peekaboo. We also love to play this game where we hide our faces and do the theme of jaws in a dah-dah-dah sound and she just squeals everytime.
*Their cuddles and kisses. I am so blessed in the fact that both of my babies are just so affectionate. There is nothing I love more than a kiss, hug or I love you that comes out of nowhere.
* The smiles and laughter they share as they play together. I love sitting on the outside looking into their own little world as they giggle over something they only know. It's wonderful to see their friendship grow everyday.
*Ariel's passion for dinosaurs. Wow does she love those things. I can't wait to see what kind of passions Clarity has as she gets up in toddlerhood.

So now I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes thanking God for his blessings and all the little moments I get to share with these two angels on earth. I pray for his protection over them and that I have a lifetime to watch them learn and discover and grow into the beautiful people he has destined them to be.

Such a proud mommy!

I can't even tell you how proud I am of our Ariel! Tonight when we were in walmart I was looking for some earrings and found some clip ons to try on Miss Ariel. Well I told her how beautiful they were and we got on the subject of getting her ears pierced for real. It took some convincing, but she decided to do it. As I'm doing the paperwork, it's time to get her out of the cart and she becomes a dead weight. lol. She kept telling us she'd do it tomorrow. After I explained to her that it would only hurt for a minute and that we had already done the papers, she let her daddy take her out and hold her. She didn't cry! At all! Such a big girl.. I'm so impressed! Her face got all red after they did the second one but she held it together. I think it was more from relief that it was over than the actual pain.

Today was a freakin non stop busy day. Jesse's only day off and we spent it running errands for hours. Grocery shopping, going to lowe's, going to the bank, the post office.. etc etc. I feel so bad for him he only gets one day off a week and most of the time we spend it doing anything but letting him relax. It's getting late, I have to brush the girls teeth and get them into bed. I bought some unisom so hopefully it will work for me like it did for Misty. I hate waking up wondering if I will make it through the day without being sick.

Oh yeah one more thing. Miss Clarity got stung by something today on her hand. Not sure if it was a yellow jacket or what but she it got swollen for a bit and she really cried. Of course I was a nervous wreck praying to God we wouldn't have an allergic reaction and we went straight to walmart to grab some benadryl. Luckily we didn't have to give her any and she seems perfectly fine now. *whew* what a day!

Below is the pic from Clarity's icing episode. lol.

I'm just a little black rain cloud...

Or a big one... lol... hovering over the Moore family. Ugh. That's so what it seems like lately. That we have this massive cloud hanging over our heads and it just won't leave us alone.

Jesse's job is being terrible lately. I'm talking really bad. They just gave everyone a huge paycut. Where he was making $20 and $35 for out of area service he now makes $5 and $20! Rediculous. That barely covers the gas the boy has to put in the tank to go there. Then he gets his check today. And oh boy were we in for a surprise. Not a good one either. They never mentioned to him he had to fill out on RA Form on certain jobs. So he hasn't. Well now they are giving him chargebacks for this. We have to pay $60 (when the job only paid around $35 or 40 so isn't it ironic.. we are paying his company for him to work). God only knows how many more of these we'll end up paying for but we know better now. A little late. His $950 paycheck got cut down to $600. Between that chargeback, the stupid insurance where they take 10% of his check a week (I told him tomorrow we are getting his own insurance.. the amount the company takes is unreal and they never even gave him proof he has general liability), and the supplies he had to purchase. God what a mess. All the techs for that company are about fed up and wanting to quit. I'm going to contact dish directly and see what it would take for Jesse to work for them directly and get rid of this money grubbing middle man. So pray for us. We could really use it.

On a happier note, we got approved for a $6,000 line of credit (I have no idea how we got this with our cards being as maxxed out as they are) but I'm thankful. This will let me consolidate all of our credit cards onto one bill.. no more juggling 7 credit card payments at a time. So this should help and it will clear our cards and should help raise our score back up. So that's always a nice thing to happen.

I hate sounding like a woe is me person. I'm very thankful for what we have. It's been a long, difficult road since dealing with his dad again but we're going to come out of it okay. I have faith we will. Maybe I'm not praying enough or trusting God enough lately. Maybe this is all just the devil's way of trying to get me to doubt. I can't let that happen. I have to remain positive and faithful. It's the only hope I have.

I keep having dreams about Jesse's dad. We all know how much I love him.. lol. He's haunting me and I'm not sure why. I try to keep him as far from my thoughts as possible. The last thing in the world I want to see in my dreams is that jerk.

I did have a wonderful dream about going on a vacation to Hawaii last night. It was so nice and it's making me have a desire to go someday. So instead of Jesse and I paying to renew our vows and have a wedding ceremony, which we never did, I'm going to convince him that I'd rather us save up and take a great vacation like that in the next few years! That would definately beat a wedding in my eyes.

Oh and to end this long, probably boring entry on a good note. I won three Six Flags Georgia tickets off ebay last night for $50! woohoo! So Jesse and I are going to take the girls probably in the next few weeks (or maybe in October when the park doesnt close until 10 pm) to Six Flags to celebrate Jesse and Clarity's birthdays. We need to have some fun like that, desperately. I'm so excited and already counting down!

OMG this is painful!

This is a video from Miss Teen Usa. I feel sorry for the girl because that is the dumbest answer I've ever heard. I'm not sure if she was just nervous, didn't understand the question, or what, but goodness is her answer way off base. I'm not sure what South Africa, Iraq and Asian countries have to do with why 1/5 of Americans can't find their country on a map (and this shocks me, I hope the poll was thrown by people being funny. I'd hate to think there are really Americans that don't know what the United States looks like on a map but that's a whole different post). LOL. Thoughts?

Did I mention?

Yesterday

was a lot of fun! The girls and I cleaned up the house and later in the day, my parents came over. We all (Jesse included.. he actually got home from work in time to go out with us) jumped in our truck and went and grabbed the pizza buffet at downtown pizza. It felt sooo good to actually be able to pig out. And must I say their chocolate chip pizza is the bomb? I didn't totally eat unhealthy.. I did have salad too. Misty I'm so sorry if you're reading this and your tummy is doing flip flops! I'll stop talking about food now!

After that we took the girls to Fire's Creek. The water level there showed how much of a drought we've been in. It was unreal how little water and flow there was but guess what. It was perfect for the girls to play in! Usually the water is like ice and it kills to even step in for a few seconds, but I guess since there wasn't a lot of it, the sun was actually able to warm it up. The girls had a blast. My dad (whom Ariel has called Abu since she was a baby and the name has stuck) was the only one that waded in their with them. Jesse would walk on the rocks and take Ariel around to see stuff while dad handled Clarity, and mom and I watched. The only downside of staying on the shore was dealing with the gazillion gnats that for some reason found eyes very attractive and wanted to swarm into them. ugh. Dad said him and the girls had no problems in the water. It must have been a sight.. me, mom and Jesse constantly waving our arms in front of our faces. lol. But it was fun and the girls loved it. I should have taken my camera, but I'm sure we'll be going back soon before cooler weather arrives, and I'll be sure to take plenty of pics!

Let me just mention what a softie my mother is. Ariel calls her on the phone before she comes over and tells her grandma to please bring her some birthday cake ice cream and a movie with a dinosaur in it. So what does mom do? She shows up with some Edy's cake flavored ice cream and the movie "night at the museum". Dad made fun of her saying "I need a new car. Can you bring me a new car?" in a little Ariel voice. Of course it didn't work for him ;o) So silly!

I can't believe it's been so long

Since I posted in here. This past week hasn't been too hot. I've gotten sick a couple of times and it sucked because I thought this was over. This one has got to be a boy. It's being a pain in the rear already! I'm just kidding.

I found myself feeling "in love" with this baby last night which is actually the first time I've felt any real connection with it. To be honest this pregnancy hasn't even seemed real up until now, and it still has moments where I'm thinking, "Is this really happening?". But I had a dream I lost it and woke up heartbroken. I mean devestated. So this new little addition is making their way into our family and hearts already. Jesse, I think, is beside himself. He seems so excited. He's ready for me to feel better but he's just happy. He rubs my tummy everyday and asks how our son is doing. lol. But I know he'd be just as thrilled with another little girl. I think the idea of not finding out what it is has grown on him. Just having that element of it being such a surprise is so exciting for us this time around.

So as much of a surprise as this pregnancy was, as sick as I've been, I'm grateful. I know God must have a plan for this little one and I know how much I love being mama to Ariel and Clarity, so there's room for another. The love will definately be there. Jesse and I have always wanted a big family and I think a family of five is perfect :o)

It's been two weeks

Appearently my body doesn't feel done getting sick! I so thought I was over this mess but today I just didn't feel right at all. Thank God I decided to hang out in the bathroom "just in case" for a few minutes, if I had been anywhere else.. that would have been major trouble. lol. Ugh its nearly 1 PM and I still can't figure out anything to eat. The thought of going through what I did earlier gives me the chills. YUCK!

On the bright side.. at least Jesse is not going out of town anymore. He told his manager this morning, that he didn't want to do it anymore. They still hadn't found him a room so he could change his mind. THANK GOD. I really need him home.

Lord help me remember my kids are complete blessings and they dont drive me crazy ALL the time... that it's my body feeling like crap and it has nothing to do with them. Help me to have more patience, be more loving, and never take them for granted.

Feeling a bit off

I can't believe I haven't typed an entry in a few days. I've just been feeling blah. I find if I can sleep in until around 10 and then wake right up and eat breakfast, I'm fine. However, if something wakes me up bright and early, I feel sick for the entire day no matter what I do. Weird.

The past few days have been a blur. Yesterday we did end up taking the girls to the park, something we havnen't done in ages it seems. They had a blast swinging, sliding and running around. They were the only two there, I can understand why, it was HOT. We only let them play for about 20 minutes or so. When I realized their little faces were turning red, we left.

Jesse finds out for sure if he's going to work in Tri-Cities for a week. I swear this has been the most disorganized fiasco! He was supposed to leave today and we got an email yesterday saying they couldn't find him a hotel room (along with the other guys going) so they all would have today to spend with their families and leave tomorrow. However, I looked up rooms because the thought of the girls and I going did cross my mind but they are all booked up the entire week! I found out why. There are three nascar races at Bristol this week. So I highly doubt they are going to find the guys rooms. I guess I'll find out tomorrow if I see Jesse tomorrow evening or next week. He's already missed a day of work over this so we're aggrivated that they can't get their stuff together. They should have been finding the guys rooms like weeks ago when they asked them if they would go or not!

Clarity drove me absolutely nuts last night. She must have woke me up every half hour. I was going crazy and literally begging her to go to sleep. Now she's grumpy and wanting to sleep all day. Gah. You've got to be kidding me. Needless to say my stomach feels turned inside out today.

Thank God Ariel has been a princess!

Well that was endearing.. for a minute!

Here it is an hour after I said I was getting ready to go to bed! lol. So I turn around to get up and start heading that way when I notice a little white person standing in front of me. Not your typical caucasian look though.. I'm talking REALLY white. That's when I realize Clarity has managed to get into the vanilla confetti frosting we had for our cupcakes! The kid must have used it for lotion.. lol.. It was caking her arms, legs, tummy, etc. And she was naked! I snap a pic (just one as my stupid camera batteries were dead and wouldn't let me get any others. I guess I should consider myself lucky I got one) and I have a few giggles. Then I get her and Ariel into the bath and leave the bathroom door open while I clean up the frosting all over the kitchen, down the hallway and into the living room. Thank God we don't have carpet and thank God Ariel is such a big girl and keeps an eye on Clarity while I get the mess taken care of. So now both of the girls have had yet another bath tonight, their teeth are brushed, and I REALLY AM going to bed now :o) Night night!

So Tired!

This will probably be a pretty short entry because I am absolutely wiped out! It was a good day.. got a lot done. I cleaned my kitchen, swept and scrubbed my floors, picked up, did laundry. I finally feel like I'm getting back into the swing of life!

The girls were great today! Clarity is such a monkey, I'm so surprised we haven't made a trip to the ER yet *knock on wood*. The kid climbs on to whatever she can and then just leaps off. She'll fall on the floor and just laugh. Scares me to death sometimes! Ariel was always a very cautious toddler, so we're dealing with a completely different realm here.

The girls went and played outside for a while after their daddy got home. They rode their little bikes down the hill (again scaring mommy to death). They were flying! lol. After a while, we brought them inside and baked cupcakes together.

Now it's already after 10:30 and my eyes are wanting to shut on me. I've still got to get two little ones teeth brushed and climb into bed and as Ariel says "Dont forget our night night prayers".

Ariel's Paw Paw

I'm not sure if he knows this, but paw paw is the world in Ariel's eyes. We haven't seen him in three weeks and although we should see him more often, especially now more than ever, I'm afraid to. He's been on Chemo and radiation for the mass in his lung for about a month now. I just heard from my mom today that he missed chemo yesterday due to passing out at home. They gave him Iv fluids because he was dehydrated and they've also found out he's anemic. Mom said he's kind of frail right now, so I haven't been taking the girls over. I'm not sure if he feels up to their hyperness. Although it might make his day to see them, I'm not sure. I just remember seeing my Uncle Reid in the weeks before his death (not that my Grandpa is in the same boat) and he just looked so different from the healthy uncle I used to know. It terrified me and I couldn't find any words to say to him. I guess I'm afraid of going through those same feelings about my grandpa. I'm praying hard that when this chemo and radiation is over they find that the cancer is gone. I just wish life was back to normal for him.. for all of us. I love my grandpa soooo much and I know the girls do to, especially Ariel. So say some prayers please :o) It would mean the world to us.

Irritable

I feel kind of bad, but today I'm feeling really irritable. I think mainly it's because I have a wisdom tooth that has come through most of the way and has never bothered me until now. A big gash has been rubbed against my cheek behind the tooth so everytime I take a bite or even talk, I get this throbbing pain on the left side of my face. Gah! We bought me some canker sore stuff at walmart tonight so I'm hoping that will allow it to heal and I can just get back to normal. Jesse's so right, I should have gotten my wisdom teeth taken care of before when I had dental insurance but for one my orthodontis told me they would most likely never come in by the looks of the x-rays and for another I'm scared to death of having it done! Now I would in a second if I could. lol. Live and learn!

The girls have been semi difficult today. Not sure if that's just my interpretation because I don't feel well, probably. Ariel has really been going off at the mouth and Clarity has been in "I dont want to listen to you" mode. But they're their own little people and we all have our days. I'm sure my attitude is rubbing off on them so I'm partially to blame. Thank God Jesse was home from work today. He helped tremendously with them. He filled up their pool and let them play out in it (I've been meaning to do this all week so I'm glad it finally got done). The girls had a blast and looked soooo cute in their little bathing suits! He also fixed us all lunch and even though we've had a few bicker moments (again probably mainly because of me), I'm so glad he was here.

The girls and I ended up spending another night in the guest room upstairs. Ariel begged to try and see more shooting stars. I told her they were probably done and we wouldn't see any but I gladly went up with her to "make sure". Of course the moment we look outside we see one! She was all "I told you mama! I told you". So the three of us laid down yet again and crashed out. So she has seen a shooting star everynight for the past three nights in a row. She thinks that's just awesome.. and so do I.

Blast from the Past

Completely missing these guys today! Savage Garden... *sigh*. How great were they? I know I adored them (and still do). I started downloading their music today and it's amazing how music can evoke emotions and memories you had long stored away. Savage Garden takes me back to high school, to the immature relationship I had with Jesse, to the days where my biggest care in the world was getting a car and getting the heck out of high school. I never did get to see Darren Hayes and Daniel Jones in concert and I'm feeling sad about that today. Not rediculous sad.. lol... just kind of "awww".. But it's okay. Life goes on and old memories are replaced by better ones. At this point, my life is a 180 change from what it was then. I'm a wife, a mother, an adult... and even though I go through more difficult challenges now, I wouldn't change it for the world.

About the meteor shower last night, it was nice! The girls and I went up to our guest bedroom on the third floor and opened up the sliding glass door and put an air mattress next to it so we could lay there and look at the stars without actually being completely outside. It was actually kind of chilly last night so I'm glad we had a nice place to lay and cover up with. Ariel just kept saying "This is the best! Thank you mama". Her being that excited and so thankful for us sharing that moment together made my night. If we hadn't seen one shooting star, we still would have loved it! I think Ariel did get to see one before she crashed out. I saw maybe 10 or 15. I kept drifting in and out of sleep too. It's hard not to when you've got your two cuddle bugs sleeping right next to you! I swear they are like little tranquilizers. lol. It was a special moment, just laying up there in the dark watching the sky with my two angels next to me. Something I'm going to tuck away in my mind and cherish for the rest of my life.

I'm having another good day! Energy is coming back and I have the desire to actually do something besides lay around and feel bad! I never did finish up cleaning yesterday, we ended up taking a trip to Walmart (fun fun) instead. So I guess I'll do the cleaning today while the girls eat lunch. Then I'll try to get their pool ready and let them swim. I never did do this the toher day, we had some thunderstorms so that disappointed Ariel, but maybe today things will work out!

Shooting Star Day!

Wow it's one of those gorgeous Sundays! The sun is out in full force (although it is HOT, it's pretty). I woke up kind of sick this morning.. not too bad at all. Ate a couple of dum dums and then felt well enough to start eating food and drinking sweet tea, and all is fine now! Yay.. makes my day even more beautiful!

I'm about to scrub my floors in a minute, then take my precious little girls out to play. They've been so good so far. Eating their food (always wonderful when we don't have food wars), playing together, and being silly. So they deserve to have some fun that doesn't involve watching Sesame Street. lol.

I'm sure you're wondering about the title of this blog. That is what Ariel has declared today. Shooting Star Day! We have a meteor shower that is supposed to peak around midnight tonight and Ariel is super duper excited because I told her we can go lay on the deck together and watch. I pray it's clear! Every year, it has been cloudy and I have never seen an actual meteor shower. Especially one that is supposed to be as good as this one is.

We stepped out on the deck last night right before bed to see if we could catch a glimpse of one and sure enough, we all did! A huge, bright one went streaking slowly across the sky right above our heads. Ariel saw her very first shooting star on August 11th! She was so in awe and of course I was too. I always am when I catch one. There is something so magical to me about them. Like it makes me realize just how much more there is to this universe then the world around me. It just kind of makes me sit back and say "WOW!" . It gives me an almost spiritual feeling, like when I see one, I just see God. I know, it's weird, I can't explain it. But I love them and I remember all the time when I was little I'd ask God if he heard my prayers to let me see one. Of course most of the time, I didn't, but I understood God is a very busy man. lol.

Well I should go and get my house all cleaned. I'm finding I have much more energy to do so now, so I'm running out of excuses! I have a roast and veggies in the crockpot and the whole house smells of it. I can't wait until it's done.. it sounds so good to me right now! I'll be back on later to write about how our Shooting Star Night went...praying it's amazing!

A Happy Day!

I must've gotten all of the sadness out of my system yesterday, thank goodness. Today has been a pretty great one!

For one I actually woke up and felt *gasp shall I say it* fine! Not one horrible wave of nausea and it was soooo nice. I'm not holding my breath that the worst is over because I've thought that before, but on the days when I get a break, I revel in it!

The girls were absolutely precious today. Just being good and sweet. Ariel had a few defiant moments that about drove me crazy.. but that girl has a way of cracking me up and making me forget all about it in a matter of minutes. She has a gift that way!

A funny Clarity story. Today she comes walking in the room with me holding my cell "talking" into it. After a second I realize my mom is on there. I can hear mom asking, "Clarity where is mama?" Clarity points to me and says, "mama there". So I hear mom asking Clarity to give mama the phone and Clarity is all "my mama. nah!" and just cracking up. Then she tells my mom "buh bye" and hangs up. I was rolling! After a minute to compose myself, I called my mom back. I'm so bad.. the whole time I knew my mom was calling to talk to me but I didn't have the heart to make Claire give me the phone. I was enjoying watching her be a pain! hehe.

My parents came over to see the girls today. They had fun. Mom and Ariel played outside spraying eachother with the hose and of course Jesse, Clarity and I were out there too. Clarity hates being sprayed.. lol. She cried so she hung out with me for the most part since I'm not a fan of it either! But we all had fun. It was a nice day.

Clarity is crashed out in my lap (Love that she still needs to snuggle). Ariel is still going strong riding her sister's tricycle in the house. lol. If I only had half the energy that kid does, I'd be great!

I still managed to keep the fact that I'm pregnant from my parents. Jesse said he's surprised the way I pigged out on the Taco Bell didnt tip them off. I ate three tacos and a burrito in a sitting. I was hungry! lmao. I'm so hoping I can get an ultrasound snd put it in a card and surprise them that way. They are gonna die.. lol. Everytime dad comes over he says I have my hands full and he's glad I'm young to deal with the girls. He's probably going to pass out at the thought of a third one!

Well Jesse and I aren't the only reproductive ones in the house. Our fish have had babies. We thought there was only two babies but we've found more. Like who knows how many more. lol. They are so tiny that they are about invisible. It will be interesting to see if they make it and how many fish we end up with. We may have to get a bigger tank!

Sad Thoughts and Memories

Everything just seems to be getting me down today. Yesterday I visited Miles Levin's carepage for the first time. Of course it had to say he was on his way home. 18 years old.. life cut tragically short. Yet him and his family are at peace and aren't bitter about everything as I'm sure, knowing me, would be. As I read his posts, I realized this was no ordinary 18 year old. He's definately wise beyond his years and has a real legacy to leave when he's gone. I'll be praying for him and his family.

I also read about another family on one of the message boards I go to that just discovered their small son has a tumor in his brain the size of a grape. I don't know any other details but we're all praying hard that it's something that is able to be surgically removed and he'll be just fine. My thoughts are on this family in a heavy way.. I just can't imagine going through something like that.

Another thing that has been on my mind is this is the time of year that marks the anniversary of the deaths of Jesse's sister (well step sister but he considered her his sister) and one of my friends from high school. They died within a week of eachother in 2000. Crystal was 13 but had the mind of a five or six year old. She was so innocent and special. She was so happy and loving. I remember once Jesse and I had a huge argument at his house and I was sitting in her room crying. She walked in and gave me the biggest hug and said "It's okay. I love you". That was so Crystal. Always giving hugs and letting everyone know she cared about them. The last time I saw Crystal she asked me if I had any M&Ms (her favorite). I told her no but I promised her I'd bring her a pack the next time I went to visit (Jesse and I had broken up so I didnt see Crystal much anymore). Unfortunately that visit came too late. When I heard about the accident (She had been playing in her dad's suburban and somehow put the truck in neutral and it rolled backwards. She freaked out and tried to jump out and ended up getting run over and pinned against a tree). I fell apart. I beat myself up over not taking her those M&M's. Her dad had a bowl of them at her funeral for everyone to take some and toss in her grave, but it didn't help me feel better. Some days I want to smack myself for always assuming that someone will be there when I "get around to it".

Sara was my best friend in middle school. She was the first friend I ever made when I moved here to Murphy and we stuck together like glue, until high school. Then she made new friends, I made new friends and we weren't as close. We still hung out from time to time but things were different. We just hung out with two different groups of people. She was with the more popular ones, I was with my own little clique of close friends (there were three of us in my group.. lol). But Sara was a great person and when I heard she didn't make it through one of her heart surgeries, it caught me completely off guard. Especially since I had just been to Crystal's funeral. I only went to her viewing, not the actual burial because the wake alone made me ill. All of these people were there that I had heard make fun of Sara and talk behind her backs and they were all hysterical like they were close to her. Maybe it was guilt? Maybe it was sincere? I'm not one to judge that, but I was annoyed.

It's hard to believe these people just slipped out of my life seven years ago. Seven years.. seems like forever. Yet it doesnt.

So today my mind is clouded. With memories, with prayers, with hope and loss. But I'm thankful, thankful for another day to be here. For another day to hold, hug, and kiss my girls and husband. I'll make a seperate blog post about the rest of my day. It just doesn't seem appropriate to jump from talking about the wonderful people I have to the day the girls and I had.

Crystal and Sara... we love and miss you!

Randomness

One of Ariel's many silly faces


Miss Clarity


How is she sleeping like that?!


Ahoy matey!

Still a secret

My blog and BOL are the only places where I can openly talk about how I'm feeling. I'm going to be 12 weeks tomorrow and still haven't told my family that there is going to be a new addition to our home. Too much has been going on with everyone else. My cousin just had her baby a month ago, my grandpa has been going through chemo and radiation weekly for the spot of cancer found in his lung.. the list goes on and on. I just dont feel anyone is going to be happy for us. So we've just been keeping this to ourselves and enjoying it in our own way.


Well enjoying may not be the right word! lol. I had a good few days (not perfectly normal feeling but normal enough) and then today blah! I haven't gotten sick yet although my body has sure tried to do it without my consent! I hit the second trimester in a week so I'm praying this slacks up a bit. Everyone in my "due in" forum is all "I never got sick!". Well lucky for you. I can't help but be a little jealous as I'm feeling all alone in the nausea, diarrhea and puke parties. It drives me bizerk when I read that everyone else has felt fine, never gotten sick, yada yada. I guess I must be taking it for them. Lucky girls.


I keep finding all these cute glitters saying "pregnant and sexy" "pregnant and beautiful". I have to laugh! I'm so not feeling either of those! Between the sickness, bloating, face breakouts, those aren't quite the ajectives I'd use to describe myself at this moment! Jesse bless his heart is such a trooper. It can't be easy to deal with me being so sick, emotional, and unattractive but he's wonderful. God bless him.

Jesse may be working out of state next week. His manager is looking into how much he'll get paid if he goes, so we can decide if it's worth it or not. We seriously need the money and I told him if it pays well, to go, that the girls and I would be fine. I'd miss him like crazy and I know the girls would too, but it's not definate yet. I'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Well I have to go make the girls some lunch. We've baked chocolate chip cookies together and eaten a few.. now it's time for something nutritious! I'm hoping to clean out the girls pool and let them go swimming today since our heat index is already 103. Yikes! We may just stay in the A/C depending on how I feel.

It could have been me

All these stories I've been reading about parents losing their babies, it sends chills up my spine that I could have been one of them. Today I took both of the girls outside to play on the deck. I was sitting in the swing, just relaxing in the shade watching them play together. I closed my eyes for a minute (I could still hear them) and opened them when I realized it was quiet. Clarity was no longer on the deck. Ariel had her back turned and I asked where Clarity was. Ariel goes walking around the deck and told me she didn't see her. I immediately jump up. I go running around calling her name. No answer. I run down the driveway and look, but don't see her so I figured I must have missed her up by the house. I figured maybe she was just playing her little quiet game, kind of hiding to the side while I look for her, which she tends to do. After a minute or two, I realized she wasn't up here and went tearing back down the driveway. I peek down further by the communtiy mailboxes and see her tiny body looking up at me. I go running down as fast as I could. When I reach her, I pop her butt twice and tell her that it was a no no to go down there and then I scooped her up and couldn't stop loving and kissing up on her. Poor Ariel had been in hysterics the whole time and praying out loud that God would keep her sister safe and help us find her. After I brought Clarity back up, Ariel continued to cry for at least 15 more minutes saying how much she missed and loved her baby sister. Heartbreaking. My feet are killing me with cuts and scrapes from running on the rocky pavement without shoes, small price to pay for losing my child!

Even though Clarity was only missing for maybe five minutes, it felt like an eternity to us. The whole time I was calling her name and searching for my precious baby, the thoughts of these other parents that had lost their babies ran through my mind. I was envisioning the worst and imagining my life without her. It was honestly the worst feeling I had ever had. The beating myself up and thinking I'm the worst mother possible hasn't let up too much even though this happened a few hours ago. All the "what ifs" keep running through my head. I mean we live in a small community and usually the only people that go up our side of the drive are us or one of our neighbors who are seaosonal and in their Florida homes right now. But there is never any traffic. Yet my mind keeps thinking "What if today there had been somebody. What if my baby had been hit and killed?" If I hadn't closed my eyes for that brief moment this wouldn't have happened. ugh. It just kills me. I just thank God soooo much that she's okay. That we're all okay right now. I ended up telling Jesse what happened, I was horrified at the thought that he would think I was some kind of idiot mom, but he just told me that kids are quick and we need to keep her inside today as a means of teaching her a lesson.

So there's the big story of my day. Pretty crappy one! Other than that, the heat is horrible. Our heat index is over 100 degrees and it's just so yuck! During the whole Clarity episode, I was sweating and sick. It took a while after getting back in the A/C to get rid of the nausea that started to overtake me after I calmed down.

Jesse only did four trouble calls today, so he got home pretty early. He said he heard a rumor that the company he works for is about to go under. Please God no. We cannot handle anymore financial strain. Our luck has been terrible since his dad moved here. He must've brought some bad voodoo with him or something the punk. Hopefully they're not doing all wonderful, after the mess they pulled with us. I hope they're hurting too. Who knows. All I know is Karma is a you know what, and someday, they'll get theirs. I just need to keep praying and looking on the bright side. God will see us through. He always does.

Before I go to bed

I wanted to type up this dream I had this morning. It was one of the most vivid, scary dreams I've ever had and I can't get it out of my mind. I know if I don't put it somewhere, I'm going to forget it. This is going to be long so...

I dreamed I was working for this doctor doing cleaning and stuff. His office was actually a part of his house, I guess. I was tired and had another girl hired to come in and help me. Jesse had Ariel and Clarity and they were there as well. Well this girl had something major against me and was talking about how she was going to turn me in to social services because I was constantly keeping the girls in danger and I didn't childproof the office well. Jesse ended up saying some mean things to her and she ended up giving me this pair of earrings that looked like coffee mugs (they were coffee mugs actually.. lol) with candy canes on them. Bizzare. I tried one on and it slit my earhole open. I freaked and the girl took off. I was running through the "house" looking for a book or something that will tell me what the doctor needs to do to fix my ear.

I run into this room that I've never been in before. It was really cold and dark. I notice there are like metal shelves and drawers. My first thought was that I had run into some sort of morgue. I was instantly creeped out. Then for some reason I start looking at the bodies. They all had stitches and scars in various places. None of them were covered with a sheet or anything, they were just kind of laying there. I find some children and I'm really starting to panic wondering what kind of "doctor" I was working with. All of a sudden they start waking up one by one. They can't move but they are making these eerie moans like they are in serious pain. I find a note taped to the wall that says "Give more medicine before they wake up. Don't forget". I tell them I'm going to get help and I run out to find the doctor.

I find him and explain to him what I've seen and he gets all panicky acting saying he can't believe he forgot about that. He rushes around and grabs a huge syringe and starts filling it. He says he has to go inject all of them to put them back under before he loses his license and he needs my help. I ask him what it was and he said it was called "Tropenol". Then for some reason instead of going and trying to help all of those people, he injects himself. He said it was just going to put him under for a while and when he woke up, he'd take care of the "situation". As he starts to collapse, the syringe gets Jesse and he gets injected with the stuff. I tell him we have to leave and get help before he goes under. We jump in the truck and as we're driving I start hallucinating that we're about to crash into cars. As we approach them and start to hit them, they were disappearing. All of a sudden he pulls over and says we just have to run because he couldnt drive anymore. As we're running, we only get a few feet before he collapses. I'm trying to run while dragging him but I get exhausted and can't go on. This doctor (a different one) drives up and decides to help us get back to our room. I ask her if Tropenol will kill him and she said no that he'd just be asleep for a few hours. She lies us both in a bed (I guess someone had taken the girls with them before all this even went down because I only saw them briefly at the beginning of the dream). As I'm starting to fall asleep, I think of all the people and how they were waking up and in pain but unable to go anywhere or get help and I know I need to tell the police or someone so I go to find the doctor...

then I woke up.

How bizarre was that one?!

Picture Time!

So I finally got some pics of my babies! Ariel wasn't being very photogenic today. Usually she's my smiley ham but all she wanted to do was make faces. In one of the pictures I posted it looks like she had been crying. She had. Poor kid was running around on the deck and smacked into one of the posts. lol. It was sad but funny at the same time (to me anyways). I dont think she laughed a bit.

Clarity was being kind of difficult too! Well that's not a big surprise, she's never been a camera fan. I guess she's like her mama in that sense. The one on her tricycle thing kills me because she was just sitting there in hysterics. lol. I'm not sure what her problem was, but she wasn't a happy camper.

All in all, we had fun. Jesse sprayed the girls with the hose (which is why Ariel is soaked looking) and we ran around and let them ride their bikes and have fun. I have yet to do my housework, so I guess I'd better get busy pretty soon since it's 7 p.m. We'll see how much I get done. All I really care about is the dishes and some laundry. The rest can wait until tomorrow I guess. For now it's time for me to eat some pepperidge Farm Triple Chocolate Cake with Confetti on top. OMG I'm about to go to Heaven!

I stole it!

Blog looks pretty sweet right? Well when I first started mine it was this pink mess. lol. Pink, Pink, Pink. Then I visited Misty's and hers was black with all these cool pretty fonts and I thought "oooh I like that so much better". So hence why mine is now snazzy. So to Misty.. I say thank you for helping me out of my pink ways and opening the horizon to something much cooler. Sorry I stole your blog look but it was so much better! I'm a copycat. lol.

Well Jesse, the girls and I just got done running some errands. He got a haircut and we ran to the avon store to get the bug repellant for the girls so they can enjoy some more time outside in our mosquito hell. lol. I had Jess swing into Wendy's (I know so healthy.. but that's how it's been lately. All I feel like I can handle is fast food. Figures). In the five minutes or so he was in Avon, I ate a cheeseburger and a large fry. He comes out and I'm complaining I dont feel well. Well once he realized what I ate in the time frame.. he said, "It's no wonder you don't feel good. I wouldnt either". lol. Then we come home and I eat some chinese from last night. Woah. Let's pack on the pounds in the first few weeks Frances. Jesse just walked in as I'm typing this and asked if I finsihed off the Chinese too. Oops. I just busted out laughing. I just think he's glad I'm getting food in me.

I'll probably be back on later today to add some more to my blog. I have to go do something "productive" around the house. Jesse made the joke that the only way I'm productive lately is by making kids. I guess I should show him! By the way, he's completely joking with me, not being mean. It's his day off so he's around to pick on me all day. I'm sure he's enjoying himself!

I'll try to take some pics of the girls today to add on here! It's time for an update!

Now for the love of my life

Daddy and Clarity

Daddy and Ariel at 2 weeks old



Daddy and Ariel

I would add some more pictures but I have to figure out how to move them around on this thing.. lol. In time I'll get the hang of this. But anyways on to Jesse. How I got lucky enough to marry this guy, I'll never know. Sure there are days when I swear he is going to drive me to an insane asylum, but then I know there are days when I do the same to him. So it evens out! He's such an awesome hands on daddy, a wonderful husband, my best friend. I hope and pray God lets us grow very old together. I can't believe we've practically been together going on 11 years and yet I find I'm more in love with him now than I've ever been. I guess as we grow and mature together, I realize, just how great he really is.

A tribute to Mr. Reynolds

On a happier note

Well today I haven't gotten sick (Praise the Lord and Knock on Wood). I took Chelle's advice and last night we went and got me a couple of bags of suckers (dum dums and Jolly Rancher ones). I'm not sure why it helps, but it really does! So thank you Chelle!

I am peeved! when we signed up to get this satellite internet (which is total junk by the way) we gave the guy our credit card number to cover the $250 equipment and installation fee. Well when he does his thing he tells me he needs $250. I thought he was completely joking because we had already given him our card number. Well it turns out, he wasn't. So I ended up writing him a check (which we barely had to spare). I checked our credit card today and the internet company has taken out our bill. We did not authorize them to do this! This is the second month in a row. The guy said the first month would be free which it obviously wasn't and he said they would bill us (which we haven't seen the first bill). I'm steaming because we're in credit card debt up to our eyeballs and they're doing this when we didn't give them persmission to? OMG. I can't wait to get these people on the phone. Gah!

Well Jesse's on his way home early today. He only had two trouble calls and then ran out of work. That's good, I guess because he can keep the girls out of my hair while I clean up while I actually feel like doing it! lol. I think I may actually get a lot accomplished today. so yippy skippy!

Ariel surprised me last night. She loves to watch The Goodnight Show on Sprout. Well there's a part on the show where the girl says "Hush hush little fish. We are here to make a wish. We close our eyes and then we start to make a wish with all our hearts" and she does sign language at the same time. Well I look over and Ariel is doing it motion for motion and saying the little saying. It was so sweet! God she's growing up so fast.

Can't believe I'm already looking at stuff for a second birthday next month! Clarity is just growing up before our eyes too. I guess they tend to do that! I'm not sure what the theme of her little party will be, but I'm leaning towards Wonder Pets since she loves them so much. I also think Curious George is cute too and so fitting for her! I don't have a say in what Ariel wants anymore since she's such a big girl. Her birthday isn't until January but she's already telling me she wants a dinosaur party. Big surpise! hehe.

Jesse and I are hoping to take the girls out to Gatlinburg probably in January. I know it's months and months away, but I'm already looking forward to it. I love it out there!

crybaby!

Maybe this morning wasn't the best morning for Jesse to harp on me about something I do that drives him crazy. It opened the floodgates and they haven't stopped. He felt bad, telling me he was sorry that he shouldn't have given me a hard time because I'm having a hard enough time on my own. Dang right I am. It's nearly 6 am and I've been up since 2 am sick. I didn't fall asleep until after midnight so I'm running on nothing basically. I have gotten sick more times this morning than ever and I'm sooo tired of it. Usually throwing up scares me to death but right now I don't even care.. I just want to feel better. Unfortunately it's not really helping. I'll feel better for about ten minutes or so and then the waves of nausea start hitting again. Rediculous. Please give me a break. lol.

I did end up feeling better yesterday, so there is hope that today won't be a total waste. The girls did get to go out and play. I took them out on the deck and let them ride their bikes around (after spraying the heck out of them with the avon bug guard). I just sat on the kids porch swing or in the rocking chair and let them have a good time. It was so nice watching them having fun and laughing. Ariel found a cardboard box and her and Clarity got in pretending it was a car. It was so cute. Then Clever little Ariel said she needed a steering wheel and went and grabbed an empty cat food bowl. It is so much fun watching your kids use their imaginations. It's just so innocent and cute and as you get lost in their world, there isn't a negative thought that can enter your mind.

Well I'm off to make my rounds to the potty. Dear Lord knows I don't have anything left to get rid of but my body sure thinks so. This is horrible. Maybe this will be the last time today (I can pray) and I'll just go lay down with my babies and crash. I'm so tired and my stomach and chest muscles are so sore. But on a funny note, as I was getting sick, I pictured Dane Cook and his joke about how when you throw up your butt does all these crazy manuvers, and I busted out laughing mid puke. That's a sexy man if he can make you laugh when you are so miserable. God bless Dane.

Yucky

Wow today has started off miserably. I woke up with Jesse because I fell asleep before putting the load of wash in the dryer and he needed some work clothes. After making sure that was taken care of, I laid back down hoping to get some more sleep. Hah! I laid in bed for two hours perfectly still watching CNN. I was afraid if I moved, I'd throw up all over myself. Well after two hours, I couldn't take it anymore. I went and got sooooo sick. I was relieved thinking at least I'd feel better. Well I never did. Two hours later I was getting just as sick. The queasy feeling never went away. I was having a lovely time. It's 2 PM and I'm just now feeling like I can eat without having it come back for a visit. So I'm taking things slow and eating pasta w/out sauce and a roll. I did eat some strawberry applesauce earlier and so far so good.

oh gosh I'm a dork!

You know how I was all complaining about UPS not delivering my package? I feel like such a dummy. I emailed UPS and Kohl's and it turns out Kohl's has it said up where the package is delivered to a nearby post office. So when the tracking number said it was delivered, that just meant to the post office.. lol. I should be getting the girls clothes via the mail lady in a couple of days. Jesse and I laughed about this so hard last night. They probably think I'm am a complete fruit loop. Oh well! I didn't know.

Jesse's had a rough week at work this week. They've been sending him on a bunch of local trouble calls which don't pay squat. So he's been a bit down but I told him to just be relieved he's getting a break. He'd run himself into the ground to make sure we are well taken care of. I never dreamed I'd have such a hard working man that is willing to provide for our family while I stay home with our girls. It's got to be overwhelming to him sometimes. I hope he knows how grateful we are.

I've kind of had a rough day myself. My stomach is just not being nice to me today :o( Which in turn makes for a boring day for the girls with me not really being in a playful mood. We've been watching a lot of sprout and noggin today. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow (it has been everyday lately). I'd love to just feel good and take the girls out to play. If it weren't for the darn mosquitoes being so bad this year, we'd be spending a lot more time outdoors. Poor Ariel looks like she has a case of the chicken pox. It's time to go hit up the avon store for their bug guard. I swear that's the only stuff that works on that poor girl.

Well I guess I'd better go cook dinner, get the girls baths, and clean up a bit. The house is slowly coming back to order. I just work on it a little bit at a time as I feel like it. It's going to be a simple dinner tonight. Spaghetti, veggies, and garlic cheese bread. Simple but sounds sooo good to me right now! I'm sure we'll have root beer floats for dessert.

Darn it!

You know how I've been waiting for that fabulous brown UPS truck to come bringing my box? Well it didn't come today either so I checked the tracking number and it said it's been delivered! It sure didn't come here. It said it was delivered in Franklin NC. That's an hour away! I'm not sure how that mistake could have been made, but obviously UPS found a way. Go big brown! lol. I've contacted UPS and also Kohl's but it will probably be tomorrow before I hear back from either one of them since I discovered this little oopsie so late. I really hope I get my box. I'm sure they'll offer me a refund but I've been dying to put those clothes on the girls and I'd rather have them. We'll see what happens.

The girls have been pretty good today. We all slept in (well with the exception of the man of the house.. he's always up and at em to go to work for us. God bless him) until almost 11 am! I guess that's what happens when we're just leaving the grocery store at 12:30 am. I told you we would get a late start! lol. I didn't expect it to be that late... but it was. We did a lot of shopping. We got a lot of groceries, Jesse some shorts and rubber boots for when he has to work in the mudslides at somebody's house on a rainy day, and I gave in and bought Ariel (and Clarity too.. of course it's "theirs") a Treasury of Animals and Nature book. It's really interesting and has tons of cute info. Even though it was nearly 1 am by the time we got in bed and settled down, we still read Ariel the pages about the dinosaurs. Then her and I snuggled up and watched part of Jurassic Park 3 before we crashed out.

I didn't feel like getting anything done today! I mean I kept the girls fed and played with them but as far as housework. Barely! I still have dishes in the sink, laundry to do, floors to sweep and floormate (and this needs to be done desperately). The whole house looks like a disaster zone! I'd never let anyone over. lol. Hopefully this extreme tiredness will ease up and I'll find some motivation (I have the mental motivation.. the house is in need of serious cleaning. I mean it's not so bad social services would take the kids or anything but it's bad for me). I need the physical motivation. An energy rush of some sort. Oh wouldn't it be nice!

Well the girls have had their bath and are playing together. I'm so glad we've had a great day as far as them getting along. They are really good about being friends and I'm so grateful for that. Ariel sometimes gets annoyed with her baby sister always wanting to do what she's doing, but for the most part, they would be lost with each other. I pray they continue to grow closer with each year and they are best friends for life. I would love to see that in my girls.